Hiatus.

HIATUS

23 Oct - 14 Nov.

yes i know im a loser failure whatever, so just shut the fuck up if you wanna worsen my day. Meanwhile, I guess i have to work hard for the last opportunity. I cant afford to waste one more year doing pig's shit. And making new friends. No.

Its an everyday-study schedule from tomor onwards, hopefully i can study hard like x100000 harder than hard and shed tears of joy after 13/14 nov. Yes.

Closer to God i must.

God make miracles.

Study Bible Family Friends Study Bible Family Friends and tomor will be officially one month to my bday:)

Oh and, i really dont like you beeeach, i dont know why.

kthkzxbai.

ps: YES LEAVE A TAG OKAYYYY i'll try my best to reply :)

I WILL MISS CLASS 2H LIKE MAD. I PROMISE. because our class's the best because there are good and bad memories because there's funny languages created by awesome us because we influence people to use our words because the teachers used our class's words too because they're so cool because there's stuffs like "like a dung" and "airtalk" because we've joel li mark lee toh siew lan ribbeck miss yeow because they love us and we love them too because we are extremely naughty yet lovable cause we are naughty because we chase teachers out of the class often because we drive tham nuts and pisses them off because we make them laugh too because we're racist because we help one another somehow because we have public cannings because we made the principle pay us a visit because we are the coolest because we are the best and because we rock.

hopefully i'll be able to join you all next year i (L) you guys like crazy. Really):

oh and thks lesean, for today. You've been a great friend.

oh btw, less than half the class went to school today. Hmm..peace? Or boring.

I HATE LUKE NG YANG ZHI.
but valerie has a soft heart, always. sometimes it isnt good.

stupid cousin. $!&$$#%@!?! im mean i know but i really hate you.

hard porcelain.

how i let you go, and why i let you go, is a different thing.

School was boring, and tomor's doomsday.
dont think bout it dont think bout it dont think bout it dont think bout it dont think bout it dont think bout it STILL think bout it):
Ikea with brenda nat and eme, i love the ice-cream there though it makes me sick.
Cab home and slept till six six six :)

Reason why i blog now is cause im afraid i cant use the comp later. Due to. DONT THINK BOUT IT (still think about it)
): this is bad.

And hopefully desmond(mr.ng the great math tcher) could get me a job at his friend's like admin so i can just sit in an aircon room typing nonsense. But im quite fine with long john. I guess.

Annabel annabel where are you?

Just when i've got nothing to talk about..

Bridget says:Van
Bridget sends: SEND FILE (peekture)
vanz says: why leh?
vanz says: HAHAHAHAHA
vanz says: OMG I LOVE YOU
Bridget says: ahahah ok
vanz says: you make for me one ar hahahaha
Bridget says: yah
vanz says: (L) you man.
Bridget says: :D

this : is what she sent. And this, i know, is what people wants to see of me.

Its this touching to know that your friends love you. And i love my friends like how they love me too:)

i (L) zenn.nat.katy perry.you.

Meatballs.

meatballs.

Town with nat and cally. It's so coool to go out with 2 happy fellas. It makes my day happy tooo!And nat got me an adopted handphone strap called meatballs, since buttons's gone now...I wish buttons is quite alright with some dumb owner. hehehehehe. BUTTONSSSSSS i'll miss you like forever!~ And right now meatballs is mine:D

Fat Joe Meatballs Catty adopted friends forever:)))))

OH OH OH AND I'VE GOT A JOB AT LONG JOHN SILVERS. oh gawd its at far east pls help me to not quit before i get my pay. I must hang on no matter how tough it isssssss.
Next monday onwards!:) (cashier muahahahaha no kitchen wheee)

Frolicks with eme monroe tomorr<3

Have you ever been so lost, known the way and still so lost?

I (L) katy perry, zenn and
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my bestfrienddddddd, NATTTT(L)

Oh and quoted from her blog :

FIFTY-FIVE DAYS 55 days to MY BDAYYYYY:D

5 MONTHS 5! to 1 year of friendship anniversary:D

i cant wait.

heheheheh:D

shouldnt really go.

whoever shawn you are, i cant remember who you are, and just realised that you're regconised as the wrong shawn. so its not the shawn that i know, which is also equivalent to I DONT KNOW YOU. im sorry, you dont have to tag anymore:) oh and, dont have to pretend you are zhi hong or whatever. I really dont entertain this kinda thing. Put it in a bad way : I dont entertain such lamers.

p/s tell me your full name, perhaps i can remember who you are that way.

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I stayed at home today, i didnt step out of the house! Which is..a good thing cause that doesnt require any money, but also a bad thing cause [fill in the blanks,zhi hong]. (he says its a bad thing)

Oh and i guess its really a bad idea to watch exorcist cause i had nightmares and couldnt sleep till 4. It really sucks to be hiding under a blanket feeling hot and stuffy and uneasy to breathe.

School tomor and i am so not in the mood for it. I dread getting up early in the morning, and facing the teachers people blahblah anything thats in school. I really hate it. HOLIDAYS pls come now. NOW. NOOOOOOWWWWWWW. i dont care if i'll die cause of the boredom you cause me but just come now. ):

THIS : is what im feeling now.

hahahahaha this feels like shit but. anyway yeah to you.

okay im sorry if you felt that im neglecting you like you're there for me most of the time and yet i treat you like shit um and dont even bother replying you in a nice way i know. okay so this suck i suck uh huh but what can i say? sorry's the only thing i can say and it feels like you're not accepting my apology, you just keep saying no and sound like as if i dont understand what you're talking about. yeah i really dont understand because i guess i had quite a bad day and you're kinda making it worse. but. i really dont know what else. im just sorry.

I FEEL LIKE SHIT.

V.

This old man here, loves me, ALOT. Yes he says "take a look at my idol." :)

Today was Chinatown with Nat, which is, my bestfriend. :D
Then dinner and shopping with mum and aunty bailyn!

Im really tired. And im really scared of the show exorcist. I wished i never watch.

" I dont entertain eediots. "

Gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooodnight.

Hot and Cold.

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Crypticly

I should know
That you're no good for me
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Today i would like to thank several people who made my day.
-Zhi Hong/bridget/yuqi/cally/pris/nat/the percussion section<3
Thanks so much:)

And i've got nothing more to say.

22222222.

It's the 222th post of scribblytownnnnnn! :)))) I know its quite little compared to some people who could live with their blog for so longgggg, but im trying to love my blog as much as i love the bed donuts pillows chocoxzx and ice-cream! :D And im sticking to this blog for as long as i can, never hating it no matter whatzxzx! :D

Okay so whats the use of worrying over results when what's done is done? I should just relax alittle and breathe innnnn in in in till my lungs goes bomb. Okay no, or i would die a quite disgusting death. But whatever.

And i guess it wont do any harm to skip school tomorrow since im sick really sick now. Like really. But band's a must for tomor! Cause i have to pay 50% of the japan trip tomorrrr ): $$$$$$. hahahahahah cant wait manzxzx.

Was supposed to meet brid for lunch but guess what she passed out and i had lunch with brenda instead of the 3 of us. oh well brid if you see this, get well soon! :) And dont ever be late whenever we meet cause im so tired of waiting. :@

Okay i must not worry and be happy so everyone be happy yops!

oh and thanks cellgroup members for caring so muccccchhhh for me esp shannon jiayi corr junyi lalalalalala :D THANKSSSS.

p/s Zhi Hong : hello you hahahahah always start with hello you but oh well, do work with a smile:) ALWAYS.

Fell and bruised.

I fell today. And bruised myself. My pathetic life, who will care?

So i totally had no mood to blog. But still. ):
And no mood totally no mood not in the mood NOOOO NO NO NO mood to sell any rainbow loafers shoes or whatever shit it is, seriously. Like so what if there's money. All i need is, Peace. No worries. Ice-cream. And its not like im so money-face argh. I hate it when life's like that. Its like those "i-give-you-the-vintage-dress-you-long-wanted-if-you-could-smile-for-me-but-sadly-you-cant-haha-too-bad" kind of thing. Really indescribable zxzbxbnxbzcvnc arggggghhhhh. ))))):

van : Life sucks, hate life.
eme : But this is life, and life's like that.

Went to Eme's house today, and realised she really understand me, how i feel etc. Its really great to have her around. :) Oh and she showed me a book.

" And God Cried, too." - a children's book.

Then it was time for me to go home, and cuz there's an overhead bridge im suppose to cross over to get to my bus-stop, i crossed over. Thats when i fell while walking down the stairs. ): its like a dung. Low-life kinda thing. @$%#$@$#&!$@$@#! luckily not many people was there or my face would be as red as cherry tomato.

My leg hurts nowwwww, really really really angry. ):{

Read some pages of the book "And God Cried, too" on the way home. Is God trying to tell me something? Putting me into a test to see if i love him for who he is and not love him for what he gave? Argh i really dont know man.

While others went home happy, mine's a sad one. But i really tried my best. Really.

I dont know what else to do.

EDIT//.
I AM SO TIRED OF LIFEEEEEE. i could just kill myself manzxzxz. f.

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HELLO I'VE GOT NO TIME TO GO INTO DETAILS JUST THAT IM OPENING A BLOGSHOP SOOOOOON(REALLY SOON) AND DO SUPPORT ME OKAYOKAYOKAY!

AND I HAD MUCH FUN WITH YUN YESTERDAY:D

MORE TOMORROW I PROMISE IM REALLY BUSY WITH THOSE STUPID ORDERING STUFFFFFSSSSSS): HAIZ THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO WASTE TIME ON THESE JUST BECOZ YOU NEED MONEY.

TA.

PS: ZHIHONG CAN YOU SHOW YOURSELF ONLINE I REALLY CANT TALK TO YOU THIS WAY! REALLLLLLY.

MONSTER.

His little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.

Monster, How should I feel?
Creatures lie here.
Looking through the window
That night he caged her
Bruised and broke her
He struggled closer
Then he stole her
Violet wrists and then her ankles
Silent Pain
Then he slowly saw their nightmares were his dreams.

Monster, How should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
I will
Hear their voices
I'm a glass child
I am Hannah's regrets.

Monster, How should I feel?
Turn the sheets down
Murder ears with pillow lace
There's bath tubs
Full of glow flies
Bathe in kerosene
Their words tattoed in his veins.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG MY HEART IS FAILING ME.
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dead.

why,why such negative thoughts? Cause. there aint any positive thinking anymore.

What is wrong? I want to know. Cause i...wait a minute.


L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
do not look for love in the world, God can provide what you need, be it love or concern, God can fill it. and He can fill the vaccuum in your heart, that's all i felt God speaking to me to you. ask God for love if you are lack of it, ask God for happiness if you are sad. God will not forsake you, forever wont. for He is great and our Saviour.

L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
if need help, can call me, will try my best to help .

L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
take care and slp early.

vanz : says:
Why suddenly say that?

L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
was just loooking at your blog, and felt God telling me that to tell you.

vanz : says:
):

L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
no need to be sad.

L.Junyi™ - So near, yet so far... improving ! says:
forever you have God as your solid rock of faith, He will not move no matter what and His healing hands can comfort you.

I understand now. Thanks Lord.

I went to church late again. I know, dont have to tell me.
I know i teared too, for no particular reason. And its good to know that people's still showing love and concern. Thanks cg!

Other than that, nothing's great bout after exams. So maybe looking forward to after exams arent so great anymore. I totally dont know what to do, and i havent gotten any storybooks yet.
Life totally suck.

Why am i saying this i should be happyzxzx 8) wheeeeeeeeee hahahahahahaha. -.-

ARGH. save me anyone?
I need some love. Im so love-deprived. My heart sinks low.

Fwiday+fweeedom.

Today is FWIDAY and today FWEEEDOM is finally here.

So the clique headed down to town for a movie. We chose "The House Bunny" and its all bout bimbos. Simply awesommmmeeeezxz what can i say?

I wanna live in a playboy mansion too! Teeheeheee.

Afterthat was dinner with bel :)

Sweeeeet!

Im so tired after a stressful week. But. Its Over.

AND RIGHT NOW I WANNA READ READ READ NOVELSSSSSSSSS BOOKS STORIESSSS.

i too, wanna colour my hair. Get a new pair of heels/flats, Get afew tubs of ice-cream, Get a pullover, Get something that satisfy ME.

Sleep, is all i need now. My eyes are half-closed. Ta-ta!

Lord save me. Bring me back to you. Bring me closer to you. Let me love you.

Blankets.

Firstly, the show "I survived a Japanese Gameshow" rockssszxzx, channel 5. Its a damn funny nice eggciting onezxz. And. It makes my papa laugh so loudly, i got a shock twice. So cool right.

Math Paper 2 was easier than paper 1, and i do hope i'll passss. (oh my dad just said kanina. I heard it heard it HEARD it. because of the show) Science was okay, some of the answers were just crap, some were sensible enough to gain me some marks. Im NOT gonna think about it anymore. Or i wont rest in peace. And lao niang here cant take itttttt. Luckily ONE ONE ONE ONE more day to :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:Dzxzx.

Bel bel bel bel i love bel :O (L) ANNABELLLLL!

tomorrrrrrowwww is GO CRAZEEXZXZ DAY.
Right after exams. The 6 preeettyyy girls are going out. OUT.
oh man cant wait.
:D:D:D:D::D:DDDDDD

But still, really stresssss REALLY.

Tell you guys something.
My wake-up-at-4am-to-study attempt FAILED.
My mum woke me up at 4, 4.30, 5, and still, i went back to sleep. Instead of studying.
So I felt bad, and got everything ready to study in the school bus.
Less than 10 mins, i'm sleeping like i've never had a good sleep before. (Quite true though.)
IS A TOTAL FAILURE okay.

But suddenly i've got jing sheng to do my papers. HAHAHA, izzit cause of the sleep? :@

); Sigh. Troubles kept in my lonesome heart. SIGHHHHHHHHHH sigh sigh sigh money money fly away $$$$$$$$$$$ sigh sigh if i keep on sighing more money fly away $$$ Sigh.

I am Vanessa. And sometimes i dont know whats going on in my own life.

Last thing, I DESPERATELY NEED TO GET JACKET/ICECREAM/CLOTHES/SHOES/BOOKS/SHOPPING SPREEEEEEEEE.

unconditionally.

One Two Three Four
Tell me that you love me more
Sleepless, long nights
That was what my youth was for.

Tom the Great, told me to call him Tom the Great.
Well he isnt that great, but quite great.

Maths made me lose most of my confidence today.
Why? I tried to love you maths, you aint giving me the chance to love you.

Baked cake with eme today, super madness.
Our cake broke into 4 by itself, it've got magic. See, its so cooool.(L)
Then we dropped frosting onto our broken chocolate cake. Quite tasty, i must say:)
Eme made me a new xanga, why not go take a look? Its my xanga, and it wont do you any harm.
www.xanga.com/number6thlove GO GO GO:D
Then we made the " banana couple " our hot topic. Its like a.... banana.
I dont know, but we sure did laugh like mad.

Home for less than an hour before going to macs to meet tom the great-.- to studyyyy.
Thanks Tom.
Oh btw, where's jerry?

Friday outing is a cant wait.

XOXOXOXOXOXOOOOOOOXXXXXXXX, van.

I put my heart on my sleeve and told myself to STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. Cause all i ever need is a break. Now, later, always. A break. helpppppp me. My life, tired.

untouched.

I. STARE. AT. YOU. YOU. YOU. YOUUUUUUUU.

CHINESE.IS.A.FAILURE.
Dont say im thinking negatively because even if i thought on the positive side it still comes out as FAIL. Everything that consists of the word CHINESE equals to fail. Because i bloody hell cant read a single word on that damn paper, freezing in that freaking cold hall. I CANT THINK. Perhaps the comprehension part might earn me some marks but MCQ is, dead. In fact, everything other than comprehension is !%&$@#!&. And i know most of the answers of the comprehension thing is crap. Total crap. Out of da point. Alien words. I dont know, i simply dont know what im writing. Im a chinese and I dont know chinese. Good one.

English is fantasticoeasypixielalapoloveheartlovekiss english.
Hopefully when i say this, my marks dont turn out to disappoint me.
I (L) you english, better love me back.

Maths paper 1 tomorrow, Grace taught me alot.
What can i say?
All the best.

Dinner at Farmart(L)

three 3 three 3 three 3 three more days to :
1) ice-cream everyday
2) pigging everyday
3) novels everyday
4) out-of-the-house everyday
5) Choyaaaaaa.
6) Breeeezerrrr.
7) more and more and more i cant think.
8) lets just say we end at eight today, i prefer eight to seven.

I know. Dates. HAHAHAHAA. i like dates. Date me.

Clarke Quay

I love the underpass of Clarke Quay, it seems like an never-ending tunnel.

Exams exams..2 days of exams have passed, and just another 3 more days to freedom. Where's God? Im finding him, im putting him in my heart. But i cant seem to find him, not so easily now.

Didnt meet bel today, cant meet bel tomorrow, so wednesday with bel:) Lunch at holland with richy then long bus ride home. I just love bus rides. Really long ones. Its the only time when i could go through and listen carefully to the words of the songs in my ipod, the only time when i could think about life. LIKE LONG BUS RIDES ARE SO COOOL WAY SO COOOOOL.

Oh and i got my sim card alreadyyyyy, not activated yet though): I NEED A PHONE i hate samsung i hate samsung hate hate hate. I want ice-cream ice-cream and more ice-cream.

Why do i find the words on blogger so big?

Exhausted but i realise studying is not bad. You just have to make friends with the subjects and take studying as a fun thing to do. What the hell am i crapping?

I HATE LIFE YET LOVE LIFE SO MUCH TO HATE IT. I just hate life more than loving it. I cant love life cause life isnt that great to make me love it. Not for now.

And everyone is an eeeediot for today. Bye eediots.

Bestfriend.

My bestfriend is sixteen and my bestfriend is homeschooling. My bestfriend likes taking photographs and my bestfriend is my personal photographer. My bestfriend meets me and brings me to places that have good food everyday. My bestfriend knows where to get wasabi-lime icecream and know places to camwhore best. My bestfriend has a friend called tuck and he's our maria. He's our best maria so far so we're not and never thinking of changing to any maria/fatimah/alibaba. Our maria knows how to edit photos and he's like a pro. maria and bestfriend studies at Eggstory, An animation art school(?) :) I love my bestfriend cause she loves me. Thanks bestfriend, Love you bel.

So.
I lost my phone and money on thursday. Blame it on my carelessness, but blame the rest on some bitch's dishonesty.

Met Bel on thursday friday and today:)

I MISS PLANKTON ALOT. PLANK IF YOU SEE THIS MSN ME/OFFLINE MSG.

okay byeeeeee.
p/s NATTTTTT love you tons still(L)

:) camera madnessssss.

I LOVE ANNABELLLL MY PHOTO BUDDY AKA PERSONAL PHOTOGRAPHER.

i tell you she rock, and here's our plan :

Right after i step out of the examination hall on 9th oct, im gonna ring her straight and shout " IM DONE WITH EXAMS" and then right afterthat we'll go out and go camera crazy shopping anything! :)

I love annabel and thks camera crew + alicia and jereen!
LOVE YOU MODELS. (L)