Etah ouy.

You can ask the whole world to hate me,
But not the whole world will listen to you.

FROLICKS + PLAYGROUND + PICTURES + RAINBOW BADGE = LOVE NG JING QI.

Hi im happy today.
Say all you want about me to others, its alright.
Grow Up.

I know i dont have any photography skills, hahahaha.
But you love me anyway right ah qi:)

Uoy neam nosrep, gintah em ntnsi a noitulos ot lla smelbmorp. elohssa :)
eb erutam :D

Bye.

Memories, they're following me like a shadow now. And I'm dreaming, And I've already suffered the fever of disbelief. I've seen your act And I know all the facts. I'm still in love with who I wish you were. It ain't hard to see who you are underneath. And I wish you were here. I was true as the sky is blue. I couldn't soon say the same for you. So now I find denial in my eyes, I'm mesmerized by the picture that's in my mind. Tell me when I'll finally see your shallow heart, For what it is Cause I don't want to keep on believing in illusions.

Maybe being alone in class could make me study harder, strive for higher results and goals? Maybe. Should Be. Most probably.

Didnt went to school today, faked-sick? My sore eyes are getting better, but it itches a hell lot. I could just - dig my eyeballs out. I dont like seeing ugly things, i've seen enough in this world. Looking at myself in the mirror makes me want to smash the mirror immediately.

Out to holland with cousin tmr right after school, cant wait!:)

Was suppose to go Band today, guess i was lazy or something? Lim sent me a message right after Band, It was touching to know that people in s.u.p misses me:) Hahaha! Should have gone in the first place. I wouldnt be so bored at home. Luckily Plank came to accompany me today :)

Dad's omelette is like a not bad, can be improved:) Lesean smsed me in classss too, :DDD
I treated Mum to bubble tea, sadly she chose the wrong one and doesnt really like it:( Oh well! She does appreciate it though:)

Kiss.Faint.Kill.
I kiss, You Faint, I Kill, You Die.

Recess with Lim tomorrrrowww, hope it all goes well.
I dont need people to like me. I dont need to bother if they hate me. As long as there's still true friends around, I dont have to worry. Besides, God knows what we are doing:)

Mum says i have to buck up and do well right now. And to reward me for every test i pass, she'll buy me a prezzie:) Yessss.

I. Cant. Escape. Anymore. I. Have. To. Face. This. All. Over. Again.

A strong front i'll have to put up, but it wont last long.

YESSSS FROLIC:D
byebyebyebyebyeeee.
i'll stand up by myself again.

Oh btw, Thanks Junyi for praying for me:) Much love.

Child : Lord..Tell me what to do, where to start, when to start.
God : My dear child, Start Now, Right here where you are. Do what's right.
Child : But Right now, Im in A mess.
God : And the mess shall be gone entirely, right after you believe in me. Are you ready?
Child : *Thinks* Yes Lord.

:) God has a solution to all problems.

Not alone.

Im Not Alone.
I Dont Need you all to live.
I Dont Need such people who wont give second chances.
I Dont Need your sympathy.
I Dont Need any of you.
I Dont Need to Apologise.
For You All just Dont Appreciate it.

Cause there's God, and many other people there for me:)
Thank you all.

ME (L) MJ AL BT LY BUS-MATE NJW NJQ CORR VG LS KK + NISSI SALT.

And Thanks Noah Yap LiYuan For the Prayer, God Bless you:)

Goodnight.

Seriously, Im finally free.

xoxo.

Tired. Happy. Sad. Love. Hate.

PLANKKK:)
BAND:)
S.U.P:)

YAYYYYY:D





k fine bye.

wish you were here.

I wish you were here.
I wish there's more to us.
I wish this connection between us will someday grow stronger and stronger.
I wish you'll be in my heart and mind always.
I wish to put you first instead of anyone.
I wish to have some quiet time between you and me.
I wish I could change my personality and lifestyle all for you.
I wish to read about you, talk about you, and do everything or anything about you.
I wish more for us.

Yes Lord, i really do.









And its happening now.

:)

SATURDAY

Saturday was a fabulously great time in crescent girl's with the band, and a better-than-fabulous time with God and cellgroup after band.

Crescent was having some sort of learning fair and so we were like performing there when Kenneth (-.-) *erhem* DROPPED crescent girls' crash cymbals. It was like sort of a short bizarre. And can tell that Mr.Quek is like shocked and angry lorh. Plus the band wasnt really disciplined at that time that we had to get a scolding from mr.quek. ):

Anywayyyyy, after that lim yap sonya sonya's bro and me were planning to escape from "Grace lee" and so we girls had a private discussion in the toilet.

Yap : oh shit i need to pee.

Me : wait ar, tying my shoelace.

Lim : quick quick later grace lee come.

Me : wait lah.

Yap : i think i pee-ed.

*all 4 looks on bench*

Me : its wet.

Sonya : omg.

Lim : what?!! You pee-ed here?! on the canteen's bench?!

Yap : continues laughing and says yes. *stands up*

Me : omg omg omg wtf you really pee-ed? your skirt is WET with a circular patch &%*$#@!

Hahaha it was like hell funny coz we all really think Yap pee-ed but actual fact is she sat on the wet bench. But if she really pee-ed then her whole skirt should be wet. I think.

Was suppose to go to orchard with them but realise that imma good goodie christian and thus chose to go church. :))) also because i wasnt informed that they were going orchard so didnt bring much $$$.

Cor's mum fetched me and cor to beauty world to had macs before going to church. Met serene there:)

Was very late for service but manage to catch up soon after. :D

Cellgroup splitted into three groups and yes, im in wei liang's group:) He's a really funny person for i met him for the first time just ytd. Same goes to ann. Friendly people,mm:) Btw wei liang is in NS now and so we kept making fun of his so-called botak. :D We talked about ways to control anger and shared about our experience with those people we are angry with.

I shared about _____ ):{ I admit i dont feel so angry anymore but still alittle unhappy about it. :) Anyway.

Oh and "Forgive and Forget" originates from Bhuddism. oh my. (as you all can see, i put forgive and forget in one of my post. shucks. I shall cancel it at once, total bullshit manz. )

We christians forgive and let it go, but we dont forget. Because it is hard to forget.

What Wei liang said is true. If person A quarrelled real badly with person B and 10 years later they become the best of friends, what happen 10 years before will still be kept in their mind. They would still remember the day when they quarrelled real badly. Unless, short term memory. Thats an exception. :)

I still remembered that me and cor arent friends for quite a period of time last year. But now we are like, :))))) yay.

At 6+ three groups joined back and we had Praise and Worship. :) Micorn played the guitar and we all sing along :) Dinner tgt at beauty world before each/some of us go our seperate ways.

Junyi Liyuan Alden Corrinne Shannon Ruth IngIng and me went to lot one before Shannon went home and the rest of us went to my house downstairs:) Crapped and listen to christian songsssss lol:DDD

Then back home yippee yippee yay :D

SADLY I DONT HAVE ANY PIZZTURESZZX of people at salt 1. ): i'll try to get their faces on pics soon k:)

SUNDAY

Bible study and me and ruth didnt really win nor lose time coz we both met at our house bus-stop since we both are like late late late ahaha:D Btw ruth stays just a few blocks away from me :) Corrinne couldnt come coz of her brotherrr ):{

Sat with alden junyi wei liang ruth and liyuan duing bible study:)

The world is going to end. But it no longer ends with a flood, it ends with fire.

(?)

Home.

And no, wei liang, i will not bombard you with too many stupid questions anymore, hahaha:)

My leg is going taico and fuggly can. Stupid mosquitos. One of those bites might be a dengue kind of thing - says mum. I think she's trying to scare me. MOSQUITOS ARE EVIL.

Its murder, when you call someone an idiot. Idiot seems nothing to you, but idiot means murder to God. You dont Hate, you Dislike. And if God can love the person you dislike, then why cant you? Besides, be angry only if there's a good reason to be, if not, forget it.

I think i shall go take a nap.

Hello im competing with the time now and i know i'll win.

Oh btw, date's wrong. Today should be Sunday and yesterday should be Saturday.
SOOOO anyway, saturday was a really great day with cellgroup and i promise i will elaborate this after bible study.

Now this is all done, short and sharp and i win time.
Let's see if i could reach choa chu kang station by 12.20 :) (btw it's 11.55 now T__T and havent change.)

Yay meeting Ruth :))))) + junyi liyuan alden corrinne perhaps?

God bless.

taggggs.

HELLO IM REPLYING TAGS HERE :)

• Shoman : Yes holland one day love cuzzie:)
• Jingqi : WOAH yay frolicks, let go eat and collect badges! :D i've got so many dates to frolicks hahaha!
• Bridget : you cant kill me coz you love me (L)
• Potato : Yes i know, i miss you tooooo! xoxo! (i miss camp like 12322354)
• Eunice : will link you bus mate, (L):D
• Shihui : Nigel? O____o hmm yep from concord and i think i rmb you. o__O
• Hong Sheng : LOL hello me is frog princess laaaa:D how am i suppose to know why im cute? hahahh! (:
• Potato : Yessss, but im okay now! :) God bless you tooooooo potato! (L) you many xoxo!
• Daphne : YO:D
• Regi : erhem copycat uhhhh! hahahaha HELLO(:

okay byebyebyebye.

jammed in between.

i wish life's better.

i (L)(L)(L) frisbee.
i (L)(L)(L) S.U.P (slacker union percussion yay)
i (L)(L)(L) niaoer and friends.
i (L)(L)(L) ..plank?
i (L)(L)(L) frolicks/cold rock/haagen daz.
i (L)(L)(L) soccer.
i (L)(L)(L) the things i love.

i (H)(H)(H) zitch and mustards.
i (H)(H)(H) sai.
i (H)(H)(H) your attitude.
i (H)(H)(H) me.
i (H)(H)(H) the things i hate.
i (H)(H)(H) more than i (L)(L)(L).

Life's a bore, oh i wish for more.

It seems like im starting to communicate with my parents through white board/phone.
Everytime im back, they're out.
Everytime im out, they're home.
And daddy's been leaving messages on the white board.
Mummy's been smsing me.
Here's one.

"Van darling, daddy bought dinner for u. Mummy go out, daddy also. Call us if you need anything, k? -Love, pa."
*white board.*

Is this good or bad? Communicating parents through leaving messages or phone?
Oh well. It's bad, i miss my parents somehow.

I wanna sleep late late late tonight. :D:D:D:D:D:DDDDD

Oh yah there's suppose to be class outing at sentosa today but because of band (walao-.-), i cant go. GAHZXXZ !$#%&?!%@!

Band tomorrowwwww, 8.45 ): Like a dung lehhh.
Church afterthat, hmm.

bye.

EDIT!
hi hi hi im back.
I just realised that though there are ups and downs in life, life's still not bad.
Like what alvin have said : " If you keep thinking that life's bad, life naturally becomes worse."
And yeah its really true.
If you think that life's good, life would eventually be good.
If you think that its bad, of course your thinking might really affect it and life would be like ten times worse.

Shit this is the first time i agree with that retarded alvin hui beanbean manzxzx.

I should just love life and yeah, heck bout unpleasant stuffs, care bout happy thingssss:)
Unpleasant stuffs arent worth to occupy your mind.

Lastly, i love God many many.

THE CONTENDER IS SO KEWLLLLL wrestling yops.

SAVE ME from her him you me i she he what who where when.
and so i said.
Frolick. (!!) finally.

If i could escape from this reality, i would have done that a long long time ago.
Bring me somewhere else, i dont mind mars.
I'll be living happily there, perhaps. Eating mars chocolate bars everyday.
The aliens there might be friendly and fun too, unlike some people on earth now.
There might be humans that are happyhearty-deprived living there, and i could make friends with them.
Happy people and happy people click well.
But i'll have to continue day/night/noon dreaming, somehow.
It's not real.

Life still goes on, getting worst each day. EFFFFFFF.
asshole asshole asshole you this asshole

LORD, you asked me to forgive and forget. But how can i always forgive and forget, when its already so hard to forgive. Besides, so what if i've forgiven that person? It too, is hard to forget. So what if i've done struggling through forgiving, i still have to struggle through yet another forgetting. And what if that person take it for granted and do it again and again? Do i have to always struggle through forgiving and forgetting? And if it's really like that, then what if he/she done me wrong for a 100 times? Does that mean i have to forgive and forget a 100 times too? I give up. Its too hard to forgive, let alone forget. End this thing nowwww, clear this mess now, father i beg you. Im too tired to go on with such things. Why do you let me live in the first place lord? Its just misery. If im here because im here to carry on the task im given with, why do i not seem to find the task i have to work on? If im here to obey your commands, why not shuff it straight to my face? Dont drag anymore. Please?

goodnight.

p/s: oh me and regi caught frolicks at holland v just now yay its super yummy. home with eme and mel and stay back with brid + evan:)

i look like sai.

happy 14th birthday niaoerrrrr(L)(L)(L)!

zitch.

I LOVE MUMMMMMYYYYYY. (L)
(except when she starts nagging like there'll be no tomorrow.)

ANYWAY TODAY IS LIKE A DUNGGGGG. (except for dinner with mummyyy)
Besides, the whole world is always like a pile of dung, no mistakes. Everytime,everyday,everywhere.
Tsk tsk, tomorrow is niaoer's birthday.
Niaoer says she's gonna have big big crabs with her family. T___T fine lah niaoer how can you do this to me.
Hope she have time for ussssss!(L)

SAKAE SUSHI for dinner, ordered loads of red and coloured plates:)
Then went to get niaoer's prezzzzie if not later she gua gua jiao say why never give her anything. .___. LOL. kiddinggg.
Oh and i realised i talk alot, ( and i mean ALOT) when im with my mum.
Talk about bitches and happy mates in school, and about studieswhere to go eat ice cream:)

Mummy bought lots of stuffs for me today, and i finally got a waterbottle to replace my old lost one. Finalllly.

Band today and there's performance at crescent girls on sat which is like o____o so sudden.
Cant wait for the trip to japan!:)

Last but not least, I HATE YOU, you zitch of a zitch of a zitch and a zitch of a mustard. LOL.
YOU, better stop your nonsense you little pile of smelly cow dung.

Goodnight everyone anddddd, plankton:)

Lord, get rid of her pleaseeeeee SAVE ME.

it hurts down to my soul.

Yuqi,brid,evan,vannnn:D
Van and Evannnn:)Van and Esther:)))
-
One thing to say and that is, I HATE YOU.
and i want plankton nowwwww):

It cuts so deep,it hurts down to my soul. My friends tell me I ain't the same no more, we still need each other. When we stumble and fall, how we gon' act, like what we had, ain't nothin' at all now.

Pepper : Hey you, dont worry bout goat anymore. Soon he will realise, how he've treated you. So badly, so idioticly. I cant help much, i cant do much. Because he gets angry so easily, i cant do anything. But i'll be there when you need a helping hand, i'll be there when you need a listening ear. Dont ever give up, for you're regconized by your sweet cheerful character, and for your endurance/patience you have given not only to him, but to your friends. He will come to his senses one day. Continue to endure, no matter what happens. :) God's there and im there for you too!:D

HELLO I WANNA GO FROLICKSSSSSSSS plzplzplz.

what the kkkkkk(sunny shades)

Hello people all over the world.

I WANNA KILL MYSELF. ?!$%&$#@!? *bangs head on wall*

Guess what. My dickies cost like 60 bucks and online dickies cost 30+ bucks plus they have nicer designs like wtfomgbbq?! I think i should just jump down the building.

But on second thought, my dickies still rocks lah. (Cause it's mine what. ahhaha)
:)

p/s : actually after i typed "hello people" , i was like cracking my brain to think of something to post when ng jing qi suddenly pop out with the sad dickies news. LOL can.

okay bye lah bye lah.

TAG REPLIED

• Qi :I know lah the bag is like a not bad right. Just that the name really is porn, hahaha, DICKIES:D Oh and i dont know if i want the earrings anot coz officially broke. T__T shitzxzx.
• Plankton : :D
• Shoman : thanks thanks cuzzie yozzi.
• Leseanz : yes i know i "ar chiu" very loud lah hahaha whatever:P
• hongsheng : HELLO THKS FOR TAGGING YAY:D
• Ting : HELLO:D
• Wen : hello i love the colour alot thanks for the help:D but the grey abit cannot see leh. ahahaha nehmind lah:D
• Brid : yes me is mayor, hahahaha. *rolls eyes*

KAY BYE.

topsy turvy world i longed for.

Hello my head just is an empty shell.

Do you know how it feels to be in a topsy turvy world?
Freedom.
Where little girls and boys run across the streets, plucking fresh red rosy apples from honeylemonade trees.
Where the cottages look great and vibrant, men and women dancing with the chirping of happy birds' tune.
When the cows moos and the dogs bark and the cats meow.
Where the fishes goes splish splash splosh swimming in the water.
Where the sun shines ever so brightly and you could feel the warmth on your cheeks, where the wind blew softly and bring your soft beautiful hair to life.
Where donuts and cupcakes are free and where smiles are seen on everyone's faces.
Just think.

i want to be away from this reality and be in my topsy turvy world, just for once.

bits and pieces.

gone and broken into pieces.


Had fun with people around me today:)
what more can i say, where there's mixed feelings today.

I FEEL LIKE SLAPPING [ inserts bitch's name here]! ]:{ *muahahah*
FUCK YOU SLUT stop sprouting nonsense because god gave you your damn bloody mouth not for you to crap but for you to appreciate it you old fuggly hag.
One more time and thats it, i've controlled and give way far too much.
Enough is enough.

i love bridget daphne brenda lesean(and friends,lol) nat regi and cellgroup members:)
Today had been fun, if not for any small unpleasant parts. (sounds wrong but yeah) :)
Sooooooo, goodnight everyone van is tired and happy and angry and sad and broken and fixed back and broken again.

Im not for you to play with, i aint any toy you muthafucka arseyholeyyyy.

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY, you dont have to answer.

Poopyshitz.

" Yo poopyshitz go suck your dick"

Sorry have been saying this phrase for like..the whole day? My mind's like abit loose here and there, screwed at the same time. Hehe.

Didnt go school today, because of some reasons.tsk.

Woke up like so damn freaking early and found esther online yops:)

Then talk talk talk and she came my houseeeee to use the comp.

Planketty came too, till its dinner time.

Went to Holland to find leseanzzzz darrenzzz and natzzzz:D

And i realised i reached there like...9.45?

Walk afew metres at the canopy walk there and nat left, leaving me darren and leseanzzz under the block. :)

Love leseanz's psp like x 25433425241123!

Mum fetched me home.

Im like so tireddddd, so very tired with eyebags drooping.

shitzxzxzxz.

Church tomorrow.

so what if you're a genius, you've got so much more to learn.

Love me, dont leave me.

And that's when i realised, i've never loved fully before.

What I can remember
Is a lot like water
Trickling down a page
Of the most beautiful colors.

There's maths test tomorrow, shitzzz, im deadz.
History test was like !!!!! at first, till i prayed and God answered my prayer, thus making the test an easy peasy one. probably cause teacher gave us time to revise and gave us clues? Praise the Lord, thanks so very muchieszx:)
I think i still remembered the answers muahaha, but might still fail): I didnt touch history books/book at all.

Meanwhile the reader's digest can help fill me up while waiting for a day out to get novels:)

Ants ants ants i hate ants and i want cold rock now.

My heart sinks when i see you and couldnt do anything about it.

I need to study for maths, i cant bear to fail time and again and i really hate applecherrylipspie xu zhi wei, i wanna punch her face. ):< And chinese test was effffing difficult i dont know what im writing or reading.

Life is screwed up to bits and pieces and i cant find those bits and pieces so i could fix it back.

Maybe im really turning into a lesbian after loving guys. I love guys too much that i start to like girls. HAHA, getting away from me girls? Im vanessssaaa lessy and i find you attractive woman[:< (gives sick look.) LOL sorry randomness, but nah, i wont turn lessy no no no.

I teared seeing my mobile phone being retarded switching on and off by itself. I need a new phone so goodbye my love. I want shimin's foneeee!!!!! Damn it save $$$$$.

Somehow i find myself filled with insanity because of the things happening around me. I need to get a life yozzzz.

I never loved nobody fully

Always one foot on the ground

And by protecting my heart truly

I got lost in the sounds

I hear in my mind

All these voices

I hear in my mind all these words

I hear in my mind all this music

And it breaks my heart

And it breaks my heart

And it breaks my heart

It breaks my heart .

Daddy happy belated birthdayyyy(L)
SMOOOOCHHHHH(inserts kisses many many.)
Best dad everrrr:D
( sadly there isnt any photo of daddy:O )

Yesterday was daddy's birthday.
We celebrated it today, me mummy and daddy :)
Stayed back with brid niaoer then headed to buona vista to meeeeet qi:D
Then waited for daddy at clementi and went to holland for sushi teiiiiiii:)
Followed by COLD ROCK.
Best ice cream ever:D

and then im back and im so bloody tiredddddd:/
shitzshitzshitzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i wanna sleeeeeeep.

The wound in my h-e-a-r-t aint healing but i dont give a damn anymore.

Those voices, kept telling me to jump down.

"I kissed a girl and i like it, it taste of cherry chapstick."

It felt so wrong.
It felt so right.

:)
yunyunyun thank you for today.
Bridget bridget bridget yay we gonna meet my cuzzie tmr!(L)
And hello you, thanks for that adventurous walk, hahahaha.
And you, only you i have in those china bottles.

SLASH YOURSELF FOR WHAT.
only leave effing ugly scars on your hand.
What's the advantages of it?
So what's it gonna do after slashing your arm? Does it help?
Ease your pain you say, But shouldnt that add more pain onto yourself?
Still, maybe its okay to do it, once in awhile.

I hate me, thank you:)

DICKIES.

YES.
I finally got my dickies.
Nice?
Totally:)

yay yay yay yay yay stupid.

We rust, one day.

It used to be me and you and you and me and you and I.

Guess it's just me, me and me alone. You, you and you alone.
In any way, we'll break down and rust one day.
Goodbye.
Till another time.

China bottles - those memories cant be erased, they just cant.
-

REPLIES:)

• Plankton: Lol, :)
• Qi : hahaha, i knowww!! OMg but then horh, i called bridget niaoer leh. And i (L) her! LOL, you call who niaoer? Izzit the girl you used to tell me about?:D Fredflare wansui!:) okay lah, i dont mind the earrings:D
• Bridget : hhahaha, NIAOER:)
• Eunice : hello bus-mate! Yes, we must go out one day:D
• Jieying : Hello, linked!:)
• Amalina : Hello, alinana is missed by me too:DDD

Nissi2 Salt1!

hello i love Nissi2 Salt1:)
yes i do.
Cause they make such a fantastic cellgroup, i love them alot alot alot(L)
Especially :
-Corrinne
-Ing ing
-Jieying
-Ruth
-Junyi
-Li yuan
-Richelle (not school one, ricorn's the nick.)
-Shannon
-Nigel

And many many others who are really good to me, just forget their names. =X
First time there anyway:)

There was service and saw rich and choooo, followed by games and get-to-know-each-other.
Afterthat, went to pei hwa market to eat, whole cellgroup!:) Celebrated Yuri's birthday.
happy birthday Yuri! God bless you!:)
unexpected, yuri's an ex-concordian! Yay. Plus live near me, muahaha!
Went Lot 1 with ing ing and jieying before heading to ricorn's house:)
Walked for ages to find an empty basketball court, gahzzzzz.
Then send inging to take a cab before going home:)
LOVE NISSI2 SALT1 !(L)
LOVE GOD MORE:D

im so tireddddd, guess im pigging soon!
Goodnight everyone!:)

sell my senses.

Sell my senses, forgive my hesitation.

I (L)(L)(L) bridget niao er ok ok ok :)

And callyyyy (L)(L)(L)! :D

Thanks darlings for yesterday today tomorrow the day after tomorrow and the day after tomorrow's tomorrow!:)

Especially, Niao er<3>

Also the Awesome clique with a capital A that's always there for meeee!:)

(Car, get well soon, seeya in school well and smiling!)

Oh manzxzx, i say until as if im gonna die anytime soon or just had a heartbreak and is thanking everyone for being there for me. How random.

.____.

Anyway, hate myself for not being able to go home with planketty today):

Sighhh.

Sorry plankton):

Band on monday?

Im back in main band?

Playing nothing?

Being an extra?

A failure?

WHY.

I wanna eat tubs of ice-cream now.

Coldrock, Haagen daz, ben&jerry's, whatever it is.

I want to eat ice-cream now.

Im sad, and crying blobs of tears. Salty ones, not normal ones. ):

I need some excitement in my life, damn it.

Richelle's church tmr?

Corrine's too?

I dont know.

Lord, please help.

Answer my prayers, guide me, lead me a direction.

I had enough of walking alone my ups and downs.

I need you, i really do.

): Im letting everything into the hands of God.

( Gays anatomy or what? I saw gays. Many of them. Urgh. But whats wrong? There's nothing really wrong bout them, dont get so worked up by saying : Oh look, guy and guy holding hands, kissing each other! You are just being effing childish. Im not helping gays but i think they really need their freedom. Holding hands, dont tell me you dont do that when you're in kindergarten. i bet you held your friend of the same sex's hand before, right right right? Yeah anyway. I saw gays today. Oh and not to forget, lesbians. Kewl :) - sorry pretty random. -.- )

Last thing, if you wanna say im lazy, think twice.

Im Not Lazy, Im Just Saving Energy.

xoxo, tomorrow then!(L)

http://www.fredflare.com/ go go go go go go shoppers! :)

I MUST buy. Sigh.

Maybe i could live in a mobile home.

Sigh.
Why am i living in a piece of shit and could still be acting happily away?
And good that noone seems to notice anything, that shows that im a good actress and might win star awards (or whatever awards).
):
Why why why why is life so screwed up.
Bad bad bad bad bad bad bad.

Anyhow.

Im currently, y'know, stoning infront of the comp.
REPHRASE-
okay i've been stoning infront of the comp for almost the whole evening, except now.
Obviously, cause im blogging.
Anyway, yeah.
And im starving :O
I wonder when mummy's coming back because she seem to take forever.
):

I might blog afew times a day but you cant blame me, really.
Because im too bored.
And about being mad..blogging seems to be also talking to yourself, in any way.
Not mad, no.

I need to go outtttt!!!!!
I cant believe i didnt go out at all for this 1/2/3 days of elearning?!
$%$!?%^!?#%$@!
when its actually quite an opportunity for you to at least go out and er, whatever instead of cooping up at home staring at the comp the whole day?!
Im.So.Foolish.
I seriously need a breakthrough coz i might go insane anytime and run around the house like a mad chickenz.

My eyesight is failing me.

I love, jason mraz.

Yes. I love Jason Mraz.
Not really his face but his songs. (L)
Anyway, i wanted to put up a song sang by him and colbie caillat but it isnt nice when put in blog.
Its called lucky so if you're really bored you could go check it out on youtube.
Sadly imeem doesnt have, or i'll put it as my blog song :)

Okay i know i shouldnt procastinate but i just cant seem to concentrate on elearning.
Maybe going to school might be better, for me.
Athough no sleeping late or waking up at noon and stuffs): Sigh.
Hate hate hate elearning, kill kill kill kill!

Finished reading Confessions of an air hostess, i need more, more more more books.
I need them for..inspiration(lol?!), although i dont know why i need to be inspired, i need them to kill my time, i need them to waste my tears, i need them to laugh my heart out. I need books desperately and no, im not weird.
Its not weird to likelove books, regina.

And im waiting for the arrival of my wallet:)
cant wait, its gonna be an absolute fab hinge wallet:) (i hope)
Yay and qi is also getting it:)
+ heheheheh, eyecandy!<3 *hints* please take a picture with him.

Sigh, planketty has school yesterday today tomorrow gahz. ):

Im bored, i need to continue my elearning, i have to.
Shitzxzxzxzx.

Anywayyyyy, will post later maybe?
Smoooocccchhhhh(K)(L)

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday.

:O

oh man.
Grandma talking to herself.
:O

Anywayyyyyy, dinner out later:/

vanz : says:
haizzzz, i miss you ):
*(.:.<@h <3ng.:.)* says:
me tooooooooooooo
*(.:.<@h <3ng.:.)* says:
x like infinity

How sweet, i missssssss planketty loads loads loads. (L)(L)(L)
I (L)(L)(L)(L) planktonnn:) - more than oliver kane peter edmund prince luca whatever:)

Bored-to-death kind of day.

HELLO I THINK THIS GUY IS HOT.
Nevermind bout that bruise on his eye at the last picture:)
He's still hot, thats what i think :D
And he's in the movie called "Never Back Down".
Watched it last night with dad because we were so bored and screw teevee that doesnt have nice shows to watch, at lets see..2am? Yeah.

Anyway, i like his muscles, his oh so awesome body.
:)
Enough van, enough.

Okay imz veryz boredz nowz coz there'z noz schoolz duez toz e-learningzzz.
:O
I wishzx thez maidz goz homez nowz soz planktonz couldz comez.
I wantz planktonzzzzz nowzzz! (inserts stern voice.)
):< i really want plankton nowwwwww.

Whatever lah, i should start doing my elearning.
Or maybe, catch up with dashing handsome mucho manly Oliver Kane in "Confessions of an air hostess."
Its not that bad to read, reading aint only for nerds and bookworms.
Besides, i love reading to the ultimate best. (inserts kisses for books) And im no nerd/bookworm or anything.
:)
Im currently reading "confessions of an air hostess", a very romantic story.
With!!! *sighs..hearts in eyeballz poppingz outz* Oliver Kaneeeee!
Okay maybe he isnt so dashing to people but you just have to imagine him to be. Afterall he's just a character in a book that doesnt show his face, just plain pure descriptions by the author.
Thankfully the author describe him lovingly fine:)

Ah, i should stop.
Or plankton might killlll mez. :P
(L)

Btw date's wrong coz posting before 4.30 :)
Post later, ta!

dark knights and pixies and gingerbreadman:D

Hi hi hi hi hi hey hey hey yo.

:)

Funfair (sat) was like .. fairly fun and there are many peopleeeeee.

I remembered perspiring, sneaking out of school hailing a cab to cab down to evelynn's house, and and and..distributing flyers outside school gate!:)

I also remembered my dear primary school friends Roy Jinhan and WyeSheng coming down just for me! (maybe, hahaha) :D And that i slacked with them, walking around in school.

Remembered my parents coming down to school waiting for the arrival of the chicken wings, hahaha!:)))
Remembered meeting cuzzzzzies and family member after the guys left.

Rememberedmeeting charissa for camwhoring:D

Yay oh funfair is so loved.

Okay done muahahahaha, coz there's nothing much to say about it, just funfunfunfunfun:D

So i dont owe any of you silly guppies any funfair elaboration anymore! hahaha:)

okay im going for dinner will be posting later:D

(L)(L)(L)!

year 3000

he said : " i've been to the year 3000. "

Hello right now im too lazy to blog bout funfair so...yeah, i owe you silly guppies an elaboration of fairfield's funfair:)
One day.. one day i will blog bout it:)

Anyway im back from dinner at crystal jade xiao long bao:)
Muahahaha jiujiu treat us all 11 people:)
And love love love my cuzzies especially qi and booooon:D

Took peeekturessss but ):
Sadly im lazy to post it.
hehehe.

yay its YOUTH DAY.YOUTH DAY.YOUTH DAY.
and there's no school tmr.
wanna date me out? :)

okay goodnight everybody!

8 more daysssssssssss(L)(L)(L)

I've been to the year 3000
Not much has changed but they lived underwater.
And your great great great grand daughter,
Is doing fine.

funfair and boyfriend.

Funfair was great.
I've enjoyed quite alot, and am super tired, thus i shall elaborate it tmr:)
Plankton met mom today, after sending me to orchard for shopping with mommmmyyy:)
Love my boyfriendzxzxxz alot alot alot!:)

Goodnight everyone:)

is it too much to ask for?

the word "prominent" attracts my attention.

"Hearts are meant to be broken. Love is nothing but a joy from the start and pain at the end. Accept it then forget it. Or else, dont love."

:) meanwhile, i love you very much still.

indignified.

mix the paint mix mix mix:)
proud of my artwork:O

hello marcus marketty marcus:)
Love you very much, best mini potato ever:)

Hello silly guppies:)

Funfair preperations today:)

Fun, fun, fun.

Slack almost half-a-day, then started working on some banners:)

Proud of my artwork manzxzxzxz, mauahahha.

Cant wait for instructor potato and carrie to comeeeeee!!!!:)

oh man oh man oh man now im having pixies,knights and ponys in my tummy,hehehe:D

Oh and friends families pixies unicorns please do find me at the funfair tmr from 2pm - 5pm.

I'll be selling food like..um, chicken wings, muah chee, donuts, custard puffs, drinks, and cupcakes:)

I'll be doing the third shift tmr which is also the last shift. Hehehe, so if you wanna play with me (lol), find me before 2pm okay:D

Or i'll have to work liao.

:)

Vivo wth yap, lovez.

Goodnight everyone, tomorrow will be a great day. (i hope)

:)

( throws confetti and heartfelt love. )

die happy, or die sad?

Maybe im mistaken.

If life is full of happiness, everyone die happy.
If life is full of sorrows, does that mean you have to die sad?

Maybe not, but, my life's been full of ups and downs, lefts and rights.
I've made many mistakes,and im sure to make more.
Everyone's not perfect, neither am i.
Everyone makes mistakes, so do i.

Do you wish to die happy?

better off alone?

Hello silly guppiesssss! (have the habit of calling everyone silly guppy/guppies now:P)

I think im getting more and more excited and enthusiastic for the funfair nowwww because i just realised that friends, families and cousins are coming on saturday yippeeee:)

Yes, though i sold quite a number of tickets, the thinking of noone coming is still in my mind but, its been erased now!:)

Didnt go to school today because im down with flu sorethroat and headache and it's killing me):

Staying at home is like, omgwtfbbq becauseeeeee..!! Im like so hell bored.

But i did slept like..almost the whole day:)

Lets see..

-wake up at 12 and lie in bed till 2 :O

-lunch and watched legally blonde (L)(L)(L)

-slept till 5.15 and stay in bed till 6.30 :O

-bathe and compewwwterrrr:DDD

hheheh, call me a pig i dont care:)

Anyway i wish i did go to school, so i know how's the funfair preperations coming to, and also, i can go out with yap+...lim??:)

Oh and also, here's to people who cared and tagged in ma bloggy, asking me to get well soon!:) Thanks guysssssss(L)

*screammmmms, im having pixies in my tummy nowww:) I dont know what makes me so excited but im just :)

My own world still revolve around me, but in a better way. It's not stopping, it's turning, round and round, round scribblytown.

okay goodbye all!

(inserts hearts and kisses and misses and..love.)

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say, i'm really just a loser, you're better off alone.(L)

eyecandy:D

Hello eyecandy<3

you are amazingly sweet but its really rude to stare.
:)

Anxiety.

Probably what im feeling right now?
Anxious, insane, nonsensical, stupidity, petrified.
Yes, i think thats what im feeling now.

Anyway vanzzz izz sickzzz yopzzz:)
And i wish, oh how i wish, im not going school tomorrowwww.
Funfair on saturday, excited? Maybe :@
Sigh.

Im in my own world nowadays, everything seems to be going slow, even when time is running fast.
Im just doing things slow, im just taking my time.
I'll let everyone wait, wait till the sky falls and the angels appear.
No urgency of time? Yes.
Nothing you can do about it, can you?
No.
I know you can't.

Silly guppies are lovedddd, wanna be one? Silly.

:) goodnight everyone, hush now and go to sleep.
(Geez)

ps: love bridget yuqi yunxin natalia regina carissa many many manyzxzxz(L)(L)(L).
Love my boyfriend more.

<33333 yo i wanna get married<3!
And invite 1000 guests with 100 tables in a big ballroom.
And wear long pretty dresses,pure white with material made of silk that looks like a princess.
And wear glass slippers.
And have chocolate tubs as a gift to guests.
And have the best food in the world.
And have everyone envious of me me me!

:)
i wanna be the flowergirl for aunt sherri's wedding but i guess im too old.):
Sadly.

Subway with nat and regi then food tasting at marriot hotel for aunt sherri's wedding.
Shark's fin and abalone. :) mmmm,yum!

i wanna live in a big big house and have two kids, two maids and many rooms. 2 bmws, 1 mercedes, 1 jaguar and 2 lamborghinis!:)))) 1 golden retriever tooooo!(or whatever it is.) :)
*continues dreaming*
and to be continued cause its not the end.

i really wanna wear pretty dresses.

planktonnnnn, i miss you so much yop!):