bored dung

I spent the whole day sleeping and sleeping and more sleeping except for 2 hours on maths tuition. Even when bargaining with mummy doesnt help, Grace still came over and i had to do like dont know how many maths questions.

Signing out(with a reason) helps cause i get to go home early. Dont ask why i get sick so often cause i dont know why but its not that bad. Or maybe it is. Anyhow.

I miss pep i dont know why but just miss herrrrrr pls pep pls faster come back from malaysia. Kampung life totally not for youuuuuu. NOT, really not for you.

Sigh sigh and more sighing guess what my angpow moneh flew to the bankkkk): Except for alittle allowance like hundred bucks really NOT FAIR.

Power rider helps keep tummy flat and in shape wanna try? I have and i think it feels more like up and down kiddy ride. $1 for 15 minutes. HAHA. No lah not so cheapskate can its freeee~~~ Girls should come come come. Guys can too if you think its not gay. Or homo. As long as you have nothing better to do. (just kidding bout the coming part but power rider is like a not bad)

My mum wants to change her maple hairstyle lol~

You can say im extremely bored to the max.


p/s I MISS YOU Z! :B

forsake.

I want to write stories.

My dream was horrifying.
Witches + rubberbands and satay sticks as arrows + im flying + running away from a strange mad woman + asking the king if he love me + he says he's my father o___O + he asked me to learn guitar from some random guy.

Sigh. Dreams are meant to be weird. I knew i had to wake up, but i couldnt wake up. Till it was enough to scare me out of my wits. Then i open my eyes. All it takes to break a dream is to open your eyes. Its still so clear in my mind. I really dont like it.

Anyhow.

Angbaos! HAHAHAHAHA $$$$$$$$$$$$$$ sadly my camera's still in coma so no pictures):
My relatives are kinda rich, bungalows and terrace houses. Proud and humble, pretty and ugly, generous and thrifty, oh welllllllllll. Still have money, who cares:P Kay kidding but yeah i wanna live in their huge homes. Or maybe not, im fine with mine.

K LUNCH byez.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR wheeeee~~

MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY MONEY!

kay yay visiting period shalala~~

so small

Dad's laptop has really small words.

I dont know why im being so random but im using his laptop for the second time and i feel like complaining bout it. The words are just small. Smaller than normal computer ones. I went to scribblytown afew mins before and the words on my posts are so tiny.
tiny! I wonder how this smallest font looks like in the laptop after i post it. You may not see the difference in your com, i didnt think the smallest font is that small in my comp. But in laptop? smaller than ant size. madnesssssss.

But its kinda kewl anyway.

Ta.

church.

What more can I say? Small group's getting dispersed sooon, and its a sad thing. I am not happy at all, but all good things will come to an end, as what junyi has said. Sigh. I'll miss weiliang and smallgroup, so much.

New year reso : Go to church.
I did, limping, but limping to church. Mass run killed me so badly yesterday. But its for God. (L)

Dinner with cell then poooooooolllllll oh man i dont know how to play pooool ): Tried playing guitar instead, dungness, it feels like fingers being ripped apart when pressing the strings. Gonna be dead skin around my little fingertips soon.(if i dont give up which i guess i wont, its dungness + madness but its ultra coolnesssss) Violin's almost same but not as bad aye. Guitar's just...madness. Speaking bout violin...sigh, guilty.

Went home with samuel tang and junyi and alden! Guess what man, sam and junyi's my bro nowwwwwwwww :D:D:D:D:D

s'ppose to meet z but guess not. Another day!

OKAYYYYYY im hitting the sack soooooon so, happy having reunion dinner tomor people! God blesssssss yeah holy holy.

On a lighter note, im quite sorry bout my f word post. Sigh. Sometimes you dont know what you're saying or doing when you're just so so so........pekchek.

edit!
hahahahhahaha i just remembered.

During english class, i got too bored so i wrote a note to marcus(sitting in front of me). Seriously, he's cute, huge and can cover me whole. Teacher cant even see if im smsing or not!

(on the piece of paper):
Van : Hi!:)
Marcus : ...
Van : Never answer me back):
Marcus : lol.
seconds later ..
Lovelle : Hi again!:)
Marcus : Zeshin has left the conversation.

HAHA, and he can do kungfu panda actions. Like eating the noodles or being punched by someone(justin). His eating actions can see the way he eat, chew, and SWALLOW. lol. funny like a mad. Justin is simply retarded. + moneyface. 2 weird people. I like marcus more though. He treated me to the bus fare. HAHA.

k random. seeyaw alllll.

Van loves you and i really do :)

I love the way you make me smile even when you didnt do anything, i love the way we both say the same things at the same time, the way we both smsed each other at the same time, the way you airsmile airtalk airlaugh, the way you crack lame jokes, and the way you held(still holding) me tight. Thanks for everything, z. Happy 2nd on 22nd jan 09 (L)

We don't need to go that far, let's hold on to where we are. If it's real we'll make it through, cause all I need is you.

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And all the f words in the previous post, seriously, im not sorry bout it. Oops.

My lowaverage life schedule(this week) :

1) Town with lovelle on monz.

2) Tests bombarded me.

3) Band ah band.

4) 2nd month(L)! Inkheart & pepperlunch with z. (town)

5) Town with dawnz.

6) Church? But im still here. Should i...?

7) I cannot predict the future.

8) Not that low life, not that high either. So neutral.

Sighhhhhhhh. Im so looking forward to dinner new clothes moneh$$$$$, are you?

Life have never been better, have never been so bad, have never been so neutral.

angel to you, devil to me.

F.

Oh fuck. Its past midnight and im still stuck here, in a stupid room, doing my friggin' history homework. Why is the friggin beaver giving us so much homework? Im tired to the bottom of my toes yet i cant sleep. What the fuck is this? Fucking fustrating. Fuck.

My parents' voices are adding to the fustration in me.

Fuck? Fuck.

(For once i really dont care bout being holy or no vulgarities or whatsoever, besides its like only twice i use the word fuck in 2009. I dont really fucking care bout not saying any fuck anymore cause im fucking pissed. I dont know why the fuck am i still here, blogging. Fuck me. Not.)

ARGH DAMN IT.

MWAHZZZZ.

I eat alot. I read alot. I smile alot. I cry alot. I laugh alot. I talk alot. I scream alot. I crap alot. You can ask my mum. Or my dad. Or anyone who knows me(well). Oh and, i "random" alot. Can see by reading this few sentences. This is me. You cant change me.

Town with mum today. We spend a bomb. Many bombs to be exact. $$$$$$ fly away.~~~
Guess what i spend on?

YES, THIS. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHH :DDDDDDDD omg can! I love love love luvluvluvluvvvvvvv it like madzzxz. It's in purple too, my goshdamn fav colour. Mum's the best, whenever she's not screaming or yelling. (and whenever she's spending $$$, on me!) So good to be the only child, call me a spoilt brat. I dont friggin care.

HAHA! corrinne's gonna kill me. She already asked me to go and die. muahahahahahahahahaaaaaa:D Happy to the maxxxxxx.

Then we had muddy mudpie, despite doctor's warning of avoiding anything that concerns milk which is, ice-cream. I mean, who cares! I dont mind having diarrhoea again(not really, touch all materials) as long as there's mudpieeeeee mudpie mudpie to eat.

Kay then met z!<3 Z is a bomb, i heart z Z z Z z Z!

Time to hit the sackkkkkkkkkk with a :) MWAHHZXZ.

p/s HAHAHA yes i love playing 'sell things' with you pep!

p/p/s New moon makes you cry right? No? I cried laaaaa dungness.

EDIT: MY CAMERA DIED ON ME DAMN IT. :@@@@@@

no man no.

I MISS YOU so darn much.

Sigh, i cant get to sleep. And Im childhood deprived. (Er, im spastic? Cant control my muscles due to my disability? No. What rubbish. Im perfectly normal and fine.)

Oh gosh look! Im B to the O to the R to the E to the D till i blogged 3 times, YAY.

FYI : We dont look alike. Esther is esther, and I is I, Van. Im the one with the big geeky specs, mind you.

FLOWER POWEERRRRRRRRR everything flower top to toe flowers flowers flowers my bracelets are flowers my shirt has a flower logo my skirt's full of vintagey flower pattern my hairband's flowery YES I LOVE FLOWER POWER. GO GO GO! HAHAHA.

I know, i dont look sick. Nor do i sound sick, but why look sick? Looking sick in peektures are bad. So alittle blusher and lip gloss makes the picture look perfect:) (and even more perfect when you have perfect skin, no pimples! *im not trying to haolian here hor.)

Thanks to everyone who asked me to get well soon, i really hope by saying get well soon I'll really get well soon, but life isnt like this. ): I've been in and out of the toilet for like dunno how many times, it's just fustrating. Also, esther my hot hot pepper(er?..HAHA) agreed to take me to the doctor so i wont have to face the doctor alone. Thanks hon! Bestest.

I so regretted not going to school, because there's an outing with yap lim qi +++ more after band today. Yet, i get to spend time with muaahahahaha zzzzzz! :D not a bad thing, a very good thing in fact:) i love z, so damn damn damn friggin' much.

OKAYYYYYY i is a tired so im hitting the darn sack now.

I, Me, Vanessa, van.

Hi. This is me, and me is this.

Right now, I which is me, and me which is I, am going to see the doctor. I, hate doctors very much. And apples dont really keep doctors away. Useless.

salt and sugar.

I didnt get my ass to school because my body system tends to like falling sick.

and, i really dont understand you.
the world will fall apart, if this continues. I dont, dont dont dont really dont - understand this from the start.

Its like sugar and salt, mixed together, its just wrong. Can we be plain sugar? Just throw away the salt. Or we can be salt too, no sugar. so tired.

oh and this.

Oh and this, this is what val wants me to put up in scribblytown. THIS! unglam but look at my brown eyes! (kay lah it seems like both of us have brown eyes but ignore hers and just concentrate on my.brown.eyes:) HAHA)

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Give me more lovin' then i've ever had, make it all better when i'm feelin sad, tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.

Hi earthlings.
Again, tired. this time + sick. But school's been fine, everything's currently going well and i know you know i still dont really like band cause its a waste of time. Nevertheless, i attended band every mon wed fri which leaves me free only on tues and thurs. Sigh. No more talking bout studies, no more. It makes me sick, and im already sick. But yeah it makes me feel .. ew.

happy belated birthday nat! Hope you like the gifts, bestfriend:)

theres only one way two say those three words and that's what i'll do. I love you.

then again.. im quite glad that my peektures are finally able to upload in the comp, this is what I say : hallelujah:) More pictures to come soooooon.

Also, i wont be blogging everyday, because it'll be very late when i reach home from school and im too shag to on the damn com. YEAH. SOOOOOO sorry babes and hunks(i know who reads and who asked me to add more pictures and who visits most of the time and who ask me to update) i'll update when i have the time! DO CONTINUE ( just friggin' continue dont stop come'on dont be lazy just type and click and ta-da done!) to tag. Keep this town alive. kudasai? In other words, please.

Seeyaw all happy studying/working/slacking/rotting/dying. :)

SO ITS SUNDAY!

Yeah man its sunday. Sun-sun-sun day-ay-ayyyy~ (and there's nothing great bout sunday cause its a school day tmr, sigh)


This is what's been going through my mind since dunno when :

Angbaos + icecream + $$$ + what is a nation? + first law second law standard form and indices + physics o___O + 2/16 for chem test lol + dnt proj + mamma mia/shrek dance party + oh no SYF + class 98.7 fm i luv luv luv! + study study and more studying ): + beautifying health and beauty book + band ah band + church + God + z!


Sec ones are mean people. They're mean little devils in disguise. I hate sec ones.

Anyway, railway mall and venezia's icecream worked out nice, after a long week.

and it was you and me against the world, and you promised me forever more. Was it something that i said? Was it something that i did? Cause i gotta know what made me unbeautiful.

My nose bled continuously when i was on the way to church in corrinne's car.
Corrinne : OMG what happen?
Me : tissue leh.
Cor's dad : let's pray let's pray.

hahahahaha yes! seeing z later:) TA!

shag

I can just collapse anytime.











Pale.

eyebags

Everyday is hell. Its waking up at 5.30am(5 mins often spent nua-ing) and be seated in the school bus by 6.05am. I AM DYING. My eyebags are getting more prominent(?!) and i look dead. My hair's messy and i get fustrated tying them over and over again early in the morning. I just wanna drop dead and sleep. S.L.E.E.P!!!!! Im sleep-deprived. Shitz. I look bad in pictures too. HOW? DIE AH, tomorrow's photoshoot, for IC(?) Damn.

1 grey booking in chinese class. Why? WHY? WHY?! Cuz' im late for 4/5 mins. Kanasai.

Town with evan, bought my toy wallet. Now I is BROKE.

5.30am - 6.30pm. Band officially ends around 6. Please attend my funeral tomor, will be expecting some of you all. Reason : Died of exhaustion. Miss me yeah?

Lastly, pictures that contain my dung face.

yes i look like shit, wont you love me anymore?

out of this club

I like my post on 1 january :D
HHAHAHAHAHAHA
and blogger likes to scare people :O

Today no boyfriend do saikang for girlfriend.
so no guys to see, hahahahahah QI! kidding nia.

another new year reso : No more than 20 f words in 2009. LMAO random.
Lao niang so tired now ZZZZZZ.

laughing prata

Kay i've made my resolutions for like 3 times today.
1) Home while listening to class 98.7 FM LOL!(addicted addicted o___O)
2) Small group
3) Cell group

HAHA! And i think my useless resos are all quite cool.
One of them is, LOVE CHINESE! and and, grow taller. AND AND AND!! fatter. And procrastinate less. And look good in class pictures(all pictures actually). And save money. And save the trees by not wasting paper lol. And grow more in God. Go church every saturday. Hahaha, dont waste moneh buying unnecessary things. Be in top 10 in class. No conflicts. Nicer handwriting. (LOL?) Not abandon my bought-from-borders-as-a-x'mas-gift book. Better bondage with family. Last long with Z?(duh). Do quiet time everyday. Read the bible. AIYA AND MORE.

Making useless resos are better than not making any at all. Right? Yes.

Also, i think i need to start working on who i wanna thank for 2008 now. No, tomorrow better.

CHURCH TODAY! Late as usual, sigh. One more to add in my resolution's list : BE PUNCTUAL.
Blah blah, z and my cell went to the same place to had our dinner. HAHA, fated? Then anyway, ruth, cor, ing, tiffany and me had supper at macs afterthat. Tiff went home soon after and the four of us started slacking. We tried making each other laugh and ruth kept going HA-HA-HA in her weird voice. Then cor started forming some stupid game bout trying to make someone laugh without laughing herself. I, the coolest, remained smsing Z. :D HAHAHA. Today was practically laughing prata day.

SO SHAGGED. Maths tuition at 9.30am in the morning was a horror.
Memoirs of a Geisha later? I hope my eyelids can take it.

I miss Z like a mad. ;P

K BYE.
p/s thanks liyuan and junyi for new year's gift! God bless. :)
p/p/s ERM can anyone tell me is there prayer meeting on thurs? lol.

edit :
thanks junyi for answering my second p/s. HAHA.

I like it.

So then i was lying on my king size bed listening to class 95 FM and 98.7 FM.

The radio was playing "Untouched" by the veronicas. (98.7 FM at that time)

I started scribbling on my newly bought-from-borders-as-a-x'mas-gift book.

Then i started writing lyrics on it.

Somehow i enjoy lying on my bed(literally!-mom's bed actually..but i slept on it everyday so!MINE) feeling the breeze from the fan(yes not natural wind) and i would really love to just stay on like this forever. No moveabouts, just lie there scribbling and listening to songs that explains how i'm feeling. Mmm.

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- I really like it.

2 janz.

Thinking bout reposting the pictures and typing every single thing out again is infuriating. ;(

Anyway.
School was a dungness! Had talks the whole day. I think its really silly. I dont know. Being upper sec makes me feel..old too. Sigh. Everyone gets old..who doesnt? And i think schoolbus can get late too. Im almost late. Even when the schoolbus's fetching me. But i love my new schoolbus. Humongous/spacious/and omg - english songs HAHAHA and and and automatic door! ( Like huh? Like that also happy ar?) Answer is : OF COURSE LAH! hello, i always embarrassed myself infront of pri school kids because, i dont know how to open the door properly. But now with just a button pressed by the bus driver, the door opens automatically! No more embarrassing moments! :) A good start for a new day of a new year. HAHA. I know im being random. *bus isnt really BUS but yeah bus. yknow, van but not van kinda thing.*

Met esther for ponyo but no ponyo at lot 1! :( saddening. So we decided to make the smartest choice in the whole world, RENT DVDS! like for only 2 bucks per cd? Balls of fury/ Memoirs of a geisha/ Stomp the yard.
Conclusion : NOW I CAN STOP BEING BORED DURING WEEKENDS!

K. random random random.

Then we went on to doing something even more random, which is of course, my idea!
We smsed several people telling them we rock their socks, and they have to make a choice.
hey hey hey.
Wanna make a choice too? It goes like this...

" VAN ROCKS YOUR SOCKS UP DOWN LEFT RIGHT! Please reply with your ultimate cool choice :
a) Duh!
b) yes, of course.
c) I know.

KAY :D some people replied. and its really funny. Touching too :O I REALLY ROCK THEIR SOCKS! whooooo~ and some like cor's "none of the above" and brid's "disagree". LOL.

mmmmmm im so bored. ta!

2000099999!

HAPPY NEW YEAR, its officially 2009! (like duh?)

Kay guess what? I've found my post. Its in my draft. :) Thank God. Now i can start thanking people who've been there for me so so much(or maybe not) in 2008.

Nat bobbios!

While others are celebrating their friendship by months, we celebrate ours by years. :D And our first year anniversary will be coming sooonnnnn! This march! Im so eggcited bout it cause we'll be celebrating it in a special way:)))) YES! Haha, it all seemed so fast. It felt like yesterday when i just went over to your house for a stayover. We watched shutter and got so scared to take pictures afterthat! Nevertheless, we took pictures like the one above:D And we kept thinking bout the girl sitting on our shoulders, especially you. HAHA. Thanks for being by my side no matter what, being there for me and even crap along with me. Thanks for sharing your problems with me, and even creating funny words like "mups". HAHA. Its for our usage whenever we dont want to let people know what we're talking about. Oh oh oh and i still remember when we got so bored in chinese class, we pretended to be airstewardesses and speak in an airstewardess way. "Good afternoon ladies & gentlemen, you are on board plane cx563..please fasten on your seatbelt...." HAHAHA. And i still sound like it better whereas yours failed. Thanks for jacking me always too!(-.-) Best is, you overcomed those obstacles with me and didnt even get brainwashed. lol. Thank you. I LOVE YOU BESTFRIEND! Now and always. (L)

Jingqi!

Cuzzzzzieeeeee camwhore freak:) Hahaha, you never failed to take out your camera whenever we go somewhere. We'll just take pictures for God-knows-how-many times. Thanks for stayovers and outings and your sushi treat! More to come, Love you hon!

Esther Pep!

Kay thanks for always calling me a bitch. Love you nevertheless :) Thanks for your crazy moments, i appreciate it alot! Always my.... what's it called? Oh, onee-chan! And and, thanks for telling me the whole twilight saga story. Hehe. (L)!

Regi!

HAHA, the most touching thing i ever heard from you was you talking to dont know who and from that moment i realised you meant alot to me :D Person : "Eh regi." You : "What regi? My name is regina, regi is not for you to call, or anyone else. Its only for vanessa." HAHAHA i was like..whoa *shining eyes* HAHAHA. Thanks for late night chats on phone, and being my science partner for like 2 years! I love you! (L)! (although i do get pissed whenever you didnt answer your phone, and i dont like your brozxz) K lmao.

Val!

Hi val! I dont like it whenever you abandon your blog i've created for you. But whatever it is, i still love you! Im sorry for neglecting you so much more than last year or last last year because im more into my friends and studies(i think) and thus i didnt care much bout you. This year is different! So what if i always disturb you bout you liking nicholas(HAHA I JUST DISTURBED YOU)? You know i dont mean it right, so chill. Dont just shut me up once i finished saying the word "nicholas" kay. Love you! P/s dont ever become a lesbian or i keel you.

priscillas!

You girls always cheered me up whenever Mrs Chua looked down on me. You girls are my best bunkers in the whole wide world, my good friends. We all looked like a dung here, so nevermind. Haha, Thanks for the memories we had in and out of band! Like the one where we laughed like madness in westmall. And the one where we gossipped so much late at night in japan. Thanks girls. Love yaw all. KUDASAI!(L)

Momah!

We've quarrelled like 1363525465242352 times in our lives. But you never failed to make me a happy girl again :) Thanks for wasting so much money on me and scolding me. HAHA Dont waste your saliva already lah ma :) Ahahaha. (L) you mummy! *and i'll still sleep with you on your bed when im 24!

Popeh!

I look like i can die anytime cause my lips is always so pale. You still love me right? Even if im skinny/fat/ugly/pretty! Thanks for always being able to fetch me whenever i ring your telly to bring me back cause im sick. Thanks for always asking the same "what do you want to eat?" every weekends. You'll look good even if you choose gay clothings. You're the best, love you daddy!(L) *though i never express it at times.

MAMA!

So what if val's better than me in every way? You still love me, i know! Because you always call me to ensure that im safe at home, and always call to ask if im eating dinner. YAY:D And i know you make the best chinese new year cookies ever! (L) you!

percussion!

YES! Percussion rocks up down left right. WE ARE THE BEST S.U.P. Thanks guys, for being etched in my memory foreverrrr. :D we rock rock rockkkkk.

Nissi Salt 1!

What can i say? I (L) my cellgroup, for the fun joy peace and concern! And bringing me so much closer to God. (L) Thanks salt1! Van (L) you forever!

Z! Its all your fault that we dont have a picture together ): KIDDING! hahahaha we must look good and we both claim we look like a dung now even if we dont. So, anyway, thanks for making me the happiest girl alive. I love your surprises and your lies for surprises so dont stop! Even if you were to die tomor, you must gimme a surprise the day before! (touch all materials) Thanks for your listening ear and encouragements, i love you i love you! :D

kk! Thanks for being in my life once, i'll always keep your letters with me. :)

SO IM DONE! phew. So wordy. And so longwinded. But its okay la. Lastly,

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k the unglam me in 2008 yay:D bye:D