poor guys.

I really like meetups with buyers who's buying stuff from my cousin. Its like something I and cousin do most of the sundays, meet up strangers and exchange stuff with money. :)))) I like to guess how the stranger looks like most of the time, whether he/she is ugly or not. Fat bitchy thin etc.

But i realise..... most of them are boyfriends who have to do all this sai kang. Like the actual person(who's a girl) will ask the boyfriend to come and collect. Boyfriends have to do sai kang, always. (shit jobs) But not bad cause me and qi will always be excited to see if he's handsome or not. LOL.

okay i'll blog later kkkkkk, ah ma house to show off my new boots.

breathe

the next thing i knew, my head was bleeding. Im covered in blood, the sharp pain killing me quick, but what matters most was, im in his arms. Thats enough to know, enough to go.

I've got my new phone:) that equals to new number, and i memorized them as soon as i knew them. Oh and, sms me anytime you want, i'll most probably reply cause i suddenly like typing on my new keypad and since i've got unlimited smses i can sms all i want. Ask for my number. Unless i've already messaged you my number. (if you're on holiday, overseas, do ask. Sorry didnt forward to you.)

My nose's still running, still as bad. How? Japan's just this coming wednesday! And i havent pack my lugguage, still.

Nat's got a rabbit. HAHA, she deserve to be scolded by her mum. A rabbit?? I bet she'll get bored taking care of it. WAIT -- okay i just got punked.
Nat's a loser, seriously. First i got punked thinking that her dp was a rapper called lolcatz, then it was actually her and there was no such rapper. Next she fooled me with the rabbit thingy. WTF?
Now she's telling me she love me, and she did this because she love me. I, being the forever nice person, forgives her and loves her too:) (nat i know you'll be seeing this cause i asked you to, and even if you said i got punked because you dont love me at all, i take the first word. ha-ha.)

Haji lane with mum tomor!

Qi's stayover was not bad, we went to vivo and lot 1 and playground, as usual!:) we took photos and saw paikias(as usual-.-) hahaha:D i love qi from the bottom of my heart. (L) But one thing's pissing me off is my camera's memory card. I cant upload the photos into my com, ARGH!

twilight twilight, edward cullen you dont really rock, but i think i like you still. How? Zhi hong's gonna kill me, and burn you down book.

Sigh i miss you, and its driving me crazy. Time's going so slowly, its been like weeks since i've seen you. You are a noob, an incorrigible noob(kidding), humorous and overrated insane bangalah, but i love you still. So much, i want you back quick. But i'll be going away, what is this? Its shit.

Im vandalising my book, my bought-from-takashimaya book. It has vulgarities and censored words with cute imprints and stickers from my sticker album. It has bible verses and van's doodlings. I sort of like the book.

three days away and thats okay.

So tired. Night.

In My Head.

what am i suppose to say? Im falling to pieces.

Fairfield Methodist Secondary School first thing in the morning. Almost everyday's bout school. One minute band, the next school books. But i was lucky enough not to have to drag myself off the bed, i slept quite early yesterday:) No twilight, no tv dramas, simply nothing! Right after blogging i handed the com to qi and went straight to bed. Pro eh? Of course. Band made my legs feel like jelly when i reached home. After school and school books, pa ma qi and me went to vivo. To look for my new phone. I cant wait, i so cant wait to get a new plan from starhub, cause i'd have unlimited smses! Which's equivalent to erhem..text till die kinda thing. No interesting models of sony ericsson(i promised myself to use that cause i think its not bad) but i cant take it. Must make a choice. Due date tomor!! That also means new handphone number.But fret not, want my number come ask from me! :D So hopefully i'll choose a handphone model im satisfied with, no point buying something i dont like):

Downstairs with qi sooooooonnnnnnnnn, camwhore?

I love/hate today, so much.

Sigh, any idea how much i miss you? Everywhere i go, its you. This is maddening. I must stop.
Stop thinking bout you for once, but its so hard. ): stupid. 12 more days? is it? i think so.

p/s i havent pack my bag for japan trip. :O my mum is mad at me now.

Goodnight!

pps/: Look at the sky whenever you think of me, whenever you miss me, and i will too. We'll be looking at each other, though from afar, cause there's only one sky in the whole wide world.
(credits to cally, for explaining this theory.)

concerto.

concert was a blast(!!!!)
now that its over, the only thing we(s.u.p) could think about is JAPAN:D super looking forward to it:)

yessssss, not bad not bad! Everyone were talking bout peeing in their pants on the stage and the next minute, we ended everything without any pee on our pants. S.U.P's the best, what more can i say?

Qi is at my house now, imma kinda tired and shagged because i woke up quite early today @___@ And spent the rest of my afternoon at sg conference hall rehearsing. Zhi hong's in shanghai now, thats the saddest thing ):

sigh.

"My hope" tomor..the feeling in me, the excitement in me isnt quite in me now, but i'll find it back. IM JUST TOO TIRED! today.

OKAY BYE TWILIGHT HERE I COME AND AND AND TV DRAMASSSSSSS(sleeping is for later) nights everyone (L)!

p/s sadly no peeks ah.

secret valentine.

How?

My secret valentine, dont leave me.

And its tomorrow, tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow till 13 days later again.

I is a speechless. Concert tomor, what to do??? What if i screw up the whole damn thing? What if! But then again, i cant wait for jingqi to come stayover right after concert!:) Its time for me to spend some time with my cousin, my really cool cousin who laughs really weirdly and loud! The last time qi came to stayover was a few months back perhaps? And there were so many weird things going on, i still remember paikias asking for her number! HAHA, yesssss a new leap of fun tomor!

The feeling in me, the happiness and the sadness, mixed, really. I dont know how im feeling now..should i be happier than sad, or sadder than happy? when you're leaving tomorrow, ): this is bad.

Went to town after practice today, band was a madness cause i went to school around 10am when it starts at 9! Walked around town with lim yap and vera, being with them can make you laugh like a mad cow! I laughed, really insanely today. Lim said im allergic to kinokuniya because i started laughing whenever i get in that bookstore. :))) Yap and lim like someone from the Better Toy Store, called jerry/gary or something. We went to look for him but sadly he isnt there! HAHAHA, so funny! Then we four went around searching for souvenirs to be given to the kinki japan students, from band. But we found nothing interesting, just a few cheapskate stuffs like snowglobe(??) which we didnt buy in the end. SOOOO this means i didnt use my posb card, i resist! HAHA. Walked and walked, then met zhi hong at wisma and took a bus home:) Went downstairs to chill before going home. :DDDDD

Lastly, i wanna thank MAMA(grandma).

Thanks for loving me so much, and even bothered to help me sew my ultra disgusting long band uniform's skirt. its 11.50pm+ when i called you and asked you to help me to sew, and you did even when you're about to go to bed:P I know you were tired after a day's work and there's wedding to attend tomor, but nevertheless you helped me and even ironed for me, ever so neatly. THANKS! Thanks mama, love you sooooo.

OKAY, i guess im tired and i didnt expect myself to type so much cause it wasnt suppose to be something long.

You: Hi you are leaving tomor and this sucks. I guess i'll be seeing you tomor for the last time but fret not, i wont give all my love to jap guys just like give some love to them can already :P hahahaha. (L)

HAVE A HEARTY NIGHT PEOPLE!

Prelude of hearts

I realised i've been typing stuffs then backspacing it then type it again then backspace it again. I really have nothing much interesting to write about, but im just used to blogging every single day. Oh well.

Im waiting for dad to bring my mcflurry back home, hopefully it doesnt melt.

Seize the day, And all lost apathy, will come around.

One more day to you going off, one more day to the pathetic concert, one more day to agony, not? (tomor last day? so fast? i dont like it.)

And i attended jap lesson today, though i skipped band. Met up with percussion for lunch, a place called broadway which i've never been to, and i was late so i didnt eat. Was the last lesson of japanese class, learnt quite alot! It seem so exciting, so exciting to go on a trip somewhere far somewhere not even close to home somewhere where your parents aint there but just afew teachers and your friends. I guess as each day goes by, im getting more and more excited, which is good? No? Yes.

Sudden urge to eat my mcflurry, my oreo mcflurry. But it turned out to be not oreo, its chocolate mcflurry. Sigh.

the unspoken words i tried to say, tried to tell you, tried to let you know. i really really tried so hard, i couldnt bring it up, though its just afew simple words. i love you.

Period. I hate you.

Pekchek ah. Goodnight.
(twilight is a good read, it keeps my mind occupied with only twilight and twilight and twilight and not on anything else. Not on any troubled thoughts..i suppose.)

TESTING?

300th post.

Its 9.50am now, you guessed it, i skipped band. I thought today i will be free for the whole day, but i realised that there's jap lesson later on at 2. Saddening.

Im quite scared actually, its 2 more days to concert. And i play like some sai. But going to practice doesnt really help much, who knows what that old hagconductor might do to me again? Criticize me again? $%&#$@#!

Anyway, i think i should head to town soon to get the 2nd book of twilight. I know im slow. Cant blame.

Stress.

indecisive.

Sometimes i dont know how to start.

My holidays have been mostly occupied by s2e (which ended but took up 2 weeks) and band. And you have no idea how much i hated band, still hating band. I go for the sake of friends percussion and japan. But really, band sucks this much. -

Mrs Chua, i know you detest me, and i know how useless i am to the band.(not that useless actually) But yknow that you dont have to criticize me infront of the whole band cause you really drive me up the wall and you make me feel like boxing/punching/slapping you etc. Please get your facts right, perhaps you couldnt see clearly what i was doing. Dyou know you were actually sitting quite far from the section area? You think you can see so clearly that you actually saw me talking which is not true? I turned to take my stuff and you thought i was talking so you SAID I AM TALKING AND SO CALLED SCOLDED ME INFRONT OF THE WHOLE FREAKING BAND?! Okay so all in all cut short you scolded me for something i had not done and you even said i wasnt paying attention to you, saying i didnt look at you. Arent i suppose to read the scores to play my parts? I dont have many pairs of eyes, only one. I cant look at the score and look at you at the same time. Im not pro in any of these stuffs and perhaps you could just choose who you want to play my part. I resign, really. (I wish i could) I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT man.
Sigh. Afterall writing this crap long message, its a guarantee that you wont come to this site anyway. Who knows if you'll even use the computer or not.

Talking bout that really makes me mad. I signed out halfway during band, couldnt continue anymore.

I wasted my afternoon taking a nap and reading twilight, not bad actually, worth it. Then boyflen in the evening. :)

And something bout twilight. I used to hate people who read twilight, cause i think its kinda crazy for people to go crazy bout the characters in a book, especially the character bout a guy called Edward Cullen. But now, im sort of starting to go insane over him, i mean why? Why go mad bout something/someone that doesnt even exist? Something that someone made up. Im starting to fall in love with twilight, really. Fascinating.

There's so many things i wanna blog about, but whenever i start typing, i just couldnt remember what i wanna blog about. Guess i shall just end here and help potato with his new blogskin. :)

have a hearty night:)

two more days, why am i even counting down? One more, one more. Just one more.

MOSHI MOSHI!

Hajimemashite! Watashi wa vanessa desu! :D
Kon'nichiwa moshi moshi how dyou do?:) Kibun ga warui desu ): (i feel sick)

Hello hello hello! i is vvvvv sick i think i is dying): lol. Anyway! Today i.am.a.nooblet. BECAUSE brid says so and i think so too. I woke up at 8am getting dressed ready to leave house when i found out that there isnt any band practice. All i really have to do is just sleep more and go to school at 2pm for japanese class. Ha.Ha. This is so ): And nobody bothered to answer my calls(erhem percussion?!) because they are all sleeping thus i called miss terri tan. :P she's sleeping too. LOL. So it was a bad start. But it all ended up well when zhi hong smsed me to go out of the house and claim a paper bag thats on my house's bench. Hehe. It was a bottle of green tea + scramble eggs + sandwiches!(heart shape somemore teeheehee:D) Realised that he woke up at 5am to prepare and waited from 7 till er...8++ outside my house? I love my boyflen v much!:D

Chatted till it was time to go and i was late for jap class again:P Didnt learn much but still learnable. Afterthat that zhi hong sent me home:)

Oh and i decided to make christmas cards for love onesss and name cards for jap people! Me and val had a-not-so-awesome trip to popular but all in all it was still okay:)

Okay, this ends with my mood : Hap-hap-py! :D

With all my hardcore love!