Sunday, November 29, 2009
things i'll never say
Yesterday i was really moodless and spent the whole day playing with my itouch, i didnt go church again. I think i'm really a bad christian. But wtv. Thank goodness night time wasn't that bad cuz zh and I went to jp for dinner.
Tomorrow will be the last day i'll be seeing him before i leave sg to maldives! And we're going cycling (hopefully) :>
Till later earth!
Saturday, November 28, 2009
happy
Thursday, November 26, 2009
♥
Woke up really early (to me) on 23 nov, to meet my dear friends @ orchard mrt. Dawn and nat were there when i reached so we went to Ion orchard to grab a bite. Settled at some dimsum chinese restaurant and ordered porridge for my stupid problematic stomach! Waited for annetta to come while eating. Brought in the cake (look how nice it is) and sang happy bday song afterwhich i'm given a box of present (by nat and ann) and i have to dig for the main thing.
AS YOU CAN SEE, it's a G-string. GOOD ONE. hahahahaha up till now i still dont dare to wear yet :P
Walked around before dawn's bf came to find us. Chilled out, they drank breezer :P Dawn & jon got me heels! Very pretty ones. (though i really liked the pull and bear heels which doesnt have my size) Thanks sweet friends :>
Bf came, friends left, accompanied him to eat. Grandma smsed me this :
Grandma: Why not ask your bf to come for dinner
Me: Why?
Grandma: Since today everyone is here, you can introduce him to us. Don be scared
HAHA cute right. Not like im scared, besides she saw him before. Thus i persuaded dear zh to come (and it took so long....) But he did came in the end. Now EVERYONE in my family knows and met kzh <3!>
Family celebrated bday with a cake and grandpa cooked my favourite dishes. BUT sadly my stomach was being a sad bitch that day >: afterthat everyone went home and zh walked home with my mum and dad. Stayed for awhile before going. I love my boy!
All in all, i really enjoyed my 15th birthday, thanks to everyone who wished me in facebook, in smses, and also in calls, to my dearest and sweetest friends, (really dont know how it will turn out if its not for you guys), to esther for the book "memories of us", to my family as well, and lastly to my zh.
Last but not least,
hahahahahahaahhahahahhahahahahahahahah siao.
oh yea itouch tmr!
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
sooooon-er
I had an awesome birthday, and thank you everyone for the birthday(& lasting long with zh) wishes :> Love you guys.
Meanwhile i'll update about my birthday soon, when the pictures are ready. Goodbye :>
Sunday, November 22, 2009
first year and birthday :>
today was awesome <3 and you know what, i love my bf f**k loads im gonna gobble him up.
Love you babyyyyyy zhihonggggg you're the sweetest person God can ever give to me. You make me go CRAZY over you, honest. Ask my friends. Just love you so.damn.much.okey<3>
Though there were really bad times and awesome good times together, i'm still glad we went through it whole-heartedly and bravely, and i really thank God for that. You're the BEST. HAPPY 1st YEAR KZH, muackkkzkzzzzzzxzxxzx!
Hi.(sorry for the mushy-ness up there, its for my <3)>
HAHA so now it's 12am and richelle's the first to wish me a happy birthday, (actually is baby but too advanced) followed by nat and mummy. And thanks rory for the advance bday wish on my taggy.
Hope tomorrow's gonna be a goooooood bday! :-) Love my friends, family and most of all, bf. Not to forget the amazing daddy i have, God.
Saturday, November 21, 2009
wake up everyone, how can you sleep at a time like this?
heya.
Skipped church cuz not feeling good, slept whole day again. Yadayadayada blah blah BAH. Tomorrrrooooow yoo know whatttt's cumin up! I prayyyy i'll be fine by then ^^
And then soon i'll be oooofff to beautiful maldives :-)
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Friday, November 20, 2009
i'll follow you into the dark
Other than that i guess there's not much for this week. (but its been kinda good)
Thursday, November 19, 2009
stayover @ nat's
Monday, November 16, 2009
say it out loud
Touch
Civilization
Plane rides
Emotional distress
Being alive
Being asleep and awake
Infinite
Time
Love
Memory
Black holes
Weather patterns
Being dead
being remembered
True? Yea.
Anyway i liked today cuz its a cold day, very cosy, good to sleep :> Didnt take a nap today, surprisingly. Addicted to bejeweled :@ So i have a v strong feeling tonight's gonna be a good sleep for me. Meantime, can't wait for tomorrow, can be in boyfran's arms.
Now im gonna watch telly and eat.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
start or end?
Wednesday celebrating mummy's birthday, will be going mad shopping, shopping for christmas presents tooooo :-) Have a feeling my whole biggie family will like the xmas presents i'll be giving them ^^ Wednesday night, staying over at nat's place! :> So this week sounds fun and cool. Sunday, celebrating my bday and 1st year with my dearest zh, monday my bday with frans!
omgosh hope everything will go as planned, preeettty please!
Next next week i'll be off to maldives. It seemed like yesterday we were still discussing to go or not, and now its just 2 weeks time! :>
Happy birthday popo! And yesterday even though i had great dinner, i couldnt sleep till 4.30am, which is after i vomitted. The feeling was horrible, high fever all the way till morning :O and mommy wanted to bring me to 24 hrs clinic but didnt. Sigh :/ Thank goodness around 10+ im so much better!
Ah. Right now im just so addicted to bejeweled.
Saturday, November 14, 2009
8 more days, 9 more days
Today: Slept in the whole day, as usual. Every weekend is the same. Evening met aunt, uncle & co, went to indulge in great italian foooood, followed by super sweet dessert, my favourite lava cake! What can I say? It was all good :>
Skipped church again. Where's my heart? I guess I lost it somewhere. Where's God? Still with me. Where's myself? I dont know. Where's my saturday for God? Gone somewhere.
I really miss zh badly. I need to learn to control. Sigh.
Sometimes i feel so greedy. Oh anyway, i hope zh can quickly learn how to make muddy mud pie from his fran! Craving for it :P
Okayyyy, tomorrow is popo's birthday. Celebrating it with her! Bb.
p/s get an itouch or no?
Thursday, November 12, 2009
2012
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
donuts
So first thing first : I'm gonna make a list of what i feel like eating or having a crave on, then make sure i go get them. And then i will book tickets for myself and boy, 2012 tix.(tomor!) Then im gonna do what i really feel like doing. AND UNLESSSSSS i'm really bored, i'll not complain i'm bored. (which will be a little hard) HAHA.
Hoping to have 2 stayovers! One at pris's and another at nat's.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
i call you mine
HI! First, Happy Birthday Rory :> Second, I think im addicted to bejeweled blitz(facebook) cuz i kept playing and beating records. Third, met emy monroe and her friend today for a short while. Fourth, had subway for dinner.
Okay. I rotted today again but its okay yknow its really quite okay. At least i have the priviledge and the honour and the time and the chance to slack, like really really slack. Hehz.
Mmm i wanna eat famous amos now. And drink good milk tea, have haagen daz ice-cream and muddy mud pie! shittttt i really have lots of cravings don't I? )-:
sigh. I wish there's more to life. LIFE. Life's being a bitccch.
Monday, November 9, 2009
heavy rotation
]:< bob
Sunday, November 8, 2009
THE DAY YOU REALIZE YOU'RE EVENTUALLY GOING TO DIE IS THE DAY YOU'LL LEARN HOW TO LIVE
Every weekend never seem to miss out an afternoon nap. I can sleep for crazy long hours, and able to sleep at night again. i guess sleeping's gonna be my hobby soon. I'm really bored, and i dont even bother finding a job, i mean its not like i dont have money that i needa work. And, holidays are for enjoying and stoning right. Sigh. I still wish i could have a job to pass time. But working is silly. So yay.
Just wish there's something cool and nice and unboring to do right now, like finding the perfect skin for this silly plain site, yknow im really getting bored of this, and people are too. I dont know if anyone's reading, i dont intend to care either, but its really getting boring!
If only i could live in New York or something..or Paris even! It'll be a dream come true. I'm not a fashionista or whatsoever but places like there are really big fashion cities and materialistic stuffs that i think its really cool. Busy everyday..busy being someone keeping up with fashion everyday! okay i'll not sound like a fashion bimbo now.
I bet corrinne is enjoying herself in japan now and trying to find caucasian guys. Tsk. Ok i'm really bored ok, until i have to mention her. HA.
I need entertainment. Hopefully tomorrow will be somewhat more interesting than today. Please God, thanks.
Saturday, November 7, 2009
sickly woman
Running a fever in the middle of shopping. Went home first. Slept, i must say its good to sleep when you're sick. Played typing maniac on facebook(lol) afterthat. Darn bored now, nobody at home. Waiting for mummy to buy back dinner!
I miss zh ): Oh yea ytd went to vivo with zh. Just needed to unwind, wanted to go hort park but its like so last min so didnt. Headed to vivo instead. Before that we rented secret to watch at my homie :> I had a moment of pms too. Sorry :/ But all in all ytd was goooood :>
Sigh. bye. And, ice cream anyone?
i feel like a shit, honestly. Cellgroup? I dont even feel like i belong there. I dont know why. Church? Go church? Yeah go church. I dont even feel homely in that place, dont feel God there. Even when i tried and asked Him to help. I cant. Worse now, smallgroup gone. I DONT EVEN FEEL LIKE GOING THERE ANYMORE. sorry. Its just how i feel now. But i will still try to go. Afterall, thats the place where people care the most, or is it? i dont know seriously.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
hover the world
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
thinking is regconizing causes
Im so bored this is so boring waiting is boring doing nothing is boring. i think i'll take a nap soon or make a little card for that someone i'm waiting for. Cuz it keeps me occupied so i wont keep missing and thinking.
xxx
edit:/ i can CRY seriously. this boredom is killing me. Perpetually.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
19 more, 20 more.
Besides that, i really had a bad time communicating with my china part time maid. Cuz i really cant speak chinese, she really really really cant make out what i'm trying to say. I tried so hard. In the end i rang up my mom to seek help.
So shingz.
Anyhoo, cant wait for tomorrow! It's gonna be another island creamery night with zh! wahahahahzzzzz. Mega boomz!!! cant waaaaiiittttt. I noticed once we start liking something, we'll get addicted to it(and keep going)! Haha, its just so zh-vanz thang. I dont wanna go school tomorrow either. But i think i will. arghhhzzz dont know.
i feel like this post is so unlike me. kk wtv yaw.
Monday, November 2, 2009
20 more.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Oopsy Daisy
underwear: "I have the worst job in the world."
Hi.
be someone. It just needs to exist. I want to stop disappointing people because
I want to stop disappointing myself. I want to stop making friends with the
right kind of people who make me feel wrong. I want to find a passion for
anything, anything to keep me going. I want to be a girl at the end of the movie
who does the half smile, and knows everything will be fine. I want total honesty
to be easier to achieve. I want to end my life as myself - not my friends, not
my family, and not who they always expected I would be. I want
equality to exist among everyone. Especially prejudiced teenage girls. I want
I want to watch a movie!
There's remedial at 8am tomorrow and maybe band practice + bf has long hours of school tmr urgh :( seriously kns, KANASAI. shingz.
There's a point in your life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything but it's not giving up. It's just realizing that you dont need certain people and the bullshit they're always bringing.
xxxxxxz.
brilliant mistakes
2. Cheer up nissi salt 1! God has a reason to do this.
3. I love my baby.
1: Because its not worth it. Really. Not. Worth. It. Sigh.
2: Yes, I may not go church often. Or i may only be able to make it for cellgroup. But afterall, i still know and love everyone as brothers and sisters in christ. And i absolutely feel guilty for not being able to make it today because its the last day the cell are together as one. Now that my small group's being dispersed, its really sad. However I believe God has a reason to do this and no matter what the outcome is, praise God. We can still meet up!
Thanks Shannon, jieying, mavis, mun ho, corrinne, Jonathan, James, Zoe and Anyi for making small group wonderful :>
And i promise i'll try to make it every sat for church.
3: I love zh. And i realise almost every post has zh zh zh ever since we got together. Tsk. Haha. Went to jurong point with zh after interview at night. :-) Bought new nail polish(s)! Love the colours. Im a spendthrift.
Sigh. Life can be so good at times, but can just change within seconds. Anything and everything can happen, but then again, there's a reason behind everything, right? Right.
Life is a joke if you think it is. Life is unbeautiful if you think it is. But why not try thinking it the positive way? Afterall you have only 1 life, so why not make the best out of it? Turn the sad things the other way round. Whats the opposite of sad? Happy. Forget the unhappy ones. No one wants to take a photograph of things they dont want to remember.
Humans are always so fragile and bound to be broken.
Humans are always so fragile and never unspoken.
Be tough.