when time passes too fast,

I was looking through pictures as its been a long time since i've used my computer. Been using the laptop since dunnnnno when. So then i found out a whole load of awesome crap in my pictures, like the ones above. HAHA. it was taken last year. :P

Anyhwwww i've been studying, i dare to say that. I just ended math tuition not long ago, ard 9.45 heh. Studied @ dawn's place earlier on with annnnn :-) I havent been going to remedials cuz i think i dont learn anything there, BUT i do study when i go home. So yeah whatever.

Im kinda tired nowadays, as usual )-: and i still eat alot, especially midnight. Recess too :P

Sometimes i feel so grumpy in school cuz my classroom's hot and stuffy and this is so random haha. Well what makes my mood swing like mad for the past few days was also due to irritating freaking period so yeah pardon me if i've offended anyone! Which i guess i have not. Ha.

I NEEEED TO STUDYYYYYYY! i've been studying till midnight since monday :-) thats good. I've been having dark eye rings since .. ? Thats bad. ): sigh.

And i've got another wedding dinner on fri. I go FOR FOOD. again. haha.
bb.

Why am I fighting to live, if I’m just living to fight.
Why am I trying to see, when there ain’t nothing in sight.
Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try.
Why am I dying to live, if I’m just living to die?
Someone please tell me why.

I LOVE:

I LOVE KZH to the max. ♥

Kay hi.

Fri: Baby came over and we randomly decided to go harbourfront. Eat yoshi and walked around.
Sat: English oral (freaking early in the morn on a sat) and met rich + eme to eme's house for a swim! Luv the girls <3 Church plus testimony from louise hamilton, super brave girl thanks to the work of God! Studied with rich and eme after church @ macs.

Baby also came over yesterday for a stayover. We talked till like 3. Disturbed him at 9am today. HAHA. I cant believe i woke up early today. It happens everytime he come for a stayover. I'd wake up really early and run next door to disturb him. I (L) my boyfriend :-)

Tomor's school. No point saying sian. Just mug mug mug! Bbbbbb.

I realise i dont take photos. Cuz im lazy. ):

Good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

homicide

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly away
Instead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand

My heart is drenched in wine
But you'll be on my mind
Forever.
- dont know why

Turned on the radio and my dad changed it to class95, since last night. Lazy to change and im glad i am. Cuz now's playing class95 lovesongs and its damn nice :-) I hope tomor i'll be able to see him but i guess even if i cant it doesnt really matter.(actually it does) because. haha. :-) :-) :-) :-) He's staying over on saturday.

I wanna specially thank annetta sweet for staying back with me to do my silly dnt cupboard which turned out nice. And also accompanying me to lunch. Thanksss:-)

Okay. I need forgiveness. Forgive me for saying it nowwww, and not earlier! But i did text you guys right :-) cept love & rachel cuz i lost your number!
21 sept : HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL! aunty aunty :-)
22 sept : HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINGWEN CUZZIE! finally 14 :) luvvvv
23 sept : HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER PEPPER! 15 and zitchy hahahahahh i love you zitcccchh!
24 sept : HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVELLE DT! 16! more gym soon okay yayaaaaaayyyyyyy!! lol.

I. am. tired. Tiredness is in me. Ever since days ago. I think im really seriously growing. I eat, eat eat eat and cravings for milo increased ): HAHA. (i used to hate milo like mad) and i drink milk now and i ache in body parts): + 1 or 2 tiny pimples :O I hope its really growing pain:)

Think im damn boliao right now.

flabby teddy doesnt link

It's been awhile since i've blogged..oh well im not chained to this anyway, i dont have to seriously blog every single day. I guess.

First, happy tenth (10!) month kzh!<3 okay maybe it seemed fast, or maybe it seemed slow...but whatever. 2 more months to a year! thats fast! :-D And you know i always love you.

ALWAYS. You know that right...and i know you read my blog(duh). HAHA. so yeah. I love you.

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Kay back to the thing..

mon: what did i do uh. oh wedding dinner was okay haha caught in the rain and mummy had real bad blisters cuz she wore her new flats. :P

tues: r.e.m.e.d.i.a.l after school and home with zh! We had game of life.

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oh so it's only been 2 days. I thought it was afew days since i've blog, not just 2 days.

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TODAY was shyt (for the oral part). Other than that, lunch with ann and love was seriously a joke. HAHA. Damn nice and funny being with them! Chinese oral was BAD ok BAD. I dont know how to say hawker centre, fruits, fast food restaurant etc, and i answer real badly for the 30 marks conversation. Screw me.

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Since its over now english is the main priority. WHICH IS :) haha.

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Im growing. YAY. bb. so tired.

airport with b.a.b.y

i still prefer blogger lol. Okay<3 (tumblr still on for fun)

Airport with kzh!<3 (to study) and it was really successful! Managed to learn smth. So it was good, like really good, really really good, so good....you know what i mean.

Then it's till friday then i can see him again): Really dreading school, tuesday is oral i think! CHINESE somemore. Gawd its my worse sub urgh. But well. Tmr there'll be shark fin soup cuz i'll be attending my mum's cousin's wedding dinner! Dressing up again, fun! i go there only for foooood. heh. Remedial lessons till 5.30pm every mon tues and thurs. Kill me! (for the next 3 weeks)

I pray God will help me through these difficult times :-) Goodbye!

tumblr for 5

please let me move to tumblr for 5 days. FIVE DAYS only. thks. i'll see how it goes. scribblytown forever my love.

http://www.radioactivejam.tumblr.com/ bb:-)

ps do not keep this dead lol.

On another note, im a PIG today. almost every weekends. Woke up at 12, slept at 2, woke up at 6 and im tired now. ha. And i sleep everytime after i had a full, satisfied meal. I am still not fat. tell me if thats good or bad. Hur.

booey

Hi.

town with ann and met mel too. sony fking slow cuz till now(a week alrd) havent even gotten my phone back. sigh. I like to drink the korean shop kid's blueberry drink 8) ann bought pink and i bought blue and the bottle's darn cute! Taste good too. Yay. Yoshi for dinner.

Mummy busy having fun at friend's bday party and daddy's working overnight. IM SO BORED! and im alone now...lonely): watching some stupid show. hur. Blogger is a screwy jerk.

for a moment i felt my heart turned to stone.

im gonna sleep like a pig tonight. with aircon and fan and music. Im gonna be a spoilt brat tonight and treat myself to good mooncakes and coke flavour sweets and kinder bueno, tonight! I reckon my mum would scream at me once she's back cuz the house is currently in a huge mess and my feet stink(not). HAHA. bye.

paper aeroplane

so I thought i'm gonna be alone at home today. Well not really..in the end. Cuz' mel and esther made friends and we three live happily ever after. Ha. Had lunch together and they came over. Mummy bought really good champagne mooncakes. They're so good i can eat more. And more..and more.

These days i've been feeling rather cranked up and alittle heaty, really hate the feeling of it. Hopefully i can get better soon. Oh and my phone should be okay by tomor. Cant wait to get it back!

Tomorrow is finally friday, time passes so fast. I need to mug like a dog. :/ I'm so tired. My mum thought im sick cuz of my sickly pale face. But fact is, im tired and im on the verge of getting ill, NOT ill. yet. Sigh. )-:

plus ytd zh came over after his gym, which's at night. Happy, ahah. And he helped me with memorising my notes. 8) Hehe, <3 + <3 + <3 = <3!

I believe in this(somehow) : being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. it means that you've decided look beyond the imperfections.

:-)

love you zh

yesterday 15/8: HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY BABY! I love you 8)

Okay. You can seriously call me stupid, stupid for not bringing my camera out yesterday!! Cuz ytd rushed back home to change and meet baby. Was really tired as the night before was baking my love muffins for him :-) But its worth it laaaaaa(L) So then went to town and meet zh. Walked around and cabbed to sentosa, went to UNDERWATER WORLD (this is the part where camera is really impt and i forget to bring) haha kinda random but its better than spending time elsewhere.

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The fishes are seriously cool, like really. Baby touched stingrays, which I definitely not dare to in my entire life. Well its ok cuz, our eyes are cameras. We see what we see and thats awesome enough:-) Strolled at the beach since its awfully quiet, before having sakae sushi for dinner<3

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picked a random bus to a random place (ended up at yishun northpoint mall,lol) and walked around before going home.

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Love zh so much <3!

Always and always:)

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Kay now i need to start studying, like really start studying. Im a sucker at it. And im gonna change that. NOW. i shouldnt even be doing this. i'm gonna off it now. Bye.

red cabbage

Kay, sorry for the previous post. Was kinda too pissed thats why.

Anyway listen to the day i died by just jack. It's good. School was horrid. Tomor will be better. Whole day out with zh!! 8-)

fuck you.

Sigh

Life's a game that everyone's sure to lose in, even for once.

I cant take it, cant stand it. Hearing you both quarrel sucks. SUCKS. Sometimes i hate home, hate putting on a fake smile and trying to be a happy family in front of others. But what can i do? Stay in my room and stay silent.

Just fucking shut up please you both. Cuz your fucking daughter cant fucking stand it fuck fuck fuck this shit. Cant fucking hear you say about each other. Cant fucking help each other say good things. Cant do it anymore. Oh fuck this world.

Maybe thats the reason why people are so scared of getting married now, cuz once we live together we might just see a different person.

Thats it. Fuck. (sorry cant control notorious language) At lease i only use f when im really pissed. FUCK YOU BOTH @$!%@#@$!%@$%!$@#@!$%

please let me spit it out fuckers:
FUCK IT. FUCK YOU PEOPLE. FUCK THIS FUCKING WORLD AND THE PPL LEAVING IN IT. FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK YOU KNN. oh and fuck the bitches and bastards.

fall at your feet

How I’ve missed you lately, and the way you would speak,and all that we wouldn’t say.


God is awesome.

Uh tuition in the morning *):* AND church in the afternoon and mac's ice-cream at night. Yeahhhh (L) cell, (L) God. 8)

Aye and i miss zh haha. k bye.

letters we tuck into drawers and never send,

I'm posting as 11 sept, even though its past 12. I just wannnnnna say....

I had much fun today :-) I love mummy, i love cellgroup, i love shopping, i love my new stuffs, i love practically everything bout today. YES.
Okay thats all. HAHA. till tmr then. xxx.

'What caused you this pain in your heart?’, she asked. “My eyes. I had them closed for so long and when I finally opened them, I wasn’t ready for what they saw.”, he replied.

Have I ever told you before,
I think you're beautiful when you're sleeping?
After some time it's something i find true.
Love's not a grave, it shouldn't decay on you.
sweet.

Goodnight.

more than a bundle of joy

Was raining cats and dogs and chicks and rabbits this morn, was hesitating whether to go for chem remedial or not. Thanks to mel's persistence on asking me to "go la..go leh", we both met and went for it together. Ended around 2 half hours(darn draggy but at least i learn smth!). Went home with mel but zh surprised me with "i'm on my way over" so met him at lot 1 before going home :-)

Spent the whole day together doing stupid things, and watching fated to love(last disc!), i cried like a mad dog girl. Plus the side effects of my headache made me cry even more. It was awful but i thank God for zh. Always there for me without fail 8) Haha, feel like laughing everytime i think about him rushing to catch his last bus/train, leaving my house at like the very last min..which is 11.15/20pm. Heehee, i love him very much!

Okay back to the thing. Tmr will be mummy's day off, we'll be going shopping + repair my dumb stupid sony phone8D And i've collected my specs alrd. No comments about it:-) Joining cell for bbq at 7pm tmr night toooo!

zh's bday is coming, cant wait. 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D 8D
bb!

sunflower

How clearly i remembered that you once gave me a sunflower as beautiful as this.

my life has been an endless tangle; misunderstandings
heartache unknown truths and everything left unsaid.
what is the truth to untangle?
where is the heart to stop this ache?
who knows the truth which is unknown?
why were so many things left unsaid?
how my darling will we ever end something so tangled?

feel this magic

Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
I can't help myself

So I woke up early today, thinking why did i even agree to attend math remedial on a school holiday. But then i still went to school and go through 4 hours of math, 2 hours i think i was concentrating fully, while the other 2 hours I was distracted by my friends. Anyhoo i still did it. It wasn't that bad.

Met mel at lot 1's mac. She's seriously being a joke. Meeting me to study but forgot to bring her pencilcase. WHAT. A. JOKE. Hah, but glad she waited for an hour or so alone in macs, FOR ME. heheh. Studied and went to my house. Now we both are being a joke. Made-up like some ppl who've just gotten a punch in the eye. Teehee 8) funny though. Took pictures for the fun of it.

She left and i felt so tired i actually fell asleep while waiting for mummy to come back. Yawn.

:/ Tomorrow i guess i'll be bored. Again.

Hey Stephen,
I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you? - taylor swift, Hey Stephen

loadsssssa luv.

pull through this

take me away.

mel @ my housie now, studying. Im gonna create a blog for her. (i think) ;-) Update later!

accidents waiting to happen

Every atom of me missed him.

Wasn't suppose to see my boyfriend today, since..friday? Because of his stupid exams..but i saw him today! And he just left not long. Hee. Poor boy, came to see me just to get colour markers for exam and spend alittle time with me. Thank goodness tomor is his last paper..:-) Cant wait cuz then he'll be able to spend more time with me.

Oh well. Today was boring, typical monday. Woke up and had some chocolate bread my grandma forced me to eat..then played with little leia. Napped and studied:-) normal normal.

Honestly, i hate my annoying irritating horrible rude saddistic cousin, luke. Sigh, forever bullying me and valerie and now to leia too, forever becoming someone more hateful ):< Had to tolerate him the whole day or else he will complain to gramps. (well i complain to my poor boy teehee 8P)

Oh while listening to taylor swift's white horse..

TS: it's too late to catch me now..
me: Val, its too late to catch me now.
val: I then dont want to catch you.

tsk. HAHA. kay bb.

avalanche

I miss you.

Anyway i just made new specs, collecting on wed. 8) I dunno if its gonna look like a nerd or better but oh well, i've decided to only use it when im studying or watching tv OR surfing the net. The end. I hate wearing spectacles.

Guess tmr outing's postphoned to another day soooooooooooooooo i'll study at home. And go jogging in the evening.

Let me breathe. We'll pull through this avalanche.

moldy peaches

Yo.

think my dad has menopause. Yeah men doesnt have it but i think mine does. URGH. alittle bit only angry alrd. ):< WHATS HIS PROBLEM. so easily pekchek for whattttt. grow more white hair only.

pfffft i'm freakin bored and waiting to go gramps place. F'kin addicted to fashiontv. All the models are fkin skinny skinny skinny why! AND THEY LOOK SO GOOD. I on the other hand am skinny and i dont like it, at all. Sucks balls.

Sorry its a vulgar one for this.
Bye i may update later. Cuz i have a feeling im gonna be bored all day, esp when zh has things on ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

b.o.r.e.d

Headache from all the sleeping. URGH. Why must i sleep so much. It's weekend and i spend it on sleeping ):< Even when i feel like dolling up and go have some fun, i cant. Cuz i'll still end up on the bed somewhat. Sigh. Oh weeeeellll :/ Monday will be meeting friends to go airport to study. Hopefully we'll be able to get some knowledge into our brains.

Need to get new nail polish, some new colours like green or yellow or wtv. But couldnt find any and was really bored, painted my nails blue with pink polka dots.(gawd bimbo) Teehee, made zh help paint my right hand ytd but it was a failure): Messy. Anyhoooz i managed to get my mum to do it. It's fugly still since she only helped with 2 fingers, but who cares. Gonna erase it off soon anyway.

Asked cousin to order a pair of topshop flats with pweeeetty bows for me, pray its not out of stock. Dont oos on me!

K i've nothing much to say alrd. Think im too bored. Im really really very bored. REALLLLLLY VERY BORED. hurz. Feel like go cycling now. Downstairs. Retarded. i want something to do. Something like eating ice-cream. Im addicted to ondeh ondeh but stupid bengawang solo always sell finish. I want to draw, talk on the phone, cycle, read, eat, shit but not sleep. GET ME A BOOK OR SMTH! Its been long since i ventured into a new story.

under my skin

maybe that's the thing i like most about you,
that no matter how hurt i am,
you can always fix it with just a simple hug.
that when i'm breaking down just one of your smiles makes me forget about the tears.
that i can be angry and ready to explode but by the time we're done talking you have me laughing.
maybe that's the thing i like most about you,
that you take the reasons for pain away.

Mmmhmm im sorry percussionnn really sorry for not going to the airport with you guys! The thought of going for band practice just practically killed me. Anyhoooz headed town with mel mel instead and we shopped around, going into most of the shops in far east and far east alone. Haha! Resisted the temptations of buying ANYTHING im proud of myself. ;-)

Met zh for dinner and home sweet home, watched fated to love second last disc with zh<3, and he left not long ago so im here!

Yes holidays are here, time to m.u.g good or bad idk oh wtv *wishes this is xanga so can use the smiley face* ya kayz bb.

I love how we take really silly pictures and laugh at our silly faces. Hahaha 8) Yknow i really love you.

love you to the max

I Love Kwek Zhi Hong. (for the dunno how many times)

You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true

School today was as usual but i did something which i felt was very very embarrassing. I smsed some crap to zh cause i wasnt fully awake.(that was when i was having a nap in gramps place) HAHA KAY BBBBBBBBBBB :-)

vanz da nessaaaa goh

Hello. It's been quite awhile since i've last blogged.

Today I went over to zh's house and we spent the day laying in bed watching taiwan drama. Yeah yeah i know its just not me & neither is it him(we dont watch such shows, or at least I) but this one was good;) Uh, fated to love? Wtv. The one currently showing on channel U 10pm teehee. Also, wanted to go hort park at night but guess we're both lazy.

Fri zh stayedover, sat we both went for cell, sun met up with zh for dinner, mon evan and yuqi came over(psstt im gonna own evangebitch and yuqi game of life SOON) + pri sch friends, tues is today.

Summary? You want summary? The summary is these few days have been 10% above great and i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong i love zhi hong spam spam spam spam spam.

ahaha i guess you guys are bored of my so-called-obsession over my bf. too bad lor. this is for you ----> :P

kayz bye. tmr is skool. skool. skool. skool is .