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THE DAY YOU REALIZE YOU'RE EVENTUALLY GOING TO DIE IS THE DAY YOU'LL LEARN HOW TO LIVE

Playing facebook games, sleeping, eating, listening to the radio, playing facebooks games again, checking out my cafe world, meddling with pet society, going crazy over typing maniac, sleeping again, eating, missing boyfran, just lying on the bed stoning, watching devil wears prada, blogging = basically the things i did today.

Every weekend never seem to miss out an afternoon nap. I can sleep for crazy long hours, and able to sleep at night again. i guess sleeping's gonna be my hobby soon. I'm really bored, and i dont even bother finding a job, i mean its not like i dont have money that i needa work. And, holidays are for enjoying and stoning right. Sigh. I still wish i could have a job to pass time. But working is silly. So yay.

Just wish there's something cool and nice and unboring to do right now, like finding the perfect skin for this silly plain site, yknow im really getting bored of this, and people are too. I dont know if anyone's reading, i dont intend to care either, but its really getting boring!

If only i could live in New York or something..or Paris even! It'll be a dream come true. I'm not a fashionista or whatsoever but places like there are really big fashion cities and materialistic stuffs that i think its really cool. Busy everyday..busy being someone keeping up with fashion everyday! okay i'll not sound like a fashion bimbo now.

I bet corrinne is enjoying herself in japan now and trying to find caucasian guys. Tsk. Ok i'm really bored ok, until i have to mention her. HA.

I need entertainment. Hopefully tomorrow will be somewhat more interesting than today. Please God, thanks.

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Everytime make people excited for nothing. Im very unhappy now. ARGH ):< why!!

sickly woman

Didnt go church cause i chose to go shopping with mum. Yeah, you can say that im not even sincere in being in the cellgroup or whatever, or i dont take saturdays for God seriously blah blah, whatever la okay. I just decided to go with my mom anyway. So yeah, gotten my retribution?

Running a fever in the middle of shopping. Went home first. Slept, i must say its good to sleep when you're sick. Played typing maniac on facebook(lol) afterthat. Darn bored now, nobody at home. Waiting for mummy to buy back dinner!

I miss zh ): Oh yea ytd went to vivo with zh. Just needed to unwind, wanted to go hort park but its like so last min so didnt. Headed to vivo instead. Before that we rented secret to watch at my homie :> I had a moment of pms too. Sorry :/ But all in all ytd was goooood :>

Sigh. bye. And, ice cream anyone?

i feel like a shit, honestly. Cellgroup? I dont even feel like i belong there. I dont know why. Church? Go church? Yeah go church. I dont even feel homely in that place, dont feel God there. Even when i tried and asked Him to help. I cant. Worse now, smallgroup gone. I DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE GOING THERE ANYMORE. sorry. Its just how i feel now. But i will still try to go. Afterall, thats the place where people care the most, or is it? i dont know seriously.

hover the world

I dont really like rainy days, but i like it when it's raining. I like it when its raining because it gets all so cosy up and it's really a good time to sleep, makes you feel so home and comfortable in your nest. But i dont like it when it's raining too because, it makes me feel that the rain will create floods and that the wind will be blowing the trees down and the buildings will eventually collapse, causing the world to come to an end.

Yeah, i know. Lame. Paranoid. Silly. I know, i know! Its just how i feel. I can make myself sound so silly feel so silly be so silly at times, i can make small things sound like big impossible things. It's just me.

I always pray and ask God to stop being angry whenever there's thunder and lightning. Just cuz when i was young my grandma told me God's angry whenever it's raining. I'm always scared and never fail to worry about buildings collapsing. What if there's an earthquake?

Urgh. Anyway. Yesterday night was fun :-) dinner with zh's always good. Never fail to be bad. Love you baby ;-)

Today went to school late, wrote a very lame and sarcastic reflection, went home, met pep and spend the WHOLE ENTIRE day with her. Everything seem good :) Tomorrow's friday! Should i stay home? or have dinner with cell? or what? Go out with tgif clique the SUP? Somehow i like staying at home now. The only thing i dread is finding food. I hate buying lunch myself, hate eating alone. >:(

I miss SUP. So much. I can never find the courage to go back. I'll shame myself. I'll never play well. Never ever.

bye fellas.

edit:/ mum made carrot juice for me juz now and it was darn nice. + i know what to do tmr already! Wake up late, nua on the bed and just wait for zh to come! spending my fwiiiday with him. (L)

thinking is regconizing causes

I'm waiting, waiting and waiting~ Waiting for evening to come. Waiting to see you waiting to eat with you waiting to walk with you waiting to hold your huge warm protective hand/s. Waiting to squeeze you waiting to tease you waiting to just hug the xxx out of you. Waiting and still waiting and patiently excitedly waiting.

Im so bored this is so boring waiting is boring doing nothing is boring. i think i'll take a nap soon or make a little card for that someone i'm waiting for. Cuz it keeps me occupied so i wont keep missing and thinking.

xxx

edit:/ i can CRY seriously. this boredom is killing me. Perpetually.

19 more, 20 more.

I've 3 novels now. Honestly, cck library sucked. And i'd rather buy my own novels than borrow. But it was kinda last min today, was a lazy lazy pigged-out day, thus i did nothing much other than sleep and pop by the library to borrow books.

Besides that, i really had a bad time communicating with my china part time maid. Cuz i really cant speak chinese, she really really really cant make out what i'm trying to say. I tried so hard. In the end i rang up my mom to seek help.

So shingz.

Anyhoo, cant wait for tomorrow! It's gonna be another island creamery night with zh! wahahahahzzzzz. Mega boomz!!! cant waaaaiiittttt. I noticed once we start liking something, we'll get addicted to it(and keep going)! Haha, its just so zh-vanz thang. I dont wanna go school tomorrow either. But i think i will. arghhhzzz dont know.

i feel like this post is so unlike me. kk wtv yaw.

20 more.

Okay. Today is a not bad day, not really a kns kanasai day..because bf overslept! Thus he skipped school and uh, came over. Hehehehehehehehhehe.

YAYAYAYAYAYYYYYYY i love love love you know who, haha.

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Honestly, i dont know what made me feel so tired now..so i guess, i'm gonna plonk on the bed and zzz sooooon. But yeah history remedial suck big time. Really DARN SIAN i dont know why i go, cuz i go there with an empty head, came back with one too.

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Maybe town with dawn tmr, maybe. I wanna sleep like a log. Till damn late tmr heheez 8)

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Oh andddd bringing bf to meet my whole family on family christmas bash! HAHA. (maybe only) tsk. My grandma rock at bejeweled on facebook. She owned my cousin. WHAT KIND OF GRANDMA IS THIS?! heh i think its a cool one :> + my mum never seem to get bored of maple. :(

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Early this morn dad asked me if i wanna take care of his friend's dog for a little while. 2 weeks or so. 2 month old puppy. Seeked permission from mum and zh.

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Mum: No, dirty the house and you dont even know how to take care of yourself.

Zh: No! You dont even know how to take care of yourself already, how will you take care of the dog?

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URGH. sobz. bb. I shall retreat to my bed and emo. :-(

Oopsy Daisy

underwear: "I have the worst job in the world."

Hi.

I realise I want something to wake up for every morning. IT doesn't have to
be someone. It just needs to exist. I want to stop disappointing people because
I want to stop disappointing myself. I want to stop making friends with the
right kind of people who make me feel wrong. I want to find a passion for
anything, anything to keep me going. I want to be a girl at the end of the movie
who does the half smile, and knows everything will be fine. I want total honesty
to be easier to achieve. I want to end my life as myself - not my friends, not
my family, and not who they always expected I would be. I want
equality to exist among everyone. Especially prejudiced teenage girls. I want

stress and exhaustion to disappear. I want to achieve everything they never did.

Okay so. I'm going to drink milk everyday. And juice. And since holidays have just started, I've decided to eat sleep shit eat sleep shit eat sleep watch telly surf net eat sleep shit when i'm at home, which i'll most likely be.

I want to watch a movie!

There's remedial at 8am tomorrow and maybe band practice + bf has long hours of school tmr urgh :( seriously kns, KANASAI. shingz.

There's a point in your life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything but it's not giving up. It's just realizing that you dont need certain people and the bullshit they're always bringing.

xxxxxxz.

brilliant mistakes

1. I am not working anymore.
2. Cheer up nissi salt 1! God has a reason to do this.
3. I love my baby.

1: Because its not worth it. Really. Not. Worth. It. Sigh.

2: Yes, I may not go church often. Or i may only be able to make it for cellgroup. But afterall, i still know and love everyone as brothers and sisters in christ. And i absolutely feel guilty for not being able to make it today because its the last day the cell are together as one. Now that my small group's being dispersed, its really sad. However I believe God has a reason to do this and no matter what the outcome is, praise God. We can still meet up!
Thanks Shannon, jieying, mavis, mun ho, corrinne, Jonathan, James, Zoe and Anyi for making small group wonderful :>
And i promise i'll try to make it every sat for church.

3: I love zh. And i realise almost every post has zh zh zh ever since we got together. Tsk. Haha. Went to jurong point with zh after interview at night. :-) Bought new nail polish(s)! Love the colours. Im a spendthrift.

Sigh. Life can be so good at times, but can just change within seconds. Anything and everything can happen, but then again, there's a reason behind everything, right? Right.

Are you a big fish in a little pond, or are you a little fish in a big pond?

Life is a joke if you think it is. Life is unbeautiful if you think it is. But why not try thinking it the positive way? Afterall you have only 1 life, so why not make the best out of it? Turn the sad things the other way round. Whats the opposite of sad? Happy. Forget the unhappy ones. No one wants to take a photograph of things they dont want to remember.

Humans are always so fragile and bound to be broken.
Humans are always so fragile and never unspoken.
Be tough.