Disturbia.

Disturbia.

Rest In Peace,

Though you and I arent even close at all, you're still my classmate afterall. 2H's classmate. Our friend. Our special friend. Perhaps you have your own reason for choosing death. But still, we'll all miss you. We'll all remember you, and keep you in our hearts. Rest in peace, mernel koh.

Studied science with richelle, with Mr.Li.
Thanks for being patient and answering all my stupid weird random questions.
Then, went to queenstown library to meet dawn, study:)
Rich's place and home sweet home.

Why? Why choose death?

Holland with church friends and study with dawn+rich tomorrow! Cant wait.

bye.

poupeee:)

Yay i love mum and dad and frolicks and poupee:)

IS A DAMN FUN OKAYYYYYY.
and i made a new friend from USA, kewlzxzx.

I've been dragging the wedding pictures for far toooo long.

So today i went to church, kinda late cause i didnt went for service, but instead, stayed at home to STUDY and sleep. The sleep thingy is just for an hour. And the study thingy is .. i think more than an hour since tuition has already taken up 2 hours of my morning. Okay counted or not, i dont really care. Still, i went to church and join the cellgroup part. Had dinner in church, dabao macs and icecream, slack, then home:) Okay its has been like 2 weeks since we have food catering and i've never eaten and catered food before. Either i go to beauty world and dabao or go lot 1 to eat.

Ahahahahaha i cant wait i cant wait. I cant wait for wednesday to come because :
1) There's no school muahahaha.
2) Frolick + holland v. with junze/sam/corrinne/tom :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:DDDDD
3) Study D:
4) hahahahahahahahaha i dont know i cant wait leh.

But i can wait for like 2435243t621624361412 years for exams.

Oh man i veh long never go swim already D: i want to swimmmm.
And mug mug mug mug mug hard to freedom.
Mug hard not for myself but for God, mug hard to glorify God:)

And to go church EARLY :D hahahahahaha i dont know why but i've got no time urgency-.-

Then i've many plans after exams:) ENJOY FREEDOM is one thing. EATING ICECREAM EVERYDAY is another. :D oh and get novels is a must. My heart yearns for stories.

arghhhhh right now i cannot be too happy. Because there are like a million things corrupting my mind. ): treat me to icecream lah, then i'll love you alot:D

microphone!

I like drawing microphones. take a look. :)

It looks kinda horrid but i still love my microphone.

Its called vivrophone.

Oh i corrupted someone's phone.

wordplay.

I ish sickz.

And being sick allows me to go home and sleep.
I know i know, i dont know what im doing too, especially when exams's just next week.
And afew more weeks to freedom. freedom. freedom.(with no worries)
No worries? When im not even studying? How can there be no worries?
): total failure.
And there's tuition tmr :O Follow by church, then home. then study. then sleep.

Today daddy's suppose to get me speghetti for dinner. at farmart's.
And mum's suppose to get some coldrock ice-cream home to eat.
But.
There's many buts, unfortunately.

I wonder if Mr.Lee knows i've a blog? Like out of the blue, while rushing through my journal, my weird form teacher suddenly says "quick quick vanessa. take it like you're blogging.". Like hello? Does he know i blog, or he's just randomly saying it, or he's just weird? Okay.

Im so desperate to know whats going out in the world. This tiny bitchy wonderful ugly pretty disastrous world.

And did i hear "fucking freezer" in the song wordplay?:O shit im hearing things, tell me im not.

Im also really really desperate(do i sound desperate?) to get some ice-cream to eat. Something to chill. Ice-cream that has different flavours from all over the world. And of course, im absolutely craving for frolick & coldrock.

Oh well guess its time for some telly and wasabi chips before going to bed.

God Bless.

p/s it seems like there's pretty much random questions on this post. Sibeh boliao anyway.

My broken heart.

Glass hailed from the sky tonight, I couldn't hide to save my life.

Standing drenched from open wounds.

You took my hand, and pulled me through.

So then the world gave up on me.

And do i give myself up? Or do i prove the world wrong?

I see my life crumbling down in smoke, but what could I do?

Today, i realise what stupidity means. And im stupid, so is the world.

Who's smart? Not you, not anyone else.

I pray to God everyday, but sometimes i really dont know what God's trying to tell me.

Perhaps it's because i dont speak to God more than i usually did, and instead of putting my trust in him, i've doubted him. Perhaps the bible's been in the shelf for far too long. Perhaps I've put God somewhere else in the middle and not first. But why?

So i've told you to let go, and letting go means never coming back. It hurts but im numb to know what hurt means.

Today Ding Quan painted his nails blue.

Today I had lunch with Nat.

Today I am lost, emotionally.

If God can tell me an answer. If. When? Do I have to wait? Patience, but i dont have any.

I dont see why im not trying hard enough. I try and try, but the same mistakes keep repeating itself.

How d'yknow when you're gonna be right? Since when have you loved somebody fully? Since when have you been loved fully. I want to know. Cause' i've never love somebody fully before, and i dont know if i've been loved fully anyway.

If you think you can help me, i think you'd better give up.

Because everyone tried helping, but i dont think i've helped myself.

Because somehow i've given up on myself, yet doesnt want to.

I screamed and cried and am tired of all.

What have i gained? Sympathy?

I dont need any.

I can’t stand to fly

I’m not that naive

I’m just out to find

The better part of me

I’m more than a bird

i’m more than a plane

More than some pretty face beside a train

It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry

Fall upon my knees

Find a way to lie

About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd

but don’t be naive

Even heroes have the right to bleed

I may be disturbed

but won’t you concede

Even heroes have the right to dream

It’s not easy to be me

Its not easy to be me.

and i wish i could cry.

-

D:

Find me back my appetite.


I DONT LIKE YOUUUUUUUUUU you make me upset time and again.

I also dont like jesus-hair-like woman.
I dont like being broke for days.
I dont like to study.
I dont like exams.
I dont like the feeling of exams nearing.
I dont like having tuition.
I dont like making friends with mathematics.
I dont like to write down science notes.
I dont like teachers who throw chairs.
I dont like teachers who shout then start to act nice.
I dont like stars that dont shine.
I dont like going home late.
I dont like going home early.
I dont like so much more.

I dont like many things. And i will continue to not like them.

thanks to mo mo ren who helped me post ytd, but most of what he/she says aint true. HAHA.
Blogskins.com still hates me, i know. So im using my old skins back.

EXAMS ARE SO COOOOOOOOL,not. k bye im gonna study tmr got history test ah ah ah ah ah.

hello peeps .

momo ren here :] helping tis ass here to bloggg ! haha , chatting wif her nw on de fone , and she's pestering me to help her blog -.-" .. since im such a gd person , i shall help her post :]
sians , i dunno wat to post lei .. errr , she cant go on9 tdy due her mugggingzxz, cuz exams round de corner yea ? OHOH ! SHE SAYS TT ON HER AUNT'S WEDDING DAY , ALOT OF GUYS LOOK AT HER . si bu yao lian =x still GIM(diao , tts wat she says) dem sumore .. hao lian . lols , k la , post til here le , she's gonna kill me when she sees tis . byeeeeeeee (:

sigh.

Hello i want to change my skin but i cannot change my skin cause i think blogskin's hating me.
-.- hattttttteeeee it.
My skin is not my skin but my blog's skin.

kthxbai.

p/s (L) YOU CORRRRRINNNNE, super best budd.

sidenote.

Hello i've been feeling veh pek chek these few days, i dont know whats wrong with me!
So anyway, wedding pictures are soon to be up, thanks to the help of ohzhelun:) My super goood friendzxzx.

Yesterday was quite okay, not bad not bad.
Met richy to studyyyyyy, headed to church to study:D
Then wanted to skip service, but still went for service. Never regretted going, although we did sneak out to get some bites!>.<



AYE CONTINUE LATER OKOKOKOKKKKKK i need to go to some partaye which my whole family forgets it ever exist.

hsdgvbhcbsdhcbjcbsdbxcm.

I think i know why blogger cant upload any wedding pictures.
But i think my reasons are nonsensical and out of point. Doesnt make sense.
Still, i think it's because :
1) The sizes of the pictures are too big.
2) Use camera so cannot?! (ok,crap)
3) The computer/blogger hates me.

So howwwww ):
walaoooozxzxzxz.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

f.

FUCK BLOGGER FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

effing pissed.
Just when there's so many peektures to upload, blogger gives me this shit.
fuck you blogger.

Anyway, i'll post bout the wedding tomorrow perhaps, when blogger's done with being so fucking shitty.
Sorry for swears. Didnt mean it but still mean it.

And by posting this, it means that i've been slacking and not studying. Or i wouldnt have on the computer. Shit. Study Mug study mug.

STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! argh stress.

Richy and church tmr(L)

mwahz excitedznezz.

I miss Qi nowwww T____T due to stupid exams, i cant see her for weeks.
FROLICKS qi frolicks! remember okay.

So The Corrs was a long ago band but i like it now now now.
"Remind me Again why i need a man" is so addictive. I took a sneak peek at the ending, and unfortunately, Amelia still cant get married at the end of the year. Well, her reason was the best of all, "There's nothing to be ashamed of. There's nothing wrong with me. I just havent met the right one. Not yet." Gosh, what a way to end. But still, it's nice. I cant wait to get more novels. I wont feel so guilty even if i didnt study, cause at least i read a book, and it consist of english, english, and more english! Prozxzzzz.

Chinese starts to suck so much now, perhaps xu lao shi has menopause? I mean, whats with her gross grumpy moody attitude? Moodswings, really bad moodswings.

I didnt skip science remedial today, and i managed to learn something. :) Thankfully.

Best news of all : No school tomorrow! Aunt's wedding, pretty dresses, happy flowers! Happy people, Happy food! Pretty car, Pretty hotel. Pretty Aunty, Handsomezxz uncle!
okay perhaps happy food doesnt make any sense because how can they be happy when they are all gonna get eaten up? Perhaps they are happy cause its Me who eat them up:) hahaha.

yes, good excuse to skip school, omgomgomgzxz cant wait!

I need motivation to study. I cant seem to study because my mind's lost somewhere and i couldnt find it. Shyt, tell me how.

Tomorrow will be a break for me. Im gonna go camwhore-siao.

Also, im starting to love Mr.Ribbeck's lessons!
1) Get to watch Romeo and Juliet over and over again.
2) Nat and i go super h.
3) Get to use any electronic devices, because mr.ribbeck couldnt see anyway!
4) Mr.Ribbeck's good. HAHAHA. perhaps me offering him sweets does work. He even told me to keep the change after helping him buy a marker, muahahaha!
5) I dont know but i like it still.

Ouh desmond ng's like the goooooooooodest teacherzxzxz.

Messzx witzx mwahx hairx andvcv youxz seeEezx wHatzx happppeNxz.


IM GONNA GO EAT. mez wantvx to putzx on FATS.

fyifyifyi.

Hello this is to inform you that :

I didnt lost my phone, its safely resting in my pretty messy room, now. I just merely burst my bill.
How sad.

Day 1 without my phone.

Still, feel free to sms me okokokok cause i still can see my smses:)
Blog laterzxz.

No beeping):

Beep Beep.
Beep Beep.
Beep Beeeep Beeeep.

My Phone's Gone so No Beeping for now.
Oh f.
cannot forget me k. Anything can always tell me on msn/tagboard.
I CAN live without a phone, damn it.

but i dont know how to live without a phone yet.

SHIT HOWWWWWWW you people tell me how how how. like a dungggggg. Especially when outings are starting and i havent wish shannon happy birthday yet! Gawd. DIE.

Star-crossed lovers,

Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona ( where we lay our scene ),
From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean.
From forth the fatal loins of these to foes
A pair of star-crossed loves take their life;
Whose misadventured piteous overthrows
Doth with their death bury their parents' strife.
The fearful passage of their death-marked love,
And the continuance of their parents' rage,
Which but their children's end nought could remove,
Is now the two hours' traffic of our stage;
The which if you with patient ear attend,
What here shall miss, our toil shall strive to mend.

O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou romeo?
My love sprung from my only hate.


me is sad with their ending.

Dead tired.

Oh i would gladly love to post pretttty peektures right now but im afraid people who owe me peektures havent gimme yet. ): hmmmmm.

So today was queensway with yun and meeting up @ lot 1 with esther+kelly. Not bad.
Im so dead tired and i cant wait to go aunt sherri's house to try on her dresses. Hopefully there's one that suits me.

Ta!

My Happy Heart.

Hi it'll be a long story.
Thursday

Yeah the after-school clique was busy camwhoring. :@

Saturday

Hello Maryjane.
So this is pear, mj and and andddddd strawberry.

I've got pretty sparkles, bet you're jealous. No? Yes? I'll take it as a yes.

This is the pretty preet preet pretttttyyyy heart me and cor made:)

This is the unglam me with the glamorous sparkles. chinese dance lol.

Look! It looks like E.T's coming. Okay crap. Totally not linked.

Yuri! Owned.

Yuri again, holding an "olympic torch". or is he some weird fire-eater? or glad to see the light of God? Orrrrr, E.T's coming.

I think this is prettier than the one me and cor made. Owned by...junyi?liyuan? Who made this. Definitely not that olympic torch holder/weirdo fire-eater. He's busy playing fire.

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Okay so im done with elaborating the pictures. (though some of what i've said doesnt link to the peeks at all-.-)

Today is sunday okay okay kkkkk.

So i've been missing in action from my blog for 2 days.

I DUNNOOOO HOW TO START.

wait i must think first.

ORAL SUCKS.
CHINESE IS LIKE AAAAAAA.....))))):
IM SO TIRED OKAYZXZZZZZZ.

i need some beauty sleep.

So then i thought to myself , perhaps everything was just a lie, and a lie it will always be.
Hmmm. It really is stressing as exams gets nearer each day. Im not prepared, not yet.

Orals tomorrow, so dead.

My chinese is like a dung, worst in class. Sometimes i wonder, am i really a chinese?
I mean, since 8, my chinese had been low low low really low till now. Bad.
Except for primary 1..i remember getting 90+/100. :)

Today's normal. Repeating its cycle everyday.
Life's a bore.
Pepper came over today and folded 263424141 hearts while i was pigging. Im such a good host.

Let's see how long you're gonna play with me you bastard of a tortoise.

I love sixpence none the richer, and i absolutely love leonardo dicaprio.
Romeo and juliet love story, best of best:)

maybe i should stop now.

Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you,
why can't I speak whenever I talk about you.
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it.

I've got a nice new watch when i actually hate time.
Its red in colour and has happy pictures on it.

I got Fat Joe for my bestfriend, and Buttons for myself.
It's actually our little mobile phones' accessory:)
Fat Joe and Buttons are bestfriends, just like us.

I've tried on 3 dresses and they all fit me alittle weirdly.
First dress made me look like a pumpkin.
Second dress has black on it and it's not allowed in the wedding. It's puffy and i look like a furball princess.
Third dress made me wanna faint due to tight fittings.

I made myself happy by singing happy songs, it works sometimes but not everytime.

Sometimes my mum makes me pizz.
Most of the time, i make her pizz.
Blogger do makes me pizz too.

Life's a boring shit.

Maybe eating mooncakes help.
Champaigne chocolate mooncakes! Mmm.

I need something more.

shit man shit shit i feel so angry now!):<
for no damn reason.

ahhhhhhhhh.

Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon. Movie marathon.

Not really but it feels like im having a movie marathon. Probably cause it's been soooo long since i've watched movies. Except for wall-e on monday. In malaysia. Other than that, there's so much more movies im dying to watch.

Regretted 5% for not watching My Sassy Girl yesterday, with alvin and shoman. Argggghhhhh, or i wont be so movie deprived now/today.

Thusssss, i opened the coffee table's drawer and took some movies out to watch. Original and pirated discs, whatever it is.

Movies i've watched : Dont mess with the Zohan, Red Cliff, Turn left turn right, Accuracy of death.
Okay, so 4 shows in a day. Should i even be doing this?! Exams coming, exams coming! Shyt. I tell you time's a shyt.

King Kong on channel five now, that makes 5 movies a day. Hmmmmm, cool man cool cool.

Lastly : Things i gotta do
1. Get that damn dress.
2. Shoes shoes!
3. Homework study homework study.
4. Twilight fuck you come to me pls!
5. MARRY TAKESHI KANESHIRO. omg he's so hot. HE MAKES ME MELT. ( Caught him on red cliff - fucking hot sexy clever zhu-ge liang/turn left turn right - violin crazy guy/accuracy of death - hot grim reaper. And all three characters in 3 shows love music! Hmm, one word : HOT.)

damn i love him. And im not sorry for swearing cause it's him im swearing, hothothot! he's gonna be my future husband. He already is.

Perhaps im not a good friend, im sorry.

I love my bf, bestfriend forever.

Oh and i need to get a dress.
Tuesday outing with bestfriend, a must:)

Townnnnnn today, then church friends at night. :)
I want that dress!

OKAY GOODBYE:D

HELLO I (L)(L)(L) MUM ALOT ALOT ALOT.
:D

i dont feel good and i wont post today. No.

Love my parents alot(L).

And i woke up to find a shirt with the words "Daddy's Little Expensive Girl" on it,sitting on my chair. It's really nice and i love my dad alot(L)
But still, i dont jus love my dad for the shirt, i love my dad for being my dad and a very good dad.
Same goes to mum, with maple or not. (L)

Hate myself though.
I just cant put my mind all into studying. I've got too much to worry.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find.

:/

Remedial at 9 but im an hour late, oh well who cares!:)
So i was frantically searching high ad low for my dumb ezlink card, when it was in my diary the whole day. Wasted far too much money. Reached school and studied alittle. Yeah at least i did make an effort to do maths sums. Went to dover with nat mel yun lyd and mr.ng to get lunch. Brought back to school and ate in roooom. Starts slacking all the way other than copying some notes and listening to songs from yun's podie o. :) Had ruffles treated by mr.nggggg then home!

I guess it's gonna be the same cycle tmr and friday, and i'll be late, again!

Yun and mel came to my homie today and we went mad in the rain. Well, we were drenched even with umbrellas on top of our heads. Screamed when thunder roared and lightning strikes. Sup crazyyyyy. Thats when we were about to go get some snacks. Watched ACCURACY OF DEATH disc 1 lol and then started to camwhoredddddd.

MADDDDNESSSSS and i'll continue tmr.

shyt.

mum is playing maple AGAIN. ): time's running.

WHYWHYWHYWHYWHY f.

HELLO BYE.

shyt.getting lamer day by day. I DONT WANT TO GET GROUNDED DAMN IT.

yes im back im back im back ahaha.

thks plank for noticing something that's really wrong in my previous post. No, i didnt go back using a time machine, i merely type a number wrongly:)

So it was 1/9 ytd and 2/9 today yozzz. Date's wrong coz im posting before a limited time.

Okay whatever anything anyhow lah, im getting confused, you too right right right? tsk.

Had a nightmare and couldnt get back to sleep. Anyway i should be starting to get up early everyday so hmm. But that doesnt mean i need to have nightmares everyday. -.-

Yesterday outing to malaysia was fun. :) Day out to another country eh. hahahzzxzx.

Lovesongs in car rides, twilight and sightseeing - in car that is.

First destination was to eat :O

Great sumptious foodddd but i dont know what's all that called. So let's just take it as it's really nice food that can make you bloated.

Second destination was to have a durian feast! and i only ate one durian, lol-.-

Third was to the mall, got tickets to wall-e and walk aroundddd:)

Starbucks then wall-e then jap fooood.

THENNNNN lovesongs back home:)

Sounds boring but it really isnt. Just dead beat afterthat.

now i missss yesterday.yesterday and yesterday.

happy birthday by click five rockszcxzz.

take time to realize,

Hello I'll be going to malaysia in 45 mins time. :)
Only for a day though:)
(today is 1/8)


Bye!