Mr.Magorium's wonder emporium.

I skipped school.
Watched Mr.Magorium's wonder emporium.
Love it.
On the net the whole day, talking to him online as well.
That's about it.
I'm tired.
-
Date me out, make my mum jealous.

I'll be missing you be it day or night.

Have a happy night everyone.

I wanna get lost in his emporium.

honeylemonade,

And you make my heart beat, for its only you that i need.

Today, i became a galang guni man.(Woman,actually.)
Today, i went around the blocks in mei ling street to collect old stuffs and newspapers.
Today, oh today, i saw a naked man.
:/
Today school was usual and i hate DnT because my DIY car looks horrible.
Ikmail(whatever it is,) helped me though, thank you teacher.
Then after school we had service learning.
Helped lion befrienders again, (:
But we had to collect newspapers again, tiring, yet fun.
Same old group, <3
We were happily yet lazily going around the neighbourhood collecting newspapers, when i walked passed a house with the doors wide open.
I wanted to ask if there's any newspapers, but changed my mind after seeing something that is so,so wrong.
It was an old man naked on his chair, eating.
What a happydisgusting thing.
I laughed my heart out, same as my teammates.
It was funny and i swear never to look again when we were to walk pass that damn house to get to the lift.
Okay, i dont swear but nevermind, i didnt look afterthat. (:
He was seriously naked, not even wearing his undergarment/ as what luke had said, G-string.
Oh gross.
End of service learning, keng sent me home(:
Hahaha, sweet. <3

Done.
Maths test tomorrow, kill me. :/

I thought love was just a mirage of the mind,
it's an illusion, it's fake, impossible to find.
But the day I met you, I began to see,
that love is real, and exists in me.

Have a happy night. (:

burn me.

burn me, knock me down.

Oh man, i almost got killed just outside school this evening.
And hell no, im not lyingggg.
:/
stupid stupid stupid car, why didnt you knock me down.
Stop that honking cause your car sounded terrible.
Just knock me down.

Anyway, school was bad.
Sick.
Signing out became unglam to me, thus i just rest on the desk.
Regiyampaste helped me alot. (:
After school, ivan became my teacher.
I couldnt get anything into my head, thus i did english.
Mano's work again, what's different?
Then followed ivan to have his lunch, and walk back to school alone.
Damn it, the car didnt knock me down, all it did was honked at me.
Dont honk, knock me down instead, i'll be greatful to you. :/
Okay crap.
So went to find regi and accompanied each other till daddy arrived.
There was a big jam, the word "fuck" came out of daddy's mouth many times.
Unglam.

Thats all. :/
what a day.

I can give you time, can you give me trust?

when today is gone.

Science test tomorrow = die.

I know you're trying your best, risking everything.
Yeah, hero uh.
Thanks alot, sorry i wasnt even giving a damn.
I know im wrong, im always wrong.
Screwed up piece of shit.

-
van is stupid and retarded, she screws up every damn thing.

im out making trouble, i rather be dead.

fuck mum.

fuck mum and fuck mum and fuck mum and fuck mum.
bloody hell tooooot.

BESTFRIENDS

west coast & bestfriends.

A day out to west coast park is love.
Woke up super late in the afternoon and chiong to jurong east (thanks pops).
Daddy fetched me and car to west coast macs first.
And then nat and regi came.
Joel was last, he said the bus didnt stop and he had to take the bus back again. HAHA:P
Haha, regi's laptop is the biggesttttt, hehe.
Did literature project on the laptops, THANKKKS NAT and jo and car.
I didnt really help T___T
Okay whatever (:
And so we stayed from noon till night.
Car went home at about evening and so we're left with regi,me,nat and jo (:
Ivan came with his sweet sweet little sister (:
They went home soon after and me,regi,nat,jo ton there.
Played flying fox till crazy @___@
scream like mad, my throat's real sore nowwww.
thanks to nat,regi and jo -.- They think imma volleyball and keeps swinging me around.
Nat is the one who keeps saying "pass pass! pass to me!".
Hahaha, she really thinks imma ball manzz.
(: quite fun though. (and i screamed like monkey-.- scream like i'll be dead in a few seconds.)
Regi went home at around 9+ ): sadly.
So me,nat and jo so called "ton" there, fake one. haaha.
We did go back in the end.
We chatted and chatted, thinking if we should meet up every weekend. (:
Then daddy fetch nat and joel home (:
Reached home at 12am.

BestfriendsLove.
and oh i miss you so much, thanks for worrying about me and giving me a call t make sure im okay. (: you're the best, still.

I wish everyday is today.

goodbyeee, dead tired. (:

onetwothreefourfivesixseveneightnineten,iloveyouloveyouloveyou.

you're the best of best.

Thanks for being there for me,
Always trying to be online so you could spend time with me.
Thanks for enduring my craps and nonsense,
My attitudes and moodswings.
I know you're trying your very best,
to cheer me up whenever you can.
You're everything i wish you to be,
though you're so far from me.
So far yet so near,
i'll still love you as always,
because my heart remains.

I've been way too selfish,
never spending time reflecting on what i've done.
I know i make you worry,
and im really very sorry.
I promise to change,
and i know soon i'll be changed.

Im so sad yet so happy now. ):




this is getting crazier and crazier every minute.

missing you on dead leaves.

Am a corspe lying on dead leaves.

Headed to town with bridget and yuqi.
Had fried carrot cake and ice-cream, yum yum(:
Then head back to school and got a nagging from Lim, lol! :D
Studied alittle, what the.
Im supposed to study the whole day, besides, there's no him today.
Crap.

Apology letter from lim (ugly handwriting, ahaha) :

Dearest vanessa,
I am so sorry for "nagging" at you. Please do not be angry. We love you. ( we refers to percussion.)
Love,
Lim.
ps : do not quit band.

LOLLL:D love lim.
here's another one :
(ugly handwriting too.)

Dearest vanessa,
HI! lame. Ok, please do not take offence because i said you're a noob. [no offence]
ok, hope you dont MISS or PON band anymore. The percussion section doesnt miss you. All the best! Please dont SKIP band again. Sorry got hand spanesism.
Love, Lim (yeah right.)

okay means lim doesnt love me ):
but i know she does in her heart.

(:
goodbye.

Im sick and tired,
of everything that is going on between us.
Everything just seem so wrong even if it's right.
And i dont know why and what and how.
Its just isnt right.
Plus, we're drifting apart, somehow.
im missing you.
I dont want to.

So hard to understand you and me.

have a happy night everyone(:

ps: west coast with the literature peeps? oh man.

crap.

CRAP, i still cant get in to lead.
how cool is that. zzzz.

woz henz shenz qiz.
D:<
walaoooo, crap lahhhh.

and there's this scan-the-comp thingy, and so i clicked on the remind me half an hour later thang.
but just 10 mins later, it pop out again!
Freak, more crap.

it's mutha-effing 8 + now, and im already so effing bored that i had to post again.
so many effings, whoops.
:/
cant help it, so pissed!






must mug.

throw confetti on the dumb.

Why in the world can i NOT log in to lead.
And why in the world does it have to be due by midnight, today.
This is pissing me off.
And i just remembered we had the last session of sex talk today, which for the last 5 mins i need to pee real badly.
Plus, peeeepo says that sex talks make guys dick stand. TSK.
Horny eh.

And today there's no mano class, hip hip hooray(:
PULLOVERRR, effing big but what to do ):
quite okay lah, love class pullover <3
Rama had been quite pissed off recently, sun lao shi too.
I think im gonna fail badly for my chinese test cause i needed to pee real badly(again,zz-.-), and in order to go to the washroom, i have to finish the test.
So basically concentrate on the comprehension part then tikum the MCQs. :/
sheesh.

MAJOR SCIENCE TEST ON MONDAY- SCREAMMMM.
i have to study for this, by hook or by crook.
AND MATHS TEST ON WEDNESDAY - scream again.
sucks man, whats up with the tests. ):<

Now let's move on to happier things.
So regiyampaste and nat and me had bubble tea and candies after school, followed by nat going to media and me going for tuition, regi heading home.
effing tuition is effing boring, seriously.
And it makes me go home alone, EVEN boring.
+ i tell myself that i have to mug on those heavy stupid books i've wasted my energy bringing it home.
Its a must, or i'll just slap myself to wake up.

Oh well.
School's just boring. Attend classes, home.
Not to forget the scoldings from teachers and homework too.
It just simply suck, alot.
its the daily lifestyle of mine(maybe us), its just the same thing over and over again. ):

And i hate band, for the time being.
sometimes mrs chua dont even know if i exist anot.
fuck.

Okay, im done.
sheesh.
throw some fairy/unicorn/pixies dust on me.
make me wake up.

here's a nice poem written by p :
being with u is like a dream come true
leaving u is like a nightmare that should never happen
loving u is everyone's wish
hating u is never an option
thinking of u is a past time
u will never leave my mind as i'm addicted to u
i seriously dunno how to express my feeling for u
it's like beyond words
my love for u is higher than any mountains
ever flowing like the river
as vast as the seas

loveeeeee.
goodbye, happy a happy night.

i yearn for you, my love.

and god knows everything.

Was kinda sad today ):
Mainly because i didnt really stayed for remedial, and who knows what mdm toh will do to me.
And the worst part is, i couldnt make it to the national band competition.
oh freak.
all those practices and NOT ponning band is all useless cause in the end i wasnt able to join the competition.
Freak.
Plus, i have to help the sec ones. Not that i dont want to help, but it's not what i wanted.
Sometimes people just dont get what i mean.
In any point, not being able to be part of the national band competition is a great disappointment to me. :/

But thanks to my momma and popeh, they cheered me up alot. (:
Popeh and momma fetched me home, and saw my moody grumpy face.
Told them everything of course, and they brought me to a place where they had the best steak ever.
It's expensive, but i really love it to the core.
I know my momma and popeh will always be there for me (:
And erhem. :D

Also, i did a few simultaneous equations to help me get familiar with the methods, so as not to forget the steps of solving the equations.
I did it, feeling very happy that i've gotten the answers correctly.

God helps me in everything, including knowing you.

So thats really all about today, mano treat me real nice today(: hahaha.
Lunch with car, nat and reg. (:

Done.
Have a happy night.

Be everything you wish to be, be what's best for me.

i go down down down.

I am your sad story.

hello there.
(:
Oh no, i have to redo mano's work again ):
and today is Earth Day. Save the earth.
Hehe.
School was okay today. Everything went fine.
Headed to harbourfront to have lunch with regiyampaste. (:
Then saw him in the train, afterthat everything started to went wrong just because i didnt open my mouth to speak.
))):
im sorry.
I wish i could turn back the clock, i'll make sure i didnt make the wrong decision.
Oh well.

Thats all.
Mano gives many many homework.
And tomorrow there's band.
:/
It's gonna be a tiring day.

Im trying my best to be me, Im trying my best to show you what i can be, Im trying my best to give you my very best me.

and sorry for my doings.

And you taught me how to save a life.

And you taught me how to save a life.

firstly, i wanna thank a super nice guy for writing a poem a day for vannnz yo.
(: it really was great, (better not praise him too much though, HAHAH.) he could be a poet.
but i doubt he wants to.
anyway, thanks ivannnnn:D
many things in common, including having a "van" in our names :D
heheh, thanks for your poems. + yr chats.

secondly, i wanna thank plankton for the letters, woohooo:D
hahahah, i feel happy reading it. :D

Also, i was quite happy that mano didnt book me in any cmf file or whateverzxzx (:
I thought she'll be like booking me lahzxzx.
but who knows what she'll do tmr.
Hmm, something happened to our classmate too.
):
Dont wanna talk about it.

School was okay, except english. D:<
sometimes mano really make me hate english so so much!
LOL, and the body talk by Dove was quite funny and interesting.
Then after school, slacked with regiyampaste aka dinosaurrrr :D
went home (: with plankton the good twin of plankton. HAHA.

JIAYOUUU AHPEK and i'll go home with you too (:

thanks regiyampaste for today. (:
although you have been abit crazy today but i still love you.
(:

thats all for today. my life's full of smiles today.
a day with smiles, another day with frowns. Oh man.
:D
alright, have a happy night everyone!(:
-vannnnz.

Where did I go wrong,I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life.

what kind of shit is this.

I FREAK HELL CANT FIND ANY MANO HOMEWORK IN LEAD.
in fact, i cant even log in to lead which is like !$#%@&?!
im getting freaking hell fustrated minute by minute.
this seriously sucks.
hate school, it's jail.

wait.

OH EFFFF.
now i can log in to lead, but whenever i tried clicking on the subject, the whole window goes hang.
fuck.
im trying very hard not to be vulgar, I JUST CANT.
this is killing me.
what kind of homework makes your comp lag like effing tooot.
):<

and my world goes upside down.

stop playing heartbreak kid.

Note : Dont expect me to say i miss you in return. Because all you wanna hear is i miss you - fact that, i dont even miss you. So stop being a bastard, get a life.

im tired and hungry.
so im going to eat.
plus, tuition is boring.
violin tmr - NO yay.

you're my everything and my everything is you.

and your love is worth a zillion words.

this is hell.

And school was hell.
thanks to whoever it is that made a racist remark and get us all into trouble.
hell embarrassing, you know, today's like one of those vanz's WTEFFFF days.
:/
freak hell.
but we skipped chinese lesson today!
good and bad, cause we're in the foyer being watched by deadly teachers and vp.
crap.
school's jail.

AND AND AND, THE WORST THING ISSSSS,
VANNNZ'S MP3 GOT CONFISCATED. - !#$%@&!?
how crappy is that?!
thank to stupid bag check lahzxzx, FREAK FREAK FREAK.
luckily its not my ipod that's being confiscated or i'll cryyyyy.

okay, let's talk bout something else or i'll get pissed off. LOLLL.

so stayed back for band, :DDD
i managed to go.
and then, meet nat after band to support the drama peopleee yozxzx.
the performance was quite okay lahhh, hahaha:D
jiayou english dramaaaaaa peeppps! :D
it ended quite late, and i've forgotten to bring my ezlink card, thus begging my aunt to use papa's car to fetch me home.
val followed her, expected. -.-
luckily, aunt's boyfriend wasnt at home. (: or he'll be following too which is abit zzzzz.
(huggings&kissings - who knows maybe aunt wont drive properly?)

and then im home.
my mum's nagging and screaming and shouting for me to stop using the comp so goodbye.
have a happy day.
anti-maple association. - wanna join?
i hate maple, it makes moms addicted to it.

i miss you like how i always do.

tear down that hurricane.

If i could just end my life with a fullstop.

oh man, i didnt know that running 2.4km would make your body ache like !#%&@!
and yesterday P.E was like shit.
ran like i've never ran before.
fortunately, i managed to pass :D -or i'll just kill myself.
the after effect was seriously torturing.
i slept on my sofa not long after i reached home. - as in, today.
:/

i've finally understood how to solve simultaneous equations(:
you know after you found out how to solve equations and problems, you'll feel very satisfied and happy.
im feeling quite happy that i've finally got the maths sums right (:

tomorrow, there's band.
worst, there's mano class.
i almost had my first CMF booking for this year (in fact last year dont have at all :DD) , thanks to mano.
she LOST my book and then told me she dont have.
i swear i've handed in okay!
i know i did!
IF i get my cmf booking cause of this, she's gonna be a bombarded !$%#@! for the rest of her life.
okay, maybe not for the rest of her life but for this entire year. (im not that bad, erhem.)

i hope you know what you'll doing -

tomorrow'll be a better dayyyy :D

On days like this, I love you more
Than words could ever say
I want to show the whole wide world
My love for you today
I'd give up everything I own
For a fleeting glance or kiss
My heart, it sings the sweetest song of love
On days like this.

disappointed and neglected. f.u.c.k -

disintegrated-

and school was okayyyy:D
as usual, morning meet ups with bestie.
followed by meetups with dinosaur at the parade squareee :D
hahaha, dinosaur had a new bag and she's trying very hard to NOT showoff.
lol.

and then had chocolates for lunch. ):
was freaking hell starving lah, but couldnt make it to eat cause of the stupid maths remedial yozxzxz.
D:{
and then kinda slack with mel during remedial :B
HAHAH, sean wu doesnt know how to on a calculatorrrrr :D
:PPP

decided to be good and not to pon band, thus going for band.
pass the audition that mrs chua gave :D
hahaha, i finally played the bass drum PROPERLY, without zara's helpppp:D
then head home with bridget and yuqi. (:

- end of my pathetic life story.

A leaf once green, a vibrant green
Laced with a silken gown
Now hangs it's head, a weary head
The leaf has turned to brown

A rushing wind, a bracing wind
That blows incessantly
The leaf is weak, so very weak
As it falls down from the tree

A spiral path, a weary path
Is woven without a sound
The sun it sleeps, a deepening sleep
As the leaf falls to the ground

A thought of life, a fragile life
Now hanging by a thread
A thought of death, a seasonal death
As the leaf will soon be dead

A bed of leaves, a grave of leaves
Lie motionless today
The summertime, has had it's time
Now Autumn is on it's way

and i bid goodbye. (:

poet wannabe.

I, want to be a poet.

Mother Nature woke one day
Feeling ill and rather off
Her nose was running endlessly
And she had a nasty cough
The Doctor came and took her pulse
Then slowly shook his head
He told her that she'd caught the flu
And sent her straight to bed
She pleaded with the Doctor
To dispense a special pill
She told him if she could not work
The world would soon stand still
But the Doctor could not understand
What Mother Nature meant
So she gave him some examples
As her worries she did vent
She said confusion would prevail
With no morning noon or night
The sun would cry itself to sleep
And no stars would twinkle bright
No rainbows or a crescent moon
Or a silken clear blue sky
With no whispers on the blowing breeze
To fade away and die
No more would clouds unite themselves
And bless us with their rain
The animals would roam no more
In the woods or on the plain
No eagles flying on the wing
Or the buzzing of a bee
With a tide that never ebbs or flows
And no fish deep in the sea
The seasons they would cease to be
Wth no snow or April showers
No leaves would fall in autumn
And there would be no summer flowers
Our world would be a sadder place
If these wonders could not be
The Doctor had no option
But to smile and then agree
He reached out for his bag
That rested on the window sill
Delving deep, his hand fell on
A very special pill
Mother Nature took her dose
And soon she was okay
And the world was saved cause
Mother Nature's flu had gone away

-

Join me at the dead of night
At a place down by the sea
A place so grand, a wonderland
Of spellbound fantasy

You'll find that day becomes the night
And time is standing still
Where moonbeams glow, and shadows flow
Then settle on a hill

Firefly's will fill the air
And swing on every tree
They'll float they'll fly, and light the sky
So everyone can see

Some fairies will be dancing round
A ring of dasies new
With golden wings, and other things
Coloured shades of violet blue

If your lucky you will see
An elf or two at play
With impish grins, committing sins
That's their order of the day

You'll see an Irish leprechaun
Putting wishes in his shoe
Counts one two three, and who knows he
Will give them all to you

Gargoyles, goblins, witches too
With potions by the score
Some puppy's tails, and slimy snails
With a claw and apple core

A unicorn will grace the night
With majestic majesty
With rampant horn, beauty adorned
For everyone to see

Pixies singing dancing too
Will steal your heart away
With steps in time, and words that rhyme
They'll surely make your day

A dragon will keep you warm and snug
With flames a metre high
He'll huff and puff, do other stuff
But will not make you cry

A special guest may just appear
On a cloud from out the blue
He'll let you wish, his wand he'll swish
And make your dreams come true

So join me at the dead of night
At a place down by the sea
A place so grand, a wonderland
Of spellbound fantasy

-

A thought is all I have of you
Now my memories are gone
A thought of love once so divine
Forever to live on

A thought to keep me company
When loneliness appears
A thought of all our yesterdays
Of hurting pain and tears

A thought of total ecstasy
For the time we spent as one
A thought to fill my lonely nights
Whenever day is done

A thought of just what might have been
Had the circumstance been right
A thought that true love on its own
Couldn't cause us to unite

A thought of thanks to God on high
As I lay me down to rest
A thought that just by loving you
My life was truly blessed

AND VANZ PROCLAIM THAT SHE ADMIRES FRANK MAGUIRE ALOT. :D

ps: love you too much to be true.
(tsk, this is a very long post and it makes my blog ugly fuggly ): whatever lah. )

the scientist.

oh man, i love coldplay's songs alot.
especially the song called the scientist.
(:
im madly and deeply in love with it, i keep repeating it over and over again.
:O

i left house at 3.05 pm, to buy my lunch (:
while buying lunch, i saw the doctor who examined me this morning.
he waved to me, to my surprise.
i dont know why, and i dont know how, he changed the impression i had on doctors.
could it be, his smile?
or his wave?
now i think that doctors arent mean.
:/ shit thinking.
ps : ( no im not attracted to him, he's old anyway.)

seriously, i feel bad wasting a day home like this.
plus, i didnt even follow my grandparents to visit my greatgrandmother! ):
okay - whatever.

cheese biscuits and blueberry tea blends well.

i'll be a clay flower and you'll be a clay pot.

Oh nightingale, sweet nightingale
Come sing your song to me
Make this evening so divine
And fill my heart with glee
Share with me your song of love
As the crescent moon shines bright
And the stars, they twinkle endlessly
All through this lonely night

Oh nightingale, sweet nightingale
Help make my life complete
Teach my broken heart to sing
And skip with every beat
Show me how to love again
As the moon is shining high
Give me reason to believe
That love won't pass me by

Lastly, have a happy day.
get well soon plankton D:

scribbly town.

If this is getting on your nerves, its getting on my nerves too.

yeah, i know i've been changing blogs now and then, but this's just me.
i just cant stand my blog , it's really dead, and fuggly and it's just not nice.
anyway, welcome to my new blog everyone!
you are now in scribblytown.blogspot.com.

and so i thought, everything would be okay.
i'll be yours one day,
and we'll be mould like a clay.

i've spend the whole morning finding blogskins, playing the sims and lying on my bed doing nothing.
it's getting real bored, and im seriously starving.
date with me, anyone?
i didnt go to school, wasnt feeling very well.
and awesome shit, i've to go and see the doctor to get an mc.
holy moley.

i wanna go out. i wanna go out. i wanna go out. i wanna go out. i wanna go out. i wanna go out.
and maybe, i wont skip school anymore, staying at home is killing me.
i'll be posting later on, again. - to make the date right.

loveeeeez, vanz.