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The reason that keeps me hanging on : all most of you

Lunch with pep later onnnnn! Cant wait.
Kinder-joy is damn nice, i tell you. I like.

Most probably chilling out with junyi @ night. Today is a not bad:)
im quite honoured you even bother reading my blog. Most of you did. whoa!:)

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What is happening to me? To percussion, the one and only section with people i love so much? To my dreadful life?

To percussion -
Hey guys, though i didnt go for band for like dunno how many weeks/practices/months already, im still very much updated bout what is happening during practices and i know you guys have put in lots of effort for this year's syf. I have no idea this became so bad that the section will be pulling the whole band down..but fret not cause you guys still rock like how you guys always do! I'll pray for you guys and i'll pray for myself to go for practices toooo!

Lim cheer up alright. After hearing what b said about you looking really disappointed, i cant help but feel sad too. I know you've been trying your best to ask the percussionists to come for practices, encouraging us all, and trying your very best to prove to mrs chua that we can all do it. Sorry if we disappoint you, and i know how it feels to hear what mrs chua said bout us(bad stuffs still) all in front of the whole band, especially when you are the section leader. CHEER UP! we'll all do it, and i promise i'll come for practices more often. Where's the cheerful lim i used to know?:)

Yap, never failed to teach me the notes on the xylophone, do come to church more often yeah? Doubt you might read this but do help lim whenever you can as you guys are the so-called most pro ones already! (L) go rooftop soooon!

Yuqi Dont feel lazy to go(though i always do) for practices okay! HAHA:P At least you're able to participate and played something for syf, so dont give up! :)

Brid Know you feel sian bout band and also sometimes discouraged bout it, but i'll come for practices to pei you yeah:) thanks for always asking me to go though i didnt really cared. :P (L) the sec ones are in your hands(and perhaps mine too)

Yeahhhh the rest, all the best, you guys can do it:)
I guess i must go for band already, this is keeling us all.

AND sometimes i really cant be bothered already.

I miss nissi salt and i must not backslide.
I miss nissi salt and i must not backslide.
I miss nissi salt and i must not backslide.
(x10000000000000000)

I wanna watch van helsing and v for vendetta.

I will not be going to school tomorrow because someone just passed away. Someone deep in my heart.(somehow) rest in peace. So dont bother ruining my day. When someone dies you wont want to know how hurt it is.

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5 o' clock and a fire escape symphony,

Spilling out across the road and the square,

And the sky's the same. as youre alone, do you think of me?

Do the parks, and trees, and the leaves, reach you, there?

After the rain, in the lonely hour as he haunts me, calling out,

Again and again.

Sophia, Sophia, I'm burning, I'm burning.

It's a fire, it's a fire,

I cannot put out,

Sophia, Sophia,

I'm learning that some things,

I can't go without and one of them is him.

And now I walk these streets like a stranger in my home town,

Learn the language, form the words when I speak,

But he changed me, I'm his ghost since he came around,

And now I count the hours and the days in the weeks.

Passion and silence,

Every word, every line, a measure,

It's the science of the soul,

And his books, they breathe a reason and now I wanna know

sigh sigh x2

"A wretched soul, bruised with adversity, We bid be quiet when we hear it cry; But were we burdened with like weight of pain, As much of more we should ourselves complain."
- William Shakespeare

School's a jail cell with lots of hell. Practically everything in school is something i dread so much in my daily life.(maybe not but close) Hopefully there's chemistry tomorrrrow(as you know i have no timetable haha pathetic) because i get to talk to _______ ahahahhaha. But i dont like the subject.

Physics suck and will always suck. History is mad but managed to cope well. Chinese is a no hope. English is equivalent to free period and marker fights with ah pui. Maths is a disgusting period because of insane chanting burping lumpy. Chapel is holy holy sleeping time. Chem is gossiping girls. Dnt equals to machine and "dandruff" on hair. Free period, EAT EAT EAT! hahahahaha have no idea why i typed this but so true.

I AM BORED DUNG and i realised i had time to blog.

Band people is going to keel me because i pon for like dunno how many times. hallehlujah.

I XXX you.

sigh.

I cant stand ed. Get on my nerves sometimes.
No, most of the time. Sigh.

On a lighter note, i need a break. Bring me somewhere nice.

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How does it feel like to be left out in the cold, betrayed by the wind and frozen by the snow?
How does it feel like to feel your heart shatter, once and for all, never patching back?
How does it feel like to scream through the pillows, never been heard and never been saved?

I feel the sense of great loss and and betrayal, by whom i do not know, yet feel the piercings of them all. The words i used which i dont know, the words i used which i feel so, the words that i can never understand but use them still. I have no idea what this all means but i just want whom i do not know to get lost, away from my life. If it's something miserable you're going to do to me, why do you even bother? For i have never offend the sun, why must it shine so brightly and start blinding me? For the wind i leave alone, it has no right to blow me away.

The fat and the tall i always see, i have nothing against you thee. Why must you do this to me?
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You'll get nothing by being an eyesore. - unknown

(hahahahaha z you know who im referring to)

bah.

OKAY.
and tomor will be the start of a new week, also equals to : monday blues, common tests, gym, band, homework, and i dont know but not something too good.

Me : Why is she so sad?

Clarence : Cause she've tuesday blues, havent recover from monday.

Clarence : then tmr will be wednesday yellow, thursday green..

something wrong with my brains.

I always tell myself to blog today but today will never happen.

So now im dead and im dead and im dead and even if im not cause im still here blogging, i wish to die. I WISH TO DIE died dead. Because sometimes i hate life and fuck life, please. Urg.

I've got a screw loose in my head.

peaceeeee.

peace.

cause i'll blog tomorrow.

eclipse

I love 98.7fm.

"Love you, Jacob."
He laughed lightly. "Love you more."
He watched me walk out of his room with an unfathomable expression in his black eyes.

jieeehui says: hahaha im like blogging about you now!!

vanz, then you talk, cool
vanz : says: HAHAHAHAHA YAY

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happy 3rd month!

because i love you and i love you still.

and the way you took care of me when im sick,

no one could ever do that(except my mum,duh)

The way you showed me love and love alone,

makes my heart melt way too fast.

Just need you.

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Erm its the start of breaking dawn! Eclipse is done in less than a weekkkk. Proud. Just so you know, i took a month or so to finish new moon. Weeeeehhaaaaaa it feels so incomplete to not read it. Just. Couldn't. Put. It. Down.

SHARK TALE NOWWWWWWW hahahaha oscar has thick lips.

tomor's day out with z after schoooooool! Hopefully there'll be frolicks and unexpected happy stuffs that makes the outing niceeee:)

SIANNNNNNNNNN schooooool tmr *sighhhhhhhhhhh long long long* monday blues and many 'ews'.

bed-ridden

Am i dying? I think i am. Or maybe not. Or else i wouldnt be here blogging. Sigh.
shivering in the cold, she hugged herself tight.

I've been sick since wednesday and i've spend most of the time lying on the bed reading eclipse. Perhaps thats the only thing i could do. But I wanna thank someone who's always there for me, staying by my side and providing me with everything i need, taking full care of me and never leaving my side. Thank you. (L)

Im still sick. SIGHHHHZXXZZXXZZXZZX. bang wall bang wall bang wall.