zh+v=<3

Zh's staying over NOW. <33333

There are some people in life that make you laugh a little louder, smile a little brighter, and just live a little better.

HI BYE

So what if you're good?

I've been guilty over a couple of things since - not long ago. For example, i was lying on my bed staring at the ceiling, then i heard vanessa mae's violin piece on the radio, and it struck me there. I looked at my violin case(with the violin inside) and seriously, i dare say i do not dare to open it now for fear there might be weird things growing on my poor violin. Fungus? I dont know. I felt like i'm really wasting my mom's $$ cuz i abandoned my violin in the end. Second, i went to the band's blog and i felt like wow i have not gone for practice since idk when. K wtv. And then came food, i've been wasting fooood, and i watched channel u's star thingy today, was showing michelle chia and a grp of volunteers helping out at poor countries. They only eat sweet corn for dinner(those poor children ):), while im throwing my unfinished food in the bin. Urgh. So i told my bf im gonna be one of those volunteers after i finish my studies, to help those ppl too. Cross fingers, i hope i will really do that. :/

anyhoooo, im quite satisfied with myself. I did smth incredible which you'll never find me doing, i called up my math tuition teacher to gimme tuition last night. 2 hours and before 7.30 i know nothing bout coordinate geometry, at 9.30 i know almost everything. Muaahaha i pray i'll pass my test today plsplsplsssss (oh ya AND FIRST TIME, FINISH MY MATHS HMWK haha k lame)

oh no tmr trigo retest OK i will PASSSSZ.

now is 10, time to watch channel U!

sayonara~

wanderlust

"No matter what your heartache may be, laughing helps you forget it for a few seconds." So laugh.

Ikea with baby, home sweet home<3 I love times like these.

Pooh: This is the best part of the day.
Christopher Robin: What part is that?
Pooh: When "you" and "me" become "we".

Goodnight,with much luv,me.

one of a kind,

Someone just needs to sit in comfortable silence with me, and think quiet thoughts with me. If my face gets sad or i start to think things that tug down my smile..don't even trouble this air with noisy words. Just send me a smile and remind me that i'm not alone and i will do the same for you.

Attempts to do math failed. Gramp's place today and i slept. Again. I sleep so much on weekends, i can be considered as a human pig. Well, i dont mind though. I eat and sleep and shit. Thats not all. I study, at least i think i did. yeah.

Okkkk bb.

22/08

I love my bf.

and i love outings, and subway, and movies, and and and .. nvm. Anyway The Proposal with zh was gooood, hahaha funny show. i'd rate..um lets say 7/10 :) Had subway before movie then to jurong point to walk around, abit retarded since we go around 9+ so the shops are like closing. Had supper, fishball noodlesssss and home. Happy ninth baby! Luvvvvv you till my hair falls off.

Oh and i survived maths tuition, 9am in the morning somemore. Tsk, im a maths survivor. Hurrr. ooookkkkkk 8)

THIS:

is a guilty pleasure of mine. Especially when chocolate goes with strawberries. Its the best of the best. So what's your guilty pleasure?

lastly,

why do you have to loose people to figure out what they really mean?

dont let things slip through your hand, even people. Someone that mean something to you, something that mean someone to you.

kkkk loaaaadsa huggies(hugs) diapers, vannnn.

<3

12AM: HAPPY 9TH, ZH!
I dont know why, when, who, what, where and how but there's just something so strange so amazing so fascinating about you that makes me fall right in love with you. You just somehow, find your way to my heart and closed the gates with your special own made keys, then threw them away so you cant get out. Thats just you, I love you.
Yay tomorrow tomorrow out with zh! 22/08!

Today: Spent my morning sleeping in, medicine work wonders. Afternoon school to get books home to study, evening+night spent home with zh = awesome:-)
One word: Contented.

Mmhmm, byebye.

flower poking thru the sidewalk crack

At that moment i really thought the fever's gonna kill most of my braincells and leave them dead. Yeah, 39.4 deg, how's that? I think its cool. I just hate the part where i can faint anytime, anywhere. And i slept like a log, its best to sleep when you're ill. You sleep all the way and dont dream. I've got MC, but im feeling much better now. I think its because i was listening to my ipod and worshipping the Lord when im bed-ridden that He heard my cries and healed me. Hallehlujah.

I hope tomorrow will be a better day. Everyday im living on hoping that tomorrow will be a better day. It gets tough but i believe tomorrow will indeed be a better day. Or tomorrow's tomorrow and so on.

i see my reflection everyday
smiles up and then some down.
i see my reflection everyday
i see myself in clear perception
never changing still the same
moving faster
than those who've
came.

Be Brave, van.

Goodbye!

and,

OH YA FORGOT SOMETHING.

RIGHT NOW, I JUST WANT TO FINISH MY DAMN STUDIES AND LEAVE THE DAMN SCHOOL. I dont hate secondary school, i just hate what im doing in secondary school. Period.

and im gonna prove everyone who thinks im nothing but a piece of useless junk wrong. WRONG you hear me? Im gonna knock you down with my grades and show it to you. Im gonna win that jonathan lee in english too. BEEP YOU.

ya i luv zh.

it's not like the start, neither is it like the end

Today is Wednesday.

I went to school as usual. I brought egg and bread, as usual. I drank a packet of milo, as usual. I studied and listen in class, as usual(maybe not as usual but i really did paid attention), I screamed like a bitch during P.E, as usual. I had fun for P.E, as usual. Then i went home and sleep. All the way till dinner time. I think im not a pig, because i was really tired. Really very tired that it's indescribable. Words cant project how tired im feeling right now, since just now, since last night.

Tomorrow i must go school myself, i hate taking public transport. Expecially in the mornings cause you have to squeeze, and squeeze. Screw primary school. Primary school kids are so lucky, dont have to go school when their seniors are taking exams. 2 days somemore. Good luck to me. I pray i wont be late.

Anw, im going. Bye.

the hardest thing in life is to know which bridges to cross and which to burn.

I dont know why but its so hard to pretend to be fine anymore cuz afterall, pretending to be fine isn't everything. It's not gonna make things better. It just make things stay the way it is, and the end. So it's really pointless. I dont know how else and what else to do, i just dont.

have a sleepy night everyone,
me.

photobooth and lazy moments

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Luv today, luv everything bout today! I skipped school partly because :
1) i have a bad sorethroat
2) i need a break from stupid lessons

So reason #1 is quite valid i think. Uh not saying too much here but great morning spent with lovelle and jiehui! Parted and afterwhich, took care of zh hehe. Me and zh just slept through the afternoon! lazy day with sick people.

Okay im super tired now i think i can just plop right to bed straight. I dont know why the nap doesnt keep me awake tonight. Bb.

Love me cancerously
Like a salt-sore soaked in the sea.
xxx with loadsa luv, me.

get well sooon love,

PLEASE GET WELL SOON, please. I love you.
xxx,me.

Sometimes you just need someone to look forward to seeing every day.

EDIT:
"Shoot for the moon.
Even if you miss you'll land among stars."

Makes sense. And i still hope zh will get better soon.

just like how we use to be,

HELLO I HAVE PROLLY ABOUT 1 MIN TO TYPE THIS. MY DAD IS GONNA USE IN AFEW MORE SECONDS.

ALL I HAVE TO SAY IS : I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND LIKE A MILLION TIMES MORE THAN YOU LOVE YOUR FAVOURITE THING. HAHAHAHA. OKAY. LOL.

yeah just came back not long from dinner with zzzzzhhhhh before he send me home! wheee! We had korean cuisine and ice-kachang! KAY BYEBYE! (L)

Life is like a box of crayons

Told you guys i'll be back.

Ordered macs alone, while talking to cor cor corrrrrinnnnne for like dunno how long on the phone. Called macs like 3 times.
1. Order
2. Wanna cancel order but 5 mins late):
3. Stupid delivery man forget my seaweed packet for shaker fries, so had to call and ask him bring it here again.

HAHA, i think im very annoying. BUT ITS NOT MY FAULT.

Me: Eh, zh says later the guy might show black face cuz he have to ride his motor here again and he have to pay for his own fuel leh. Then its like he have to come here juz to give me my seaweed packet. Im damn scared later he $#%@$!.
Cor: Maybe he purposely one cuz he likes to ride on his motor LOL.

HAHA, so lame. Okay. Anyway then while eating macs, zh told me he was walking around. Fact is he's alrd on the way to my homie. Second time lie again, (white lie haha) said he was at bukit gombak but fact is just reached my homie's busstop. Urghhhhh hahaha I (L) zh! Gnna take peeeks soon too:-) + eat sakae lol.

Before I go,
sometimes you need a breakdown
one of those yell at everyone,
cry until you fall and can't breath
kind of breakdowns.
then you feel better.
and if you don't,
at least people will know you're not okay

loadsa luv, v.

cranky disguise

I LOVE:


THE SUN SET IN TIOMAN (taken by v)

Just wanna say.. Growing up is never straightforward. There are moments when everything is fine, and other moments when you're a teenager, and you realize that there are certain memories that you'll never get back, and certain people that are going to change, and the hardest part is realizing that there's nothing you can do except to watch them, and realize that everything's gonna change.

Lying on the bed all day watching cartoons going online and just doing some soul-searching. Its friday, im suppose to go have fun. But well oh well, things happened and i realise staying at home isnt too bad, at all.

Lastly, there is a difference between knowing the path and walking the path.

More later!(if ever) big pictures on this silly post, pardon me. im using photobucket since blogger's being a f()ck.

:-)

I skipped band. You can say "again". Haha, so sad. Not. Im not sad, just alitttttle (like 1%) guilty that i left after having lunch with vera & lim. Sorry!

I luvvv floorball today. I love school time on wednesdays cuz we can play like mad insane kids for 3 full periods of PE. P.e's always cool most of the time. Damn hiong for today's game with only 8 of us girls! The usual girls. Ha. 8) Then lumpy the math teacher didnt come, more free periods. My gosh, if only everyday's like that.

Went home early, feeling lethargic these few days. Urghhhhhh :@ could just zzzzzz once im on my bed. Same goes for tomorrrowwww, nowadays i just love my home so much.

Oh and i dont like it when the the djs just keep talking and talking non-stop. I rather just hear songs after songs after songs. :-) AND subway for dinner. Mummy's always so nice. Hahaaaaaa:)

+ watch singapore idol, freaking' funnnny to the max. Especially those people who really cant sing and sing till damn funny on teevee. hahaha.

K bye. I miss zh. HAHA.

"One day you'll see me gone, but another day i'll be back. With you, forever."

tuesday remedy

Im currently : forcing my lids to open + eating bubblegum lollipop(mum got it from jb ytd!) + listening to 98.7fm + this.

Yesterday Ikea was good, ate at anchorpoint cuz ikea's 'restaurant' was a madness @____@ Walked around and crap and wrote down stuffs i wanna buy :) Including a day bed frame! OMG sexy okay. 8)and i luvvv the lamps. Tried on mattresses and chairs and blaaaaaaa bla black sheep. Walked the whole of ikea, and finally end it off with ikea's ice-cream! Zh got himself hotdog and ice-cream for me. My ice-cream was like dripping outside ikea, left the bottom of the cone, so zh 'koped' the whole bottom cone down. HAHA! Sat 61 to bukit batok and went seperate ways:-)

Just came back not long from sumo(again ahahaah!) with zh, had dinner there. 8))) Simply love meetups with boyfraaaannnn. but im not boyfran obsessed, yet. 8) heh. I JUST LOVE KWEK KWEK KWEEEEEK ZHI HONG:-)))

Supposed to have percussion practice for mrs chua(!!!!!!!! :@ x 100000) after school today but owyong had some silly tea party thats held in the band room so we didnt practice in the end): Had lunch with yap lim vera and yuqi before going home with lim.

That's why, im like really tired now, whole day hyperactive till night time (sorry zh for some small little pms,lol) IM GNNA GO SLEEEEEEP. soon:)

Loadsaaa love, V.

life goes on,

It's like 5.11pm now, waiting for zh to gimme a ring and then i shall go meet him. Guess where we're going? I.K.E.A i repeat, I.K.E.A HAHA.(can eat the ice-cream!) But then, not gonna buy anything yet. NO $$$$$$$$$$$ only go there see see write down the things i want and give it to mummy at the end of the day. She's the real person i should go with cause she will be buying the stuffs for me hehehe:P

Im like 69.9% brain dead now cause i slept at 2am and woke up at 9.55am. )-: Cabbed down to somewhere near chinatown, there's a restaurant which's made up of few hdb flats. F**KING(sorry) CROWDED. It's on the 7th floor, people queued all the way to 5th floor. Lucky my aunt reached there first and queued for us. Us = those slowpokes = me :-) waited for half and hour, finally gotten a huge table for the 13 of us. ATE SUPER GOOD DIM SUM! Walked around OG, (old girls department lol) cuz mama wants to see mop. I WANT NIKE BAG. but yeah, i want but i cant get. 109 bucks. Kill me.

Bussed home, slept like a pig. I dont care how people think of me. since its 190 and people from town gets on that bus but who cares. val says i sleep like some ..... ... . yeah but so? Hur. Reached lot 1 and got myself soya bean milk plus herbal eggg:-)

Now im still waiting. *inserts thinking smiley from msn*

BYE! (maybe i'll update later.)

Oasis

Hi. Happy National Day :-)

I like stories like mary poppins. I wish i was a character inside. I wish i could get the disc so i can watch them dance and sing-a-long. I like to go online searching for graphics like the one above or those i posts. I wanna watch Alice In Wonderland, be it movie or a play. But i prefer plays like those performed in the esplanade. I like to draw and doodle even if it looks like sh!t. I love really smart convincing interesting sensible quotes.

Ikea shopping will be postphoned because mummy will not be going lunch but going johor. Sigh. Everytime something good's about to happen, something bad will happen first. But nothing will stop me from refurnishing my room!

Guessss what, i wanna drink starbucks and eat muddymudpie now. Cravings do happen often, this late. :/

Im gonna lay in bed just listening to the radio. One of my best companions when im down or happy or anything. Ha.
p/s I caught you guys in action okay! Counter numbers rising(decided to put up one after talking to brid bout my blog) but nobody tags????? GAH.

1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you

Gnnnnnnaaaa repaint my room, to PURPLE, all time favourite colour since i was a little girl(L) Just did some packing up and relocating drawers etc today. Of course, it only succeeds with mummy's help. Now,(sad to say its NOW) mummy's helping me pack my wardrobe,(one of the biggest disaster in my room apart from the cupboard) so there'll be SOME naggings. But 1 good thing bout it is, i'll have a neater wardrobe soon + gonna make some money(hopefully) from my unwanted stuffs which are still in good condition and still hold afew % of my heart. LOL. Think im cash tight thats why..

I think hot pink goes with purple right. I cant wait to get my ass to Ikea! + get a new bed/chairrrr!

80% of today was spent in my room. I suddenly love my room alot. Actually all the while i've been loving my room, just not so much. I guess i'd be loving it more more more after the touch-ups! Okay. Stop. Enough of my room.

Monday zh's going to sentosa...so i'll be left alone): HAHAHA kidding. Honestly i cant wait to have dim sum with my whole biggie family as part of celebrating my gonggong's birthday on monday! THEN ITS IKEAAAA~ so i wont be left alone:P Tuesday's history test and stay back for band prac so i dont think i'll be looking forward to it..and tmr's national day!

Im a pig. I eat alot, but dont grow fat. Im thin. But still okay for my height i guess. I sleep alot. I can sleep for the whole day. OH YA! Tmr can wake up late again, it's the best. Especially when you on air-con and snuggle in your blanket till the next morning:) hahaha this is so random.

I JUST REALISE I SLEEP TALK. Like what the. My mum says so. In case you dont know, i still sleep with my mom, but sleeping in my own room soon(whee!) I sleep with my mom and i think its cool but not so much. (like now, cause she can hear what i say during my sleep) Haha! I still remembered i said something bout my greatgrandma last time(according to what my mum said) but i didnt took much notice of that cause i thought i only sleeptalk once or twice. BUT YTD I DID IT AGAIN! NO. Im gonna stop. tape my mouth. I dont wanna be like...bella(she sleeptalks too right? Called edward's name in the middle of the night-.-) NO WAY MAN.

So lame. I think i typed quite enough. I know some people feels lazy reading sucha long post. K helping my mum out now..Bye!

101 reasons

completely and totally in love with you.

-

there's a reason why i hated you so much, but there's 100 more reasons why i love you, and that covers up that one stupid silly reason. -v.

-

cant sleep cant sleep pray i'll sleep like how i slept for 10 mins during the start of the movie because i was that tired. plzzzz, i wanna sleep like a baby!

Because you made me love you,

Honestly today is like the best day of the weeeek. Like duh? School ends at 10am! It's not like an everyday thing so..anyway was suppose to go with the class for movie at plaza sing but i didnt bring my ezlink card with me so i had to go home to take it. By the time i got ready, i think i'd waste my time going there since its real far from my place and im not watching movie with them, just walk around..didnt go! Zh was suppose to go out with his friend too but something cropped up with his friend so we decided to meet and watch UP.

Went town, meet zh:-) Rushed to cine but Up was like full house so decided to go another day. Watched G.I Joe instead. Was damn good, should go watch! Cause even i, someone who doesnt like action-robot-tech show also thinks its quite good:-) Went to fareast for chicken rice for lunch and check out ion(before moviee), then zh accompanied me home since parents are out till late at night!(now still havent back D:) Before reaching home went to giant to get speghetti noodles just to find out my house have like a packet, not opened yet. HAHA wttth. Zh cooked speghetti, nice okay. AHAH. Can compete with mummyyyyy hahahahah was really not bad:-) Loveeee zh!(L)(L)(L)x345614213541 (actually infinity,hehe)

LUCKYYYY tmr no tuition muaaahaaa. Can sleep till late, study for history test + maybeeeee just maybe, go church:-)

Waiting for mummy and my ondeh ondeh! Loadssaaaa love, vaaaannnnz.
(+ needa sort out my clothes and stuffs on monday so i can sell it online! NEED $$$ real badly. currently owe-ing myself $100 cause of atm, and regi $$$ ):):):)

TTM

kay my dad is gonna use already so all i wanna say is : zh just left my house. HAHAHAHHA I LOVE HIM TO THE MAXXXXXX. and i love it when he sends me home, love it when we watch funny kumar together, love it when he come over and eat mummy's homecooked dinner, love it when everything's just this way. HAHA. (L)



im a happy girl that has almost everything already:)

I-scream for ice-cream

SOMEONE BRING ME OUT FOR ICE CREAM! I wanna taste all the ice-cream in the world. I want zh to bring me have ice-cream!:P Because you know and i know and we know that ice-cream cures agony, happiness, retardedness and well everything. When's the last time you had ice-cream? Not magnolia or whatever kind of ice-cream..but real real real pure plain sweettttt ice-cream? (smth like the above)

I think we should all one day go out and have ice-cream. Be it having it with your girlfriends, close friends, boyfriend, lover, family, classmates, or anything, ice-cream's always good!

after eight,

Just wanna say.. I love my mum and dad alot, and i thank God for them(L) Honestly i didnt really give a shit or even think bout my parents till i realised that what they did for me was really what's the best for me. I dont know why am i even typing this cause this isnt what i wanna say in my post. But then again i sat down(btw using my dad's lappie), opened up my pictures folder and the first thing i saw was my dad's peek. I was like o__O woah he took it himself. And i just kept on looking(kinda funny teehee) and i realised he's not home yet, somewhere out there, and that i really really really miss him alot. First time i felt like i wished he was here, dont mind not being able to be online(k, maybe abit), just wish he's home now watching teevee like he always do, or facebooking thru the night. HAHA. I smsed him though! He called back and says he's coming home soon so its not that bad:-)

Yesterday mummy brought me to haji lane, we took about almost an hour finding that stupid place cause i've only been there once. I guess i spent her alot, buying clothes and bag, everything we bought yesterday belongs to me. And i think she only made some reservations in a shop with my ahyi, below the hotel before we go bugis. Ahhhh i feel bad honestly. i think i should stop spending or at least spend my OWN money but i just cant, ahaha. ANYWAY THANK YOU MUMMMMMY!(in case you're reading this)

I love my parents alot. though sometimes they can be $@%$#%!$@#!@%^. but still i love them i love them!

OKAY ya FIREWORKS WAS GREAT! Really super cool, many peektures and funny videos (all with cuzzzzie) :-)))) BUFFET WAS DA BOMB cause you know what, i ate so much sahsimi now thinking of it makes me wanna puke. And fondue makes my mouth water. SSSSHIOOOOK!

Great time! Also, i was inspired by haji lane shophouses, i think if i cant be an airstewardess or some stupid DJ, i'll start a shop somewhere there and make it nice cosy comfy vintagey! EHEH long way to go though.

Gonna start a blogshop soon, more on that next time! SEEYA AROUND! (ps i love zh still. HAHAHAHA. and thanks for coming over ytd night,(L))

101010001010101

currently feeling like this now. Missing zh so much now. Not very much but still much. Luckily ndp rehearsals and those fireworks kept me from other things. Its not bad, some parts boring, because only 1 binoculars but 8 of us. Navy was real cool! Havent end yet, going to buffet later. Super cool. I dont think i'll sleep much tonight. Maybe we would party!

And tmr mummy's bringing me straight to bugis, gnna shop shop shop! Is my life great, or just ok? I think it's not bad. :-)

oh yea and ytd had a really good time with esther pep, gnna go jogging every thurs if possible! get my calfs hard and tummy flat, but eat alot to gain weight, JUST NO TUMMY. quite impossible but at least i'll train my legs! And be fat. :P I NEED TO GROW GROW GROW for baby and myself. Zh's like a big size plus muscle man, and me?!!!!! arggggghhhh hahahahaha.

k bye!

cute pups + swissotel + ndp rehearsal!

I WANT A MALTESE. PLEASE MUMMMMMMY AND DADDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYY!

i miss maxy): I misssss hugging maxy, miss playing with maxy. MISSSS MAX! Miss rolling the newspaper and threatening max. HEHE.

p/s AM CURRENTLY AT SWISSOTEL WITH CUZZIES! STAYING OVER PLUS GUESS WHAT I HAVE A SUPER CLEAR VIEW OF NDP REHEARSAL FUCKING COOL.

Love

Love is worrying bout you and me getting drunk and doing silly things, mixing vodka with breezer and jolly shandy, about how many stars there are on the universe, how white and beautiful the moon is, how many kids we both will have, how little money you'll spend on food but how much you'll spend on good food, how many packets of junk food there will be in our home, how we'll travel around the world in 101 days + forever, the leftover food in the refrigerator, your hands and the things you can make with them, the kisses you blow, your soft tangy lips, little children, silence, sugar spice and everything nice, mister donut from japan, the number of clothes in your closet, photosynthesis, growth and development, trees and flowers, sleepless nights, overdosing in painkillers, half-complete cigarette, the dampness in your hair, watching the people around you, solving mathematical problems, giving a goodnight kiss,

No. Love is
you, I, and a careless mixture of everything else we worry about.

I love you. :-) I love you sending me home, love meeting you for sumo, love crapping and doing silly stuffs together.