First and more to go.

HAPPY FIRST MONTH. (L)
I found myself while busy loving you. Thanks for all the surprises, expected/unexpected. The lameness in you which cannot be gotten rid off makes me love you even more. The way you said nothing after calling my name and the way you copy me(unintentionally) in whatever thing i say or do makes you silly yet irresistable. Stars shine brighter somehow and planes are attracted to you whenever you come to my place. Perhaps they want you to love them like how you love me.
All in all, I love you and i know there's more to come. There's more airtalking/airsmiling/airlaughing/airthinking than these. And i (L) you because you make me laugh like a siao char bor. Thanks honey! Always my Sex God Boyfriend. (angus,thongs and perfect snogging) HAHA:D

CHRISTMAS SHOPPING TOMORROW!

p/s and thanks for new moon. First my new moon's lost and left in Japan, now its back in a brand new wrapper, from you and only you. I love you! And i can start continueing twilight's whole series plus rant bout Edward Cullen again. Definitely happy ending.

dreams ran like sand.

I hate dreams. Dreams that somehow involve people dying. 2 times in a day. Whats next?
3, 4, 5?
I dont like seeing people die in my naps, my sleeps, my dreams.
It's scary.

Hero by superchick is, addicting.

apologetic

im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry.

im sorry val, i realised you have to ask me to bring you out, or else i wouldnt even bother. Its you who told me i've changed, making no time for you but only for myself and my friends. Its you who said i dont even bother bringing you to your favourite place - library. I seldom see you anymore, even when you're just afew blocks away. You had to sms me, to ask me to go over. You're left alone, doing nothing at home. I promise, i promise i'll take you out more often. -jie.

im sorry z, seems like i've never thought bout how you feel. Never tried hard enough to make you feel (L), never give in my best. Im sorry.

im sorry m, i've lost your watch. A watch you dont even bear to wear it on yourself, yet let me bring it overseas. I dont know how else to repay it back you, how to get it back, how to lessen your remorse. I hope i can do something. Sorry.

Sigh. I still dont like how im feeling now. I dont like...quarrelling.

sheesh

pfffffft.

i dont want anything anymore.

i dont like how im feeling now.

i just dont like.

POKGAI

Visions so insane,
Travel unraveling through my brain,
Cold when I am denied it,
Your light is ultraviolet,
Ultraviolet.

X'mas bash was sane sane sane fun fun fun God God God I (L) GOD.

And im still very sad about my peekturesssss not being able to be uploaded in the comp))))):
This is bad, very bad.

On a lighter note, ARE YOU EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS??
I am, cause its bout God and well....PREZZIES!! Exchanging timeeeeee. Presents here presents there presents everywhere right under the christmas treeee :))))
and im more excited bout the christmas shopping part.

SHIT SWEETS FOR YOU COUSINS. im sorry there's nothing better cause shopping wasn't everything. ): but its nice you'll see it later!

This is something i think my mum thought she's being funny. :@
I wrote this on the whiteboard(after we quarrelled) :
SHUT UP LAR! NOISY! STUPID.
And she added(while im on my way to x'mas bash) :
SHUT UP LAR van! NOISY! STUPID van.

so not funny. kudaSAI. I love saying pokgai to people now.
random.

ULTRAVIOLET

IM BACK. (since wednesday actually)

Anyway, im alittle too tired and lazy to elaborate much bout the japan trip(especially when the pictures are not done uploading it yet), cause it simply rocks and i can so bet that you people will be jealous bout it. HAHA, kidding. But yeah, japan's da bomb, percussion's da sexxxxx. There's even new words created by us and only us the percussion, called pokgai/porkkai/pokeye/pokaye(actual spelling not decided yet) and kudasai and etc. We(the best: van pris and pris) have the messiest room in the whole hotel, the stinkiest room with chips all over the bed and clothes thrown all over the floor, most number of shoes when combined together, and we made people freak out after looking at our room and go saying: " hahaha love us come in lah if not then dont. Very messy/stinky one." but anyway, only the percussion members dare come in. I think. :DDDDDD yay so much more, but i just cant describe it. :) pictures sooooooon! (hopefully)

i miss pris and pris so badly nowwwww): HAHA.

And i wanna thank momah and popeh, nat and lesean and zhi hong, for coming to the airport to welcome me back home!:)

Thursday was day out with pepper esther, watched angus,thongs and perfect snogging. Super duper wuper nice:DDDDD and then we trained back home, walking ever so slowly cause we dont wanna part each other. (L)

Yesterday was day home with z, and night out at ACJC watching nat's church's play called the zebra consequences. :) Then KAP with pris, pris and nat.

All in all, everything's going well, japan's a big fat bomb, so much better than mas selamat's tiny weeny bomb, and i simply miss everything there. EVEN..TOSHIKI! and the jap boys&girls:)

CYA allllll, xmas bash later...hmm. (?)(!)(.)(@)

:) japan!

HI IM IN JAPAN NOW. and am using the hotel's computer:)

So i'll get back to the blog soon, :) see yaw all.

ps : you: there's something in my draft for you.

How?

AWAY, 10dec to 17dec.

Im not done with packing my black humongous(not really) lugguage. Fact is, i dont really know how to. Everything depends on mom. Im so eggcited yet so scared for the trip. Its gonna be a long seven days. Will i die there? Or...what if i fall ill since the weather's so so so frigging cold and im already ill in sg with the humid weather? Or what if my new phone's lost, drop in toilet bowl etc etc..or what if someone steal my camera..or i left it in the hotel or something? Or what if, I forgot to bring my passport. Gawd. I should stop worrying and just start enjoying.

Band today! For once, i wasnt late, AT ALL. actually was late for like 33 seconds? Cause i went opposite to get hamburger gummies and green tea:) But whatever. Basically practice and go through the songs needed for japan trip, hajimemashite! HAI HAI HAI! then camwhored all the way. Lim is spastic. So is Cally. I too, of course. We the retarded kids, japan is gonna be a huge camera bomb! We gonna go bombing click click click! Peeeektures all the way even when we're in our pyjamas! :DDDDD

Town with yap, bitch bout bitches and gossip talks. We got the same bottles for japan trip and i finally got the second book of twilight, new moon! Unexpected. Its gonna be reading in the plane. And art friend for name cards, we are nice people who's gonna do name cards for kinkies! (i havent even started making one, lolololllll:D)

An hour with moron.

and i realised there's still so much i need to know about you. I dont know why, am i starting to doubt you? No, it couldnt be. I cant bear to anyway. Its hard. You asked me once, to think bout how/what/who you really are before listening to what others have to say bout you, and i know you've changed. But still, i want all truth. So hard to speak up for you when i cant even answer the question someone asked bout you. I just want you so badly now.

Oh no, its tomorrow! SO FAST. im really eggcited. im gonna bring back boxes and boxes of pocky! :)))))

percussion really sucks sometimes...but rawk most of the times:) Hear from me when im back, its gonna be a long story.

XOXOXOXO, ALL MY LOVEEEEEEEEEEE, van.

bored.

i want to be blonde.

We rust, one day.

Im done with showing off(not), hahahaha.

Anyway. Chinatown stinks, the chinese medicine and stuffs..especially the oilments. Hell stinky. But dad says its a tradition or something(??). The herbs and stuffs, good for health.(???) Crowded on a public holiday, squeezing here and there. We went to chinatown, dad mom and me, to go look for boots and socks and money changer. It was horrible at first, till I finally got my boots socks stockings disposable underwear(lol) and bonus long sleeve shirt. ^^ heheh. But but but i was forced to gobble down a tall bottle of chinese medicine which took me 2 hours to finish it. (thanks to never curable flu)

All in all chinatown was not bad la, though abit louyapok. :@@@

12 pm to be in school for band. BEST!
Warning : i havent pack my lugguage lol:D

"Dont leave me," I cried, an irrational surge of panic flooding through me. I couldn't let him go - he might disappear from me again.

I think i caused my parents to spend alot, far too much. I think...im officially financially broke.

And twilight is killing me. Edward cullen reminds me of you. It's you i think about so often, every single day.

Off to packing! I hope my luggauge wont be so heavy, and screwedddd:@@
allllllll my love! (L)